Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
since you seem to be the only one online right now hehe, kind of random, do you know anyone i could pm who can change/delete forum posts?
@justmeeva Hey sorry I guess I wanted to ask if the post you're talking about is the same post I had flagged too? I did as soon as I saw it because I knew it wouldn't go well. I mean it was obvious and no one took it down because well - I'm sure you can imagine. Sorry I should have tracked someone down
“are you sure you don’t wanna text him? ask him how he likes the country etc?”
i would want to. i really would. problem is, i’m me. as simple and as complicated as that.
***. we went to drop off something at a “friend”’s (girl, i might’ve mentioned her like once lol, not gonna explain the friendship situation rn.) house and my mom went straight to her to tell her about that guy and how it would be fun for her to hang out with him and me and my mom too. she- first of all it’s not happening- . yeah idk.
i just received a book named “stay alive” :’)
imagine that’s the last book i read.
@justmeeva i just made a pathetic sound at reading that 👍🏻
they made me laugh today. they made me smile. they were fun and wholesome. and even though sometimes i absolutely hate them for what they do, at the end of the day, they’re still my classmates. and it hurts.
tw.
remembering the times when i used to watch those vent videos, and anytime a sh or su****e topic came up i’d skip it saying “i’d never want to harm or k*ll myself”.
and look at me now.
