Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
Sad, lonely, fed up, angry, anxious...but all of this was a bit lessened once I talked with an awesome listener who I would recommend to anyone and everyone(GaymerNerd).
Anxious,scared and relieved in the same time
I feel lonely, depressed and anxious. Things just seem to be hitting me everywhere and everything. I feel out of control.
Before I came to work I was really really really depressed. ..I'm going to hate to go home after work. ..because I get more depressed to the point I can't go to sleep
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Yesterday was one of the worst days I've had in a while battling depression. Today, still feelhungoverfrom all the emotion, but somewhat better. Actually feeling a little motivated and excited for things today.
Woke up anxious and feeling really depressed. Woo hoo. Great way to start the day. I'm not getting out of bed.
I'm sad and tired of everything
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Everyday is an extreme struggle. I have no family, i live alone, and the only friend i have doesn't understand why i isolate and cut myself. I use to sleep every night, but now i can never get my mind to "turn off" long enough to let me sleep.
I hate living, and i don'tremember the last time I (If ever) was happy to be alive.
@O3Q495 It is really hard sometimes for friends to understand why we self harm, they see us as great people who shouldn't be hurting the only body we have. It's true, we shouldn't, but we still do. I understand it's a way of taking out anger with yourself, or trying to feel something, or it's justa way of release. I'm sorry that you have to go through all of that, just know that you aren't alone. We are all here for you. Even when you isolate yourself just know we will always be here.
@musicmaniacThank you so much for your support. It's really comforting to hear someone say that.
In my personal life i have no one to relate to. I'll try to open up to my only friendin my life, but it never works out. It always turns into a matter of a "weak mindset," which promptly makes me stop trying to explain.
I don't blame him for feeling that way. No one knows about my experience (besides whoever reads theposts i've made in the Self Harm and Depression forums) and it's hard to make someone understand trauma like that, or the despair that comes with it. Besides how can I explain something like that to anyone? No one knows this about me.
No problem @O3Q495 It feels like only people who self-harm understand, and that makes it so hard because they just don't get it. I believe in you though, I think you should try not to isolate yourself though. Being around people has helped me a lot. It gives me less time to be alone with my thoughts, I think it could possibly help you too. Whether he understands itor not, your friend cares about you a lot and they want you here. Okay? Isolating yourself is not good, it honestly tends to cause more problems.
You are absolutely correct @musicmaniac. However i'm sure i don't have to tell you how difficult it is to take a step in the right direction.
It's hard for me to try and better mylife, when all iwant is for it to end. So i cut to punish myself for being alive, and i take way more of my prescriptions than i should to shorten it. And unlike how i have felt in the past, i have little to no fear of the consequences.
I apologize for how grim that sounds, but it's how i honestly feel.
Please keep living @O3Q495 I know it's hard, I know. I am really sorry you feel like that. You shouldn't punish yourself for being alive, you deserve to be on this Earth just as much as anyone else. Your life matters, people care. No need to apologize for how you feel. I honestly hope you can overcome all of this. It just takes that first step of actually trying to get better.
