In working on my PTSD and the path of healing I am receiving some great support. It is amazing to go from being so afraid to ask for any help to being in a spot where you are encouraged to ask and share. I am not saying I am good at sharing or opening up, but I think that will come, but I feel like I have a found a potentially safe place.
Through all the support I am also trying to learn and accept that it is ok if we take a few steps backwards, because tomorrow it might go in the right direction again. Also, I am finding that I have to take much smaller steps that I first thought, for me to feel relatively safe. Safety is so important to me, yet it is really hard to find and keep.
I have attended a lot of the Trauma support group sessions before I always leave feeling a little more informed, but today I felt like I needed to leave. I went for a walk and tried to think though what it was this time that made me feel unsafe and scared. I don' have the answer. I am just glad I left.