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iloveyouxx March 17th

hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnā€™t look like mešŸ§makes sense doesnā€™t itšŸ˜›since there can only be one *me*āœØone of a kind now arent IšŸ˜/sar. one out of 8118835999āœØšŸŒ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youā€™re also one of a kindšŸ’– sorrysorry haha :PšŸ¤im just messing around xDšŸ’žalso itā€™s 2am- but shush no snitchingšŸ¤«Iā€™ll sleep in a whilešŸ˜when Iā€™m feeling a bit more sane :>šŸ˜›šŸ©·

wanted to have my own space.šŸ’œ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.šŸ’™

to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šŸ’œplease dont lurk here.šŸ©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šŸ’™but please be respectfulšŸ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :PšŸ’› yā€™all get crazy nosy haha- itā€™s alright.šŸ’›nothing too interesting will be here anywayšŸ’›if you would like to come in and be supportive itā€™s completely okiešŸ’›but please donā€™t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšŸ’›because Iā€™d still like this to be just my space ^-^šŸ’›)

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iloveyouxx OP October 11th

I got sick again. weā€™re officiallyā€¦.a month and 3 weeks in.Ā 

iloveyouxx OP October 11th

cups is more justā€¦.cups- to me now. but you still have to struggle and grow with me so Iā€™m not leaving :> <3 yaayyyy

itā€™s almost been a year on cups for me- well not really maybe in around 2 months then Iā€™d be on cups for 1 yearĀ 

iloveyouxx OP October 11th

I tried to bake today. it didnā€™t go so well.Ā 

iloveyouxx OP October 11th

my brothers out with his friend today but itā€™s kind of getting late now-

iloveyouxx OP October 12th

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iloveyouxx OP October 12th

huh :')

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iloveyouxx OP October 12th

I mean the other forums are weird but the number of pages stays the sameĀ 

it still shows the same thing for me now tho. so I guess I already passed 100 pages now-Ā 

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iloveyouxx OP October 12th

you wanna hear a depressing story? ofcourse you do! :>

nvm I got censored and itā€™s too long so I deleted the whole thing.Ā 

iloveyouxx OP October 12th

I checked the listeners profile again, for a second I thought it was completely gone but then I found it and it still saysĀ 

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The content you're attempting to access has been removed.

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iloveyouxx OP October 12th

it doesnā€™t feel any better.Ā 

If they got banned idk how long it would take for them to get their account back

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iloveyouxx OP October 13th

I fell asleep but this is what I was writing (it didnā€™t stay here I saved it because my dad)

if they did come back tho I would definitely start *** at them so hard like I wasnā€™t just falling apart again the day I couldnā€™t talk to them anymore like *** you you got me attached just to leave this *** so predictable but why them i get attached too easily but they made me feel cared about and I havenā€™t really had a proper like..connection with anyone cups or not in a while. yeah I have friends. but recently on cups itā€™s just been either we used to be really close but you havenā€™t been on cups for months you were just gone one random saturday or smth, youā€™re still on cups we just slowly started growing further apart and itā€™s been months since we last talked, we used to be close but stuff happens and now itā€™s just kind of sad this is the saddest to me, we used to be close but I got hurt over and over and over again and I donā€™t know how to talk to you anymore because youā€™re acting like nothing happened, youā€™re the ā€œIā€™m sorry that youā€™re feeling this wayā€ friend which is okay but sometimes theyā€™re a little too- idk. the way they talk in general Iā€™m not trying to be mean but sometimes it feels forced or ai generated or smth it doesnā€™t feel like Iā€™m talking to the genuine you, youā€™re a good person probably I just dont think you like me fsr its obvious but not at the same time, youre nice probably its just every time we talk which is barely it feels forced or like you feel bad or idk, i got hurt a lot and talking to you felt like a relapse and now that youre gone i wish youd come back, you show up when you feel like it and by then i just cant, you keep convincing me youre leaving forever and coming back the next day which like idk its just how often it happens now even if you make a longg post tagging everyone youve ever met i still know youre coming back in max a week not even a week honestly, i stopped talking to you because i know you dont like talking to me, im the one that poofed because i cant talk to you after everything

and all my irl friends (oop 1 friend) make sure itā€™s really really clear that they donā€™t care the tiniest bit about meĀ 

(I was just staring at the screen for a minute here and then my dad came and I saved it)

iloveyouxx OP October 14th

in English. I canā€™t breath Iā€™m getting hit everything feels weird Iā€™m waiting for her to let me go to the nurse but weā€™re reading everything feels so weird I donā€™t want to be here i donā€™t kwno whatā€™s happenedĀ 

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iloveyouxx OP October 14th

I can type idk why that had so many mustakesĀ 

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iloveyouxx OP October 14th

brightness is low Iā€™m on my device under the tableĀ 

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iloveyouxx OP October 14th

I feel horubelĀ 

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unassumingEyes October 14th

@iloveyouxx hey, are you okay?Ā 

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iloveyouxx OP October 17th

@unassumingEyes

hey eyesšŸ©·I made a long post about what happened but it all got deleted sorry for not replying for so long, Iā€™m okay now tho <3

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unassumingEyes October 18th

@iloveyouxx no worries, glad ur feeling better <3Ā 

(My emojis arent working o.0)

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