Eva’s Crazy Mind

@LoveMyMoonflowers

@justmeeva

snow is one of the closest things to peace i know. 

i n a o ***.  i a o n s.

*** myself up mentally just a little more rn. i mean, i’m already in ***, so why not have some “fun”?

*** i almost let the memories and flashbacks get to me rn xD

though.. i have a feeling that they might. that they will. 

SHUT

THE

***

UP

MOM

i’m as good as gone

…

i didn’t even realise. 

well that’s a game changer. 

ooh we’re gonna have lots of fun with this little thing. 

my sister’s voice is pissing me off so much rn. just her voice. 

and anything she does. 

(:

@justmeeva i dont know what to say but silence seems wrong, somehow. Or maybe words can change anything.

I dont know what to say, or do, or be- but i know im really really glad youre here, and i know i cherish you- unconditionally 🩷/gen

@unassumingEyes 

i appreciate it a lot, thank you ❤️ i’m proud of you for being here and trying all the time too, you’re an amazing person ❤️

the scenarios again.

❤️ hunger ❤️

so that was fun while it lasted but we’re going back to dealing with the brain and everything inside of it now. brace yourself. 

oh, ***, i almost thought they cared xD

my mom should be home soon too so it’s about time to set the mood lmao

how do i tell them i’m leaving?

@justmeeva

… 🥺

mom’s home. bbl. 

@justmeeva

*sends hugs and strength to eva beanie if okay* 😔

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

thank you love. they’ll be useful. 🩷

@justmeeva

💜

first fight with her. 

first “i was such a good kid to my parents why can’t my kids be like that”.

whenever i happen to try to talk about my feelings, she just thinks i wanna argue and eventually turns it so i seem the bad person by saying i make her feel like the bad person. ***- shut up. just shut the *** up. 

the ones that understand that my “i’m fine” doesn’t mean i’m okay <3

kinda wish i could fake my death just to see how different people would react lmao 

but like not in a selfish way like genuinely who’d care ykwim 

@justmeeva

…i would care. :') and i really would… 

there was one time you left for a while and the way… your posts… in this diary thread, i thought… you… mmm. :') i thought you did it.

and i thought about it for days and would just start crying every time i thought about it. seriously… :') 

…ni friend needs eva. and me don’t wanna lose you friend…

and ik that sounds selfish and :') idk. idk, nothing i’m saying makes sense but yeah. i wanted to tell you that for a while… so… yeah.

:') 

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

i believe you. i know you care. and you’re not selfish. but.. i’m still here right now, it’s okay 🩷