Cycles of PTSD
Headed to work, did not sleep well at all today, it is going to be tough being around people today and I definitely worry about having flashbacks at work.
Deep breath -
perhaps today is the day I can break the downward spiral of this round of PTSD exacerbation
I finished my third session of counseling and this time it was a little easier. Not quite so worried about meeting with a stranger for a talk. I am sure I am not done being afraid of going through with it, but I am getting more reassured that I am doing the right thing.
@TrineT
You're doing good. :) The unknown joined with the hard work, it can be a bit frightening. But I read through your writings and you are strong.
Today is a day to look forward, to go do, not because I need to for healing but because I want to.
@TrineT
Awesome post!
Some days are up some days are down, so if this is a down day - that means there is a chance that tomorrow will be better.
I have a lot more in my tool bag today than I did even just three months ago to fight this PTSD. I try to work hard at it everyday. It is like it is almost a full-time job trying to practice the coping skills every day - so that when needed it will come more natural to use. I have started seeing a few methods that working for me again such as being in the outdoors have a calming effect and it really helps me reduce the internal stress that builds up.
Even so, there are still many days and nights I am fighting just to get through the fear and flashbacks and all the emotional garbage. I am slow in my healing and it is at times difficult to have the patience, especially if I go through several days that feel like giant steps backward. But I have now learned those are the times that I need to reach out for support to get the encouragement, motivation, and inspiration to continue on this path. I helps tremendously to be able to ask some of the many questions you are left standing with and also to be "challenged" in your way of thinking and your perspective, which can allow you to see things differently and thus allow for growth and healing.
@TrineT that's awesome that you are seeing the light at the end of the tunnel in a way and knowing that there are ways to get past this or at least reduce its occurrences. It takes a strong heart to believe that and it seems like you are doing all the right things to deal with this disorder :) I can't wait to see all the progress you make. Keep us updated either in your feed or in this thread :)
You are doing so well @TrineT... be encouraged... and one step at a time, sometimes seems like a step back, so be patient. We are with you on your journey to healing.