in the wonders of my mindš.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnāt look like meš§makes sense doesnāt itšsince there can only be one *me*āØone of a kind now arent Iš/sar. one out of 8118835999āØš·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youāre also one of a kindš sorrysorry haha :Pš¤im just messing around xDšalso itās 2am- but shush no snitchingš¤«Iāll sleep in a whilešwhen Iām feeling a bit more sane :>šš©·
wanted to have my own space.š for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.š
to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šplease dont lurk here.š©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šbut please be respectfulš©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pš yāall get crazy nosy haha- itās alright.šnothing too interesting will be here anywayšif you would like to come in and be supportive itās completely okiešbut please donāt make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšbecause Iād still like this to be just my space ^-^š)
cups is more justā¦.cups- to me now. but you still have to struggle and grow with me so Iām not leaving :> <3 yaayyyy
itās almost been a year on cups for me- well not really maybe in around 2 months then Iād be on cups for 1 yearĀ
I tried to bake today. it didnāt go so well.Ā
you wanna hear a depressing story? ofcourse you do! :>
nvm I got censored and itās too long so I deleted the whole thing.Ā
I checked the listeners profile again, for a second I thought it was completely gone but then I found it and it still saysĀ
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I fell asleep but this is what I was writing (it didnāt stay here I saved it because my dad)
if they did come back tho I would definitely start *** at them so hard like I wasnāt just falling apart again the day I couldnāt talk to them anymore like *** you you got me attached just to leave this *** so predictable but why them i get attached too easily but they made me feel cared about and I havenāt really had a proper like..connection with anyone cups or not in a while. yeah I have friends. but recently on cups itās just been either we used to be really close but you havenāt been on cups for months you were just gone one random saturday or smth, youāre still on cups we just slowly started growing further apart and itās been months since we last talked, we used to be close but stuff happens and now itās just kind of sad this is the saddest to me, we used to be close but I got hurt over and over and over again and I donāt know how to talk to you anymore because youāre acting like nothing happened, youāre the āIām sorry that youāre feeling this wayā friend which is okay but sometimes theyāre a little too- idk. the way they talk in general Iām not trying to be mean but sometimes it feels forced or ai generated or smth it doesnāt feel like Iām talking to the genuine you, youāre a good person probably I just dont think you like me fsr its obvious but not at the same time, youre nice probably its just every time we talk which is barely it feels forced or like you feel bad or idk, i got hurt a lot and talking to you felt like a relapse and now that youre gone i wish youd come back, you show up when you feel like it and by then i just cant, you keep convincing me youre leaving forever and coming back the next day which like idk its just how often it happens now even if you make a longg post tagging everyone youve ever met i still know youre coming back in max a week not even a week honestly, i stopped talking to you because i know you dont like talking to me, im the one that poofed because i cant talk to you after everything
and all my irl friends (oop 1 friend) make sure itās really really clear that they donāt care the tiniest bit about meĀ
(I was just staring at the screen for a minute here and then my dad came and I saved it)
in English. I canāt breath Iām getting hit everything feels weird Iām waiting for her to let me go to the nurse but weāre reading everything feels so weird I donāt want to be here i donāt kwno whatās happenedĀ
I feel horubelĀ
@iloveyouxx hey, are you okay?Ā
@unassumingEyes
hey eyesš©·I made a long post about what happened but it all got deleted sorry for not replying for so long, Iām okay now tho <3
@iloveyouxx no worries, glad ur feeling better <3Ā
(My emojis arent working o.0)