A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! π
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime β€οΈ
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
@Optimisticempath Hey you :) Just wanted to say hey and that you've been in my thoughts π
@mytwistedsoul
Soulllllπ₯Ί even tho me an awful friend sometimes ... you never fail to make me feel cared for ...idk how to express how much it means to me..and how much you and your friendship means to me π₯Ί thankyou vv much β€ me luvs you and appreciates you a lot π€ *tight squeeeziee* you in my thoughts too Soul β€Β
hows you doing lately? π₯Ί
@Optimisticempath You're never an awful friend OptiBear! β€οΈ You're hurting and struggling with a lot π and friends check in on friends and remind them that they're cared about and loved β€οΈ π β€οΈ
@Optimisticempath
Milky,π₯π§Έ how's you? ππ§Έ
*shares burger π & fries π with Milky π₯π§Έ*
@VictoriaLove7
thank you rainbow bear π₯Ί you find the cutest pictures ππ§Έ me likey burger and fries *nom nomΒ π₯° shares with you too if you want π
im ok Victory ... how are you? and your knee pain? memory is terrible but I think you mentioned something like it... π Β
@Optimisticempath
*takes some fries π, nom nom & huggss Milky*π₯π§Έππ€πππ§Έ
me is vvv glad that you are ok & rainbow bear ππ§Έ hopes you be gentle π₯Ίπ to yourself, Milkyπ₯π§ΈπΒ
yes yes, me sometimes have knee pain, you remember it correctly, Milky!π₯π§Έ βΚ α΅α΄₯α΅ Κβ
me is okie in general, but sometimes have itchy allergy on me palms & right knee pain when sitting long βΚ β’α΄₯β’ Κβ
@VictoriaLove7
mhm me will try π
oh no .. did you see doctor for knee pain and itchy palms ππ§Έ?Β
be gentle with you too and take care also π more huggieees for chuπ€
@Optimisticempath
yes yes, Milky π₯π§Έπ Κα΅α΄₯α΅ Κ me ππ§Έ see the doctors for me allergy & knee pain, & got some medicines π to take Κβ’α΄₯β’ΚΒ
me will try to be gentle to myself & chu be more gentle to yourself too! π€π
*huggieess chuu back* π₯π§Έππ€ππ§Έ π₯βΚα΅α΄₯α΅ Κβπ
Heeelooooo Lumieeeeππ
Miss youuuu!! π
@Yougotmyback
Amyboooπ₯Ί me so happy to see you ππππ miss you too π
how's your health if ok to ask? me hopes you taking care of chu π *huggles you tightly*
idk how do people have the will and energy to ...well.. live? and doing it everyday? ...fr?
do people really look forward to something? a morning? meeting someone? being around other people? setting goals? food? hobbies? movies? life? how???
im just so π₯΄Β I can't think of anything i look forward to smh ...idk how that even feels like anymore..Β
it's sad tho...i wasn't doing ok in a long time but lately it doesn't even seem to matter much lmao..
just here with an endless misery of this pathetic existence ewwπ
@Optimisticempath
Milky π₯π§Έππ₯Ί perhaps by having a hobby,Β or maybe buying stuff online then you will have smoll things to look forward to πΚγ£β’α΄₯β’Κγ£ππ₯βΚα΅α΄₯α΅ Κβπ
Me ππ§Έ also feel like that most of the times. Then me try to buy stuff in an online store, & then me got smoll things to look forward to (the smoll packages π¦ βΚοΏ«α΄₯οΏ©Κβπ
ill spiral worse if i don't make use of this silly humor smh ...so here we are .. again... π€‘π€‘
so easyy
im supposed to feel sad and like really really sad about something... like maybe also angry on the person because they treated me wrong... made me feel insecure and even more alone.....were inconsistent and emotionally hurtful ...Β broke my trust... are no longer my safe person space... no longer wanna be my friend or love one and just kinda ditching on me... but idk why am i not really feeling it...was this so expected or idk
they said a lot of things even admiting all of that ... and I could only say it's ok??????????
is it? idk... its probably not..my smh ...lowkey saw that coming.. one of those I told you so moments with myself... people dont really stay lmao so what did I even expect... nothing... it should hurt ... I think its hurting but also i dont really know... when did I become so devoid of feelings π.... me thinks me just lacking any energy to show any emotion or say anything... they've decided whatever they wanted and nothing gonna change it so like why bother... it's fine...all is fine... nothing new here...about people leaving.. or just walking out when they feel they are done with you....totally cool bruh..huhπΒ
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*huggsss Milky π₯π§Έπ₯Ί*
It might be because Milky π₯π§Έ is gentle to them, but me ππ§Έ think that Milky π₯π§Έ should be more more gentle to chuself *ππ§Έ huggss Milky π₯π§Έπ₯Ί tighttt*
@VictoriaLove7
maybe ππ§Έ π₯Ί me cant do confrontation and stuff and it's so hard to tell someone how we feel even if they hurty etc π
hugs you tight β€Β
@Optimisticempath
Milky π₯π§Έππ₯Ί me used to be like that too, then me read of 'I' statements article. It suggests we can tell people who hurty us using 'I' statements,Β like, 'I feel.... when you...' but it might not be easy either.
But but, me think you should be more gentle to yourself because when people hurty us, it is not our fault. π₯Ίπ₯π§Έπ
*huggsss Milky π₯π§Έπ vv tighttt*π₯π§Έπ€πππ§Έ
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Hugs π₯Ί till you feel betterΒ
@RachelListener
@Optimisticempath
*huggss till you feel better*π₯Ί
a lot of emptiness
a lot of numbnessΒ
a lot of darkness
it's weird ... sometimes there's just blankness inside but it's not peacefully blank but like very noisy and crowded and uncomfortably loud ... still there's nothing? a lot of noise and then nothing?
this doesn't even make sense i guess but idk it's all weird inside π
@Optimisticempath
*sitting with Opti beary bean if okay and offering hugs* π«π
@LoveMyMoonflowers
flowerbuddybeanπ₯Ί i missed you smπ and you always welcome to sit with me and hug me friend π₯Ί hugs back and sitting with you π
@Optimisticempath
aww. i missed you too friend π₯Ί and been thinking of you <3 me kinda been in and out of cups but me thinks iβm back from break now π π big big hugs for you my friend πΒ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i don't feel a lot of people think about me so it is so nice and idk cry worthy sweet to hear that you doπ₯Ί thank you π
i cud do a lil happy dance now that your back then :P welcome back flowerbuddy π€ im sure a lot of people missed you...ik I didπ₯Ί..you are always so kind and thoughtful with just the sweetest words to sayπ₯°Β Β how was your break?Β
how is you feeling rn?Β
big big hugs back π€π€ππππ
@Optimisticempath
awwΒ π₯ΊΒ what makes Opti friend feel that way? :( me knows some people here who defo keep you in their thoughts friendΒ πΒ your a vvvvv sweet, lovely friend and you always have beenΒ πΒ so v kind to your friends. it would be hard not to have you in thoughts friendΒ π₯Ίπtbh i think our brainies seem okay with the fact that we love other people/our friends and have them pop into our thoughtsΒ πΒ but brainie is mean to self and mmmmβ¦ :/Β
happy danceΒ π€Β thank you friend, thatβs so sweet. <3 i did miss lots of people here tooΒ π₯ΊΒ including youΒ π₯ΊπΒ and iβm still missing some people because theyβre on break too/ i still havenβt seen them in a while :') :')Β
my break was okie, it was mostly just meβ¦ and life, dealing with lifeΒ π€ͺΒ and peeking at cups now and then but not really for long lolΒ π Β so sweet of you to ask friendΒ π
iβm feeling okay nowΒ πΒ thank you friendΒ πΒ tbh i ainβt been the best (during break) but itβs okay lol :') breathing, dealing with life, schoolybobsβ¦Β πΒ ill say im okay lolΒ π€·π»ββοΈΒ howβs you now?Β π₯ΊΒ (no pressure)
*biggest hugs*Β
Iβm sorry friend most of what i said didnβt make any sense π π
@Optimisticempath
*rainbow bear ππ§Έπ₯Ίπ also sits with Milky π₯π§Έ & huggss you vv tightttt*
everything hurty πΒ
please shush brain shush just shushπΒ
@Optimisticempath
huggies you if okie ππ
@LoveMyMoonflowers huggies you back ππ
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*ππ§Έ huggss Milky π₯π§Έπ tightttt π₯Ίπ*
a loss reminder day .....
idk how to get through this.... been so many years but it's all so fresh still....i can chronologically assign the events of this day many years back.... even now...Β
but no wanna think or remember....π
hidey...
@Optimisticempath
*me sits & hide with Milky ππ§Έπ₯π§Έππ₯Ί if okie*
do you wanna talkie about it, Milky? π₯π§Έππ₯Ί
@VictoriaLove7
no talkie π₯Ί
*hugs and hidey with ππ§ΈΒ
πͺπͺ for ππ§Έ because ππ§Έ is the sweetest bear everr
@Optimisticempath
*nom nom πͺ πͺ π₯ , ππ§Έ huggiess Milky π₯π§Έπ, & hidey with Milky π₯π§Έππ₯Ί*
me ππ§Έ will keep you safe, Milky π₯π§Έππ₯Ί
Heyy I just wanted to ask you what is your personality type? I absolutely love asking these types of things cuz there just so fun!