Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
it’s gonna pass it’s gonna pass it’s gonna pass
but when?
@justmeeva
*again, absolutely no pressure to read or respond, i know things are really hard right now*
has eva beanie tried some grounding or something? from what me read music is probably not gonna help right now, i’m sorry :(
i’m gonna go idk what’s gonna happen or not i don’t know i can’t rn bye
@justmeeva
:') you'll be in my thoughts… 💛🥺😔
@justmeeva
i hope you'll be alright... sending love and care your way 💕
@justmeeva @LoveMyMoonflowers Hey 💙 thought maybe I'd sit here for a little I'm a little late but is there someone here you could talk to? Or maybe try running your arm under cold water? Or hold an ice cube? Or snap a rubber band?
@mytwistedsoul
*hugs for soul if okay*
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs you back💙* Thank you 😊
@mytwistedsoul
your welcome friend 💜
nice to live when everywhere you look, anything you hear, everything triggers a memory or flashback or thought.
tw?
we went to the theatre. the story was about a 17yo boy student and a teacher. it showed the pov of both of them. the boy needed to get a certain grade for the parents. the teacher had to go to class full of disrespect and trouble every day. and much more. it was emotional. i felt the boy’s scream with all my soul. the way the teacher was exhausted.
one thing about me is that when i watch a movie, or a theatre show, or read a (good) book, i go entirely in. i have no life then. i have no problems. i feel everything so much. it’s exhausting sometimes. but i think it’s a good quality. that i understand. that i can empathise. but it is draining. and now i feel strange. empty. i guess i still haven’t accepted the fact that it was not my life lol.
i met him.
the foreign 21yo boy my mom wanted me to meet. he was nice, like my mom said. i was- me. too quiet probably. it was like a 2 minute interaction. my mom took his number so they could “arrange something cool”. uh, *** :D
@justmeeva Hey that's great! I'm glad he was nice 😊 Tbh I see nothing wrong with being quiet the first time you meet someone 💙
