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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP May 2nd

also. 

those girls in my class. 

they asked me if i liked a boy they like to make fun of. i’ve mentioned him here. i asked “wdym?”, she said “oh, just, you know” (??) and here’s the situation they put me in. if i say yes (not in the like like way.), they’re gonna judge and make fun of me. if i say no, then i’m just as bad as them. i had to say no. i really hope he didn’t hear it. he’s a nice boy, i have nothing against him and idk why anyone would have. i just hate those girls. i hate being back to school. 

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@justmeeva i was in that type of situation once too. Back when i was 7. He was kind of a friend so i said yes i like him and they went and started telling him i love him and he looked at me like a spooked deer and i yelled that like and love are different and he relaxed- 

Id forgotten about that- 

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justmeeva OP May 2nd

nope nope nope that’s traumatising that’s disgusting that- won’t get out of my head for god’s sake 

justmeeva OP May 2nd

i’m gonna need the most distracting distraction now. but i have an idea. 

justmeeva OP May 2nd

music save me now 

justmeeva OP May 2nd

music save me now 

justmeeva OP May 2nd

because i don’t know another way

justmeeva OP May 2nd

to silence my brain

justmeeva OP May 3rd

god how much i wish i could be invisible right now. 

justmeeva OP May 3rd

i’m in a good mood rn and everything’s okay. i swear that’s like life’s way of saying “enjoy cause ***’s about to go down”.

justmeeva OP May 3rd

tw.

the urges are kinda urging rn. but i think i can manage them for now. i’ll just have to hope they don’t get any more tempting.