Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I feel kind of good, which scares me. Usually when that happens I hit rock bottom within the next few days. Plus, this rarely ever happens. Being "happy" or "content" seems alien to me now.
I feel kind of good, which scares me. Usually when that happens I hit rock bottom within the next few days. Plus, this rarely ever happens. Being "happy" or "content" seems alien to me now.
Depression is my happy. I've become so accustom to always being depressed so it's my new normal. This week has been more difficult than usual and I'm scared I just don't want to do something stupid. I mean I've already ruined my 1 week clean. Tonight.
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I've been extremely sad lately. Im not quite sure why anymore, i kind of feel like its my own content. I kind of wish i knew what was wrong so i couldproblem solve. I feel like i need to go back to therapy but my parents wont let me. I've also had a lot of anxiety today
Hi @AmberRun183
I like to think of depression as being like a cone with a wide mouth at the top that flutes down to a narrow point at the bottom. LIke a trumpet. Now imagine a marble spinning in that wide part. When everything is fine in your life and you're in the right space, you spin in that wide point.. little things pop up from time to time but you rebound if you deal with them and they don't build up upon you. If they do build up upon you or you can't deal with things as they come, you start to spin down the flute but as you go down, you spin faster as you continue to rol lower down the flute. At this point, it becomes harder to get yourself back up on your own at that point. You need support to get you back to the slow spin of the top.
What support options do you have around you at the moment, @AmberRun183?
Sometimes when our sadness becomes consistent and we
i agree, my friends are sort og supportive, also my school nurse
I feel lonely. That no one cares. Depressed.
I'm a weird one here. I have a celebrity worship syndrome, that is what my doctors said. And today i lost my happiness, my parents ripped off all of my poster and burned it. And they did not even care what im saying. They always blame me. Anothey issue, they don't understand my situation. Sometimes they said they wish i were dead
I'm so sorry that your parents do not seem to have a way to connect with you, and are seemingly so misunderstanding. They may not have a way to deal with the fact that they either have no way to help you, or no way to handle it themselves. My mother was the same when I was a teen, and left me to deal with some pretty major things on my own. You have two choices - give in to the easier, bad impulses that you feel give you some release OR fight. Fighting I will say is much harder - however, every time you fight one small impulse to cut, or stay calm, or not give in, you win. Every time you win, you can give yourself one strength point. The strengths in your bank accumulate - you get to keep those and it does not take long to become strong. Trust me - been here, done that. But you control it.
One little strength at a time babe. You are so much stronger than you think.
