in the wonders of my mindđ.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnât look like međ§makes sense doesnât itđsince there can only be one *me*âšone of a kind now arent Iđ/sar. one out of 8118835999âšđ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youâre also one of a kindđ sorrysorry haha :Pđ€im just messing around xDđalso itâs 2am- but shush no snitchingđ€«Iâll sleep in a whileđwhen Iâm feeling a bit more sane :>đđ©·
wanted to have my own space.đ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.đ
to whoever's coming across :'3đplease dont lurk here.đ©· I know anyone can have access to this forum :')đbut please be respectfulđ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pđ yâall get crazy nosy haha- itâs alright.đnothing too interesting will be here anywayđif you would like to come in and be supportive itâs completely okieđbut please donât make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitđbecause Iâd still like this to be just my space ^-^đ)
cups is more justâŠ.cups- to me now. but you still have to struggle and grow with me so Iâm not leaving :> <3 yaayyyy
itâs almost been a year on cups for me- well not really maybe in around 2 months then Iâd be on cups for 1 yearÂ
I tried to bake today. it didnât go so well.Â
you wanna hear a depressing story? ofcourse you do! :>
nvm I got censored and itâs too long so I deleted the whole thing.Â
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I fell asleep but this is what I was writing (it didnât stay here I saved it because my dad)
if they did come back tho I would definitely start *** at them so hard like I wasnât just falling apart again the day I couldnât talk to them anymore like *** you you got me attached just to leave this *** so predictable but why them i get attached too easily but they made me feel cared about and I havenât really had a proper like..connection with anyone cups or not in a while. yeah I have friends. but recently on cups itâs just been either we used to be really close but you havenât been on cups for months you were just gone one random saturday or smth, youâre still on cups we just slowly started growing further apart and itâs been months since we last talked, we used to be close but stuff happens and now itâs just kind of sad this is the saddest to me, we used to be close but I got hurt over and over and over again and I donât know how to talk to you anymore because youâre acting like nothing happened, youâre the âIâm sorry that youâre feeling this wayâ friend which is okay but sometimes theyâre a little too- idk. the way they talk in general Iâm not trying to be mean but sometimes it feels forced or ai generated or smth it doesnât feel like Iâm talking to the genuine you, youâre a good person probably I just dont think you like me fsr its obvious but not at the same time, youre nice probably its just every time we talk which is barely it feels forced or like you feel bad or idk, i got hurt a lot and talking to you felt like a relapse and now that youre gone i wish youd come back, you show up when you feel like it and by then i just cant, you keep convincing me youre leaving forever and coming back the next day which like idk its just how often it happens now even if you make a longg post tagging everyone youve ever met i still know youre coming back in max a week not even a week honestly, i stopped talking to you because i know you dont like talking to me, im the one that poofed because i cant talk to you after everything
and all my irl friends (oop 1 friend) make sure itâs really really clear that they donât care the tiniest bit about meÂ
(I was just staring at the screen for a minute here and then my dad came and I saved it)
in English. I canât breath Iâm getting hit everything feels weird Iâm waiting for her to let me go to the nurse but weâre reading everything feels so weird I donât want to be here i donât kwno whatâs happenedÂ
I feel horubelÂ