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My Silent Voice (Diary)

September 23rd, 2017
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My notes for today: Fake people with Fake motives yet they are the ones you are suppose to love and care about??

It is so hard to change me when daily I face the same unproductive crap that keeps feeding on my Traums's How do you get out of this dark hole when everything around you keeps dragging you into this pit. I never knew Love and I've had to make my pain my pleasure and find Happyness in it. Makes me wonder are some people born just to endure torrment and abuse. I trive as I just want to survive, The saying we all have the right to life and the pursuit of happyness. I'm still looking, still trying to find what should already be mine.

ScarletPear1945

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mytwistedsoul January 26th, 2023
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@scarletPear1945 Just dropping off a hug ❤️

bubblegumPuppy68 January 27th, 2023
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@mytwistedsoul

web site help sucks and seems impossible to get help. Scarletpear is locked out of the Member account since Christmas. Support is not helping. Do you know anyone to contact???

mytwistedsoul January 31st, 2023
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@bubblegumPuppy68 Oh no! The website help does suck tbh. I often get the emails that say I'll hear back in 24-48 hours but I never do

Maybe contacting Heather? Or Hope? Or Mel? Someone higher up on the food chain? I'll look around and see who I can ask. Maybe filling out a bug report? Because your account still comes up as active but you're locked out of it


BubblegumPuppy February 1st, 2023
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@mytwistedsoul

The account that this is posting under is just BubblegumPuppy without the 68 and the 68 is supposed to be the Listener account. What a mess. Can you provide info as to how to contact one of them?

mytwistedsoul February 1st, 2023
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@BubblegumPuppy I couldn't find Mel - but here's https://www.7cups.com/@Heather225

https://www.7cups.com/@Hope

https://help.7cups.com/hc/en-us/requests/new

The last one is the help page to submit bugs and requests. I can't guarantee that they'll be of help but hopefully Heather or Hope can point you in the right direction

I can imagine your frustration. It's so hard to get in touch with someone when you need help with this stuff here

I hope you can get it sorted out!

BubblegumPuppy February 2nd, 2023
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@mytwistedsoul

Thank you so much>👌OOPs emailed Heather without the 225 on the email but it did not come back.

mytwistedsoul February 2nd, 2023
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@BubblegumPuppy You're welcome! ❤️ You could try messaging them too. It might be quicker but I can't guarantee that either. Communication here is really lacking 😕

BubblegumPuppy February 3rd, 2023
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@mytwistedsoul

Heather has gotten to work to try to get it fixed. Thank you so much sis😊❤️

I got hit with that new stomach virus which has been awful. I hope it is finally coming to an end.

The contractors did not show up to start the work on the kitchen cabinets or floor. Suppose to come today I hope. back I got to get help to put back 3 panels of the fence the storm took down. A project for later. One step at a time.

Oh by the way I saw your chickens and that Pretty horse. I love that😊

mytwistedsoul February 3rd, 2023
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@BubblegumPuppy You're welcome! I'm happy I could help 😊 I'm glad its being worked on. Hopefully it won't take too long to fix


Oh no! I hope you feel better soon! It's no fun being sick ❤️

Hopefully the contractor showed up today and did some work. Between being locked out of here - being sick and the contractor not getting things done - I would be so frustrated by now

Awww you saw my feathery friends! 😊 They are such sweet chickens. They run up when they see me and like to be petted and Danny boy - he's a good horse. He takes treats so nice and is just really gentle

*hugs to you* ❤️

mytwistedsoul February 16th, 2023
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You've been in my thoughts ❤️ no word on how things are going with the account?

*sending you lots of hugs* ❤️

bubblegumPuppy68 March 2nd, 2023
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@mytwistedsoul

I just got a text from Heather yesterday. She could not find my Member account, and she needs a link to one of my 50+ Forum Posts. I asked AdmiralPeace last night if she could send Heather a link as I can not access the account. Even this account she said has not been used in over a year which is not true. However, I think when they did all the updates to the site, something happened that canceled my account.

I have been sick with something going on with my stomach, and I still have stomach issues.

The contractors have not yet begun the work on my home as of yet, and I am really discussed with all this bull. He went and had me purchase all the supplies and was supposed to be here this morning at 7 am, which was a no-show.

I got a new Therapist last week, the ones that would not return my call, finally called and gave me an appointment. Not sure, if I am going to stay or not seems they are very disorganized.

Just ate and my stomach is getting upset. Talk to you as soon as I can, and thanks for checking on me

mytwistedsoul March 2nd, 2023
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@bubblegumPuppy68 Omg Pear that sucks! I would be devastated if I lost my account. I kind of remember seeing someone else saying thier account got deleted too. Man that's just horrible. I hope they can fix it for you


There's been talk about a stomach bug going around. I'm sorry you haven't been feeling well. I hope you get better soon ❤️

*Smh* I'm guessing the contractor doesn't even have the decency to call and say he's not coming or that he'll be late?

Congratulations on the new therapist! You were looking for awhile. I'm glad someone finally got in touch with you. Did they just open? Maybe that's why they're disorganized? Hopefully the therapist is someone you click with - that would make up for the lack of organization

Maybe a nice cup of tea would help your stomach? Chamomile and mint can help with tummy troubles ❤️

I really hope things get figured out your account and your contractor stops being butthead and does his job
*hugs tight* take good care of you ok? ❤️
WorkingitThrough2 March 14th, 2023
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@mytwistedsoul

Got a new account WorkingThrough2. Never got a message back about the old account😊

mytwistedsoul March 14th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2 Pear! *big hugs* ❤️ Welcome back! You've been in my thoughts. I missed you! Dang I'm sorry they never got back to you about your old account 😞 I was hoping they'd fix things

Can I still call you Pear? Or maybe Wit - for Working it through? 🙂
How are things? How are you?
WorkingitThrough2 March 15th, 2023
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@mytwistedsoul

Hi,😁

I am in such turmoil right now, and alters are very active in the background. Sleep has been awful.

The contractor has been a joke, but all I had to work with. The work was half done and the new flooring is stretched up from him moving the refrigerator. He had the nerve to charge me a huge price and the work was still not complete. Coming back Friday to supposedly to complete his work.

I am having another person come and do my Living room floor. I have been working day and night moving and washing dishes and stuff. Trying to use this time for Spring Cleaning time.

How are you and the boys? You can call me Nancy.

adventurousBranch3786 March 17th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2. Welcome back! I’m glad to see you here again ❤️.

WorkingitThrough2 March 19th, 2023
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@adventurousBranch3786

Thanks, glad to be back😊❤️

How are you? I have missed my friends

WorkingitThrough2 April 27th, 2023
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@adventurousBranch3786

Hey thought I would check in on you to see how things were going and to see if you found a good movie to watch.big-tv-tv.gif

adventurousBranch3786 March 19th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2 I’m doing okay. We missed you too ❤️.

adventurousBranch3786 April 28th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2. I did get many good suggestions. I’ll be watching an old one called “ The Firm “ this weekend. Thanks for asking.

mytwistedsoul March 16th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2 Hey Nancy :) I'm sorry to hear that sleep has been awful. Dealing with all this is tiring to begin with. It would be nice if we could get some sleep - an actual restful sleep - not one filled with nightmares

Hopefully this contractor finishes up on Friday so you can be done with him. I hope the contactor you got for the living room does a better job for you. And gets the job done right in a decent amount of time. We finally decided on paint for the living room and started to paint - spring cleaning as we go. I came to the conclusion we have too much crap lol

Some days are harder then others. Restless and anxious - depressed but holding on lol

*Hugs* I hope you make time to rest a little in between everything you're doing ❤️


WorkingitThrough2 March 17th, 2023
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@mytwistedsoul

Livingroom floor is done and it looks good. They did a great job. I just said the same thing about having to much junk and I am getting rid of a bunch LoL.

mytwistedsoul March 20th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2 I'm glad they got your floor done! :) Woohoo! It's got to be nice getting your house back in order

WorkingitThrough2 April 8th, 2023
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@iamwhoiamwhoami

reaching out to you, I just want to check on you to see how things are going❤️

Iamwhoiamwhoami April 8th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2

Thank you for reaching out. Same old thing for me. I hope things are going better for you.

WorkingitThrough2 April 8th, 2023
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@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Hello, my friend, Things at home are going somewhat better, I think that my health may be declining some but nevertheless, I am pushing forward. I have a few upcoming doctor appointments and I have a new Therapist that is a trauma specialist which is my first time ever. Not yet comfortable enough with her to spill my guts(LOL)😂.

I guess this all comes with the territory of getting older. Are you feeling any better? and are you still trying to work? I am glad that you are hanging in there, keep up the good work.❤️

Iamwhoiamwhoami April 8th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2

Not sure on my end when or where things are headed. I honestly don’t know what to do next. My drive is completely gone and with everything that’s happening in my little speck of the universe, I am at the point of giving up completely. I am sorry for bringing my negativity into your world. It would be nice if I was a positive person, sharing love and concern instead of what I am.

I hope your world gets brighter everyday.

WorkingitThrough2 April 13th, 2023
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@Iamwhoiamwhoami

Touching base with you, How was your day?❤️

Iamwhoiamwhoami April 13th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2

Thanks for asking, it would be nice if I had something positive to say about it but same struggles, different day.

I hope things are looking better for you.

WorkingitThrough2 April 29th, 2023
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@Iamwhoiamwhoami

miss seeing you but you are on my mindgood-morning-have-a-beautiful-friday.gif

mytwistedsoul April 13th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2 Hey you :) Just wanted to pop in and say hey. You've been in my thoughts

*leaves hugs* ❤️


WorkingitThrough2 April 13th, 2023
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@mytwistedsoul

I have been trying to post here but it was not letting me post so I thought they had totally shut down my diary. I still have not heard anything about this account as of yet. They said they were working on it but I think they keep dropping the ball. When they respond to me they have my ScarletPear photo, but no access to the account.

This is so crazy. Anyhow you can always find me under the other name. I am also starting a new Diary in case they don;t get the old one back.

Thanks for checking in on me. Don't know how long they will allow this to work. It had been shut down for a few days and just would not let me post anything.

mytwistedsoul April 15th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2 That would be frustrating. I'll admit I haven't had many problems with posting but then again I haven't been posting much at all

It's so weird that they have your profile pic but can't find the account and then to not keep in touch is just not right. You had that account for years - all the work you put into it and the path 😞
Im glad you started a new diary though and that this one still is here for you. Hopefully they put some more effort into and figure things out soon *sends hugs* ❤️
WorkingitThrough2 April 16th, 2023
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@mytwistedsoul

Thanks, me too 😊

WorkingitThrough2 April 18th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2

Hey, you are in my head, and I thought I needed to check on you❤️

Just want to tell you what a great person you are.

considerateTurtle007 April 18th, 2023
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I am not sure if this is the place to put things like this. I attended an international sibling sexual abuse day the another website was advertizing. It was really just for therapist and parents. There was no real validation or guidance for adult survivors that had this happen and what to do ... they had a super sad song (at least for me) about breaking the silence ... so bipolar me though ... I should break silence with the local police about what happen back in the 1970s in my household and extend family that were unable to help. I realized something important ... when you poor your heart out to a police info email and the medical ER you were seen in 1974. Expect, SILENCE ... especially when you come from a family with high adverse experiences. Also expect, that if you copy the person that motivated you, such as the leader of the event, that it will not be recieved well and then I realized I was just a disturbance again. I wasn't validated, heard, no real direction of what I should do to take care of myself .... maybe it is better this turtle stays in her shell. I will not share what I shared in the email. I have a tendency to give too much detail and I don't have a good idea about boundaries until I experience them ... sort of sucks ... all this trial and error. Anyway, I will be talking to my therapist tonight that I didn't consult before attending this event or contacting the police about the past. Sorry, that I continue to disappoint. I was actually using *** again but it looks like a bipolar account .... taking a break again from *** and coming back here. At least here I don't get excitable posts that triggers a very sad past. I was hoping emaling the police would give me closure but know I just feel like how I did growing up in my family, ignored and shut-up, and handled until my Mom died in 2013. She was my handler. Thanks for reading.

WorkingitThrough2 April 19th, 2023
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@considerateTurtle007

Hello, so glad you stopped by and shared your story. I am so sorry that you have been faced with these troubles. I hope that your Therapist and the police can help you to resolve these situations. Sorry that you lost your mother. I understand that being Bipolar is hard and I hope that you can find comfort and healing and lots of support.

This Diary is mine but you are welcome to post here anytime you wish, or if you just need a listening ear I am here for you. You are not alone❤️

WorkingitThrough2 April 27th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2

RECLAIMING MY DIARY BACK. PLEASE SOMEBODY GET IT BACK. MY PROFILE PICTURE HAS BEEN REMOVED.

ANYONE WHO CAN FIX THIS MESS? MY SPOT PLEASE CONNECT IT BACK TO MY PROFILE; PLEASE

mytwistedsoul April 28th, 2023
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@WorkingitThrough2 I was just thinking about you earlier ❤️ Did some else come up missing?

WorkingitThrough2 April 28th, 2023
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@mytwistedsoul

Heather had said that one of my member accounts would have to be deleted but instead, it is the Listener account and a member account that needs to go but nothing has been done, nothing at all. I want to save my Silent Voice diary and them to remove that question mark and put my profile picture back.