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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP May 2nd

they’re so toxic, my classmates. so *** toxic.

justmeeva OP May 2nd

back to hiding. 

justmeeva OP May 2nd

there’s like this very specific but also not specific type of people that i generally avoid at all costs.

justmeeva OP May 2nd

i don’t even have to know them (i never do) just like- a type ok. 

justmeeva OP May 2nd

and omw to the entrance of the mall, i get like a busful of exactly this kind of people. in front of me. behind me. 

justmeeva OP May 2nd

and ohhhhh how my self consciousness and overthinking took over 

justmeeva OP May 2nd

my brain told me that they’re talking about me and staring at me and judging me, that everything they say is something about me


and we’re strangers. 

justmeeva OP May 2nd

and this happens every day on schooldays. because every day after school i have to go to that mall to wait for my mom to pick me up. 

justmeeva OP May 2nd

those people make my life a ***, and they’re not even doing anything most of the time, and i know they’re not


but it doesn’t help in the situation for some reason 

justmeeva OP May 2nd

so i hide. sometimes it’s 10 minutes. sometimes it’s an hour.