Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
why is it just now, that people start ‘complimenting’ me? saying they’re proud of me. saying they love me. saying all kinds of things about my future, how i’m going to do so well. siblings. relatives. teachers. why now? why now that i’m counting down days until i leave?
@iloveyouxx
i might share that spotify playlist to you soon. i know it’s been a loooong time since i promised to, idek if you still want it, but i made a new one because the previous one felt too messy and i just idk i overthought too much so now i have a new, more ~“organised”~ one. and yes i am indeed still overthinking about that too, thinking what you’d think about the playlist and each song individually (✨the wonders of being me✨ ._.) but i guess i’ll explore some more songs until it fills my nonexistent standards and then.. yeah if you want it i’ll share it. and if you don’t then i’ll share anyway and it can just sit there. i wouldn’t know. /lh <3 i won’t give you a specific date or anything lol because- i suck at those. just…… somewhere in the near future. hopefully.
oke love you <33 /gen
(and you don’t have to reply anything, you can upvote so i know you saw it and if your brainie says you have to reply say something like “alright eva thank you i’ll wait” or mumble some nonsense and i’ll be like “😊🫶” (and if any of this <- sounded rude or anything it’s not meant to i’m just a little insane i swear everything’s lighthearted))
<3 <3 <3
@justmeeva
alright eva thankyou I’ll wait /j/j/j
I got so excited seeing this🩷before reading it. I missed you so much🩷if you give it enough time my brain could literally start doing wild things. I’m not even joking today I remembered about that playlist and I’m like 💭100+ eva music taste songs that would’ve been so good💭 and then I started walking around this one table behind this couch in the living room and created scenarios in my head with you in them.☠️
awwe. eva smh. /lh stop that D:< /lh don’t overthink it sm🩷I like all songs nd music. and your taste is just🤌✨🩷I probably just don’t like country songs that much. they hurt my brain for some reason. when I think of country songs I think of the song "old town road"☠️apparently it’s not actually about a horse btw don’t look it up ;-; I only ever knew the first 4 lines so :’) somewhere in the future sounds good to me🩷🩷🩷
love you more <333 /extra✨gen/lh
( xD it’s okay I’m insane too :DD!!/lh and it’s okie dw I know🩷)
<3 <3 <3 <3 <333
@iloveyouxx
( I tried posting in my space and tagging you but I also started overthinking ._. and deleted the whole thing but basically :0 I might post that video somewhere in the future too now🩷)
@iloveyouxx
why is this so you 😭 /lh /lh
i have very mixed emotions about everything right now and they change at the speed of light but this made me smile <3 you made me smile <3
i should probably ''WaRn'' you that it's kinda pretty depressing, the playlist, so i can assure you, country songs will not be a part of it. xD
thank you for being so patient and kind and nadia-ful <33 *sends love in the shapes of hearts* 💗💕💗
@justmeeva
😭i swear i was genuinely trying not to use too many emojis because the white text makes them pop out TvT🩷your phone type thing is so cute omg :0 it’s so different to mine but it looks so adorable- I wanna eat it it’s so cute-
awwwwe🩷🩷i was just about to say I don’t know if I can smile right now and realized I kinda already was ;-;💜making you smile feels so rewarding🩷and being your friend makes me feel so gifted <3
oh no I love depressing. really tho ;-; it wont be a problem xD💖that’s reassuring xD thankyou xD💜
noo the last one isn’t good :’) thank*you* tho :P xD for being so kind and sweet and patient and loving and caring and understand and eva🩷i love eva💗*sends love back* <33🩷💖💕💞💓💗🩷💓💞💕🩷💖
oop those thoughts are not good :’D ._.
@justmeeva
please be safe lovely🩷/gen whatever they were I disagree/lh also I might not be able to reply if you come back sooner but I will tomorrow or whenever you can reply tyt🩷🩷
