I’m feeling okay. Feeling kinda needy and needing reassurance and constant validation. I feel like I’ve been bothering my ex partner all day. I’ve been apologizing a lot (even apologizing for apologizing lol, something I love to do). Maybe just getting some sleep will help. Or baking more tomorrow will improve my mood abit. Just feeling really self conscious at the moment.
i def know how that feels. i’m going threw alot of that now. i don’t get much reassurance in life eventho i spend most of my time lifting others. and tbh encouragement goes a looooong way with me
i think you’re absolutely amazing. you’ve always impressed me but the way you’re talking to me now is really like nothing else. your advice and everything is so good. you seem super super smart and well put together. and the way you speak about others is so nice. you’re a genuinely kind person. i’m sorry you’re feeling down now. i rly wish you could see what i see.
it just turned 2025 here….happy new year lol shiiiiit i hope it’ll be happy haha
Would you ever consider furthering your education?
Or maybe learning a trade?
I’m not trying to demand anything; just suggesting ways that might improve your future.
Or are you okay working warehouse and grocery jobs?
idk if i’m able to do any of that. money is tight i need to always have money coming in bc it all goes out so fast. im gonna have to take any job i can. it’s very humiliating but it’s just who i am. not even trying to be all down on myself. i don’t think i possess the ability.
Have started any medication? How has your anger been?
i’m still getting frustrated. def less but still happens. i need to go to a dr for medication. i haven’t done that in a very very long time
I’m feeling pretty tired and am going to head off to sleep. I hope getting some rest puts something’s into perspective for you and at the least, calms you down a bit.
You can message me through the night if you need to talk more though.
Have a peaceful night 💤😴.
i’m gonna try to sleep too. thank you seriously from the bottom of my heart. you are the best.
i def won’t bother ya while ya sleep. you’ve done more than enough already. hmu in the morning. i’m not doing anything tomorrow. just trying to not freak myself out
happy new year
Good evening! Are you feeling any better today?
heyyy thank you for checking on me and thank you so much for all of your help last night.
so rn i feel a little more calm but it’s all i’ve been thinking about since i woke up this morning. im very sad about it. it feels like getting dumped.
i’ve def had the wrong perspective at work. i didn’t realize i was so difficult but i see it now.
now it feels obvious to me ive been needing medication for a long time. my emotions are my biggest problem.
hbu how are you feeling today? i’m sorry to trauma dump. i know you are already going threw a lot.
Yes definitely sometimes medication is the way to go. I know some people worry about it messing with your brain chemistry. But honestly I need my brain chemistry to be messed with. Some people just need help requiring some things to lead a smoother life.
And you don’t have to every med a doctor throws at you. It’s okay to research the medication, ask questions, and see how other people have performed on the med/get advice from others. If possible, I like nurse practitioners, especially those dealing with mental illness. They have more specific knowledge about medication and are usually more in-depth and invested in what YOU want. Insurance, if you have any, will cover the cost depending on if they’re in network, etc.
that’s really great thank you. i’m gonna look for a nurse practitioner in my area
i took a nap and just woke up
i go back to work friday but then im off again. i might call tomorrow and see if i can come in
When do you go back to work?
You’re good.
I'm still feeling about the same as yesterday. Needing reassurance and affection more. I’ve also been letting my emotions rule me today. But I’ve journaled and am calming down/relaxing right now to let go of negative emotions/energy.
i just been distracting myself with a lot of video games and sleep. that’s kinda it. my minds been racing. but whatever happens will happen and i’ll figure it out
i’m sorry you’re not feeling better either. you are amazing. you shouldn’t be this down on yourself. i wish i could give you the reassurance that you need.
im prob gonna be up all night so hmu if ya can’t sleep
Would going in help you feel better?
Are you feeling any better tonight?
sorry i’m just sleepin alot today
idk rly i just wanna try whatever i can
this whole situation really stinks
it’s very easy to feel down on myself…but that’s not gonna help anything. i’ll vent out my vulnerabilities to you but i need to put a proper face on irl.
gotta look for a new job. i rly dont think i can be saved anymore. we’ll see how it goes when i get back but ive been expecting january to be a purge month. we’ll see. either way ive def butted heads with enough people there. i’m sure the people that did like me think im a little as/shole now. but not like the way ya think ur boss is an as/shole…idk if theres any saving the reputation i built myself. i think they’ve seen enough struggle frustration and tears to only dislike me.
i shoulda been on medication
i’m gonna reach out to someone during the day and see if i csn get a couple hours today. i feel like i don’t have much time there so i wanna get all i can.
so todays depression is expressing itself in the form of anger lol i truly hate this bipolar stuff. i think i found a therapist that takes my insurance that will do video calls. but im very nervous to make the appointment
im gonna avoid work today. i’m sure whatever i did is done.
gonna go get some fresh air
hope you’re feeling better today fwend 😀
i just wanted to say you are fr amazing. just the way you help me….its so kind and ur responses and advice are really smart. life has not been kind to you and im very sorry. you deserve more. you’re doing an incredible job in spite of everything. i really hope you can be proud of yourself. i am.
u a rockstar bebegurl hahaha
fr you are awesome.
ps im not glazing!!! hahaha 🤣🤣🤣
these are undeniable facts and i think you might not be seeing it rn so i wanna try to help you see 🙂
hope im not blowing ya up too much. i still have this sick feeling in my stomach. like im a terrible terrible person. i need to get the courage to set this therapist appointment. i wanna see what happens at work tomorrow. i’m very scared ill get fired tomorrow. my cool boss assured me she had my back but i know it’s still in the cards and that scares me so much.
how are you feeling today?? we are both rly going threw it right now huh. glad i have you to talk to. it helps a lot.
Good morning! I hope you have a happy Fri-YaY!
Whatever happens will happen. You can’t change the past, only the future. I know that’s SUPER annoying advice lol. But once you truly realize that, you can start to help yourself instead of being stuck.