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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP June 26th

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justmeeva OP June 26th

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justmeeva OP June 26th

oh god. i opened the letter we had to do to our future selves at the end of 6th grade. uuhhh… so.. sorry to disappoint you, eva from 6th grade…….

justmeeva OP June 26th

“hello, eva! 

it’s me, eva from 6th grade. summer break is starting soon. i’m going to spain in less than a week. it’s going to be so cool. 

you must be in 7th grade now.” (we opened them later, obviously, at the end of 8th.) “to be honest, i’m a little nervous. the topics are getting harder, more new people are going to join our class, teachers are being replaced… changes. a lot of changes. 

you have been doing very well so far. keep it up! 

i hope you got a lot of rest during the summer break.

my recommendations are, to never give up, be who you are and keep who/what are important to you. 


your eva”

*a wonky heart made of tiny hearts for decoration*

justmeeva OP June 26th

*awkward inhale through teeth* 

….

so…. 

the change is noticeable- ..

:’)

justmeeva OP June 26th

little did that eva know, everything would start going downhill once she stepped foot in 7th. 

i mean, it was heaven at first, the happiest we had ever been before, but that lead to.. where we are now. guess every heaven leads to *** in the end. can’t have one without the other.

1 year of the happiest we had ever felt, and with the end of 7th grade, start of summer break, everything changed. so many tears. eventually, depression. getting worse and worse. and now look at us. 

waiting for death. 

justmeeva OP June 26th

that- so did not help. anything.

justmeeva OP June 26th

now i have to start with the whole distracting ***. it’s exhausting, honestly. 

justmeeva OP June 26th

save me now, music 

justmeeva OP June 26th

save me from myself.