in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{because I knew what my friend was reporting about and that’s the only reason they wanted to talk to me.}

_{they wanted to know because they knew it was about the main girl in that group so they wanted to tell her to apologize before the girl finds out and makes the drama worse.}

_{and it was a lie.}

_{I didn’t tell them anything either way tho. I just said apparently sum group confronted her about sum stuff she never did. I didn’t say I knew it was them or anything like that.}

_{oya I forgot :0 I can’t find the convo tho-}

_{that was the last of 20 slides but help😭😭-}

_{how did I forget-}

@mytwistedsoul

@iloveyouxx Aww that's ok I'm actually pretty forgettable tbh lol

@mytwistedsoul

forgettable xD wait it didn’t put the red line thing- that’s actually a word😭🩷I thought it’d be forgetful but I guess that works too xD💖

me too tho my memory is so horrible TvT💜

the gif is so adorable🥺🤗💖

@iloveyouxx Yep it's  word! Do people get upset because you forget things? Aww glad you like it - I haven't see that one before today

@mytwistedsoul

im sorry :0💙I didn’t mean to poof for so long💜being so popular can get overwhelming :D:💖/j/j/j/j/j/j/sar/sar/sar-🤍

mm idk. I hav no one to forget things about irl xD I’m almost mute irl. unless yu talk to me and I’m forced to talk to yu🩷I don’t forget names I think- I only forget sum when I- really deperately need to know them xD💜I forget things thu like what day it is and soul. every. single. time. I check the time😭every single time. I forget it in literally a second😭and then I check again and I’m like ohh yeah yeah yeah. and then I’m like wait what- and I swear I can’t remember it😭

and I forget classes. omg and soul yk we have this really specific schedule and yu have to look at it and for example it’d show yu have "Science G018" and g018 is where it’s meant to be- g is ground floor f first s second and t is third floor- that’s a ton more staircases than it should be- and the numbers aren’t even in order and every single thursday last 2 lessons I have math and history- idk in which order but- every single time I mix them up😭I just mainly forget the really really important things other than those :P🤍what about yu💜?

btw friend I never asked :0 and I don’t want to say anything wrong or anything and completely nfta but can I ask what yur pronouns are💙?/nfta

omggeeeee🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💓🩷💕🩷💖💗💗💖💜💓🩷💕💜💕💗I cannot😭😭😭😭🥺😭😭💓💗💓💗🩷💖

@iloveyouxx  Aww no worries 🙂 It get's kind of hectic trying to stay on top of things if there's a bunch of things going on here. And there's never a time line or time limit to reply

Tbh - this is pretty much the only place I socialize. I keep to myself most of the time - I don't have friends in real life. Anxiety makes me awkward and depression gives me no desire to even try anymore

I do that with the time too tbh I try to keep track of it too and i still loose track of it lol which is almost funny now that I think about it 😅 Tbh I forget alot of things. I can walk into a room and forget what I walked in for. I can forget what I'm saying while I'm saying it - which really screws up conversations with people because I feel stupid when that happens. Sometimes I forget where I'm going while I'm going there - that's always fun. I seem to be good at forgetting the good things but I always remember the bad things

Wow they have you running all over the place for classes! That would be so stressful too - maybe that's why you mix the them up and can't remember which one is first?

You don't have to worry about what you ask - If it's something I don't want to answer I just politely ignore it 😁 I don't freak out or anything. I think you might be the first person who's ever asked me my pronouns 🤔 I guess they're he/they

Omgosh they're so cute! That first one just wants to be held 😊

@mytwistedsoul

omg soul :0💜haven’t yu heard about the 🙂 emoji backstory :0/lh💜i mean TvT🤍it’s okie when sum innocent clueless genuinely nice and with good intention hoomans use it but😭yu cant tell me it doesn’t look creepy….."🙂"😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💖/lh

thankyu for being so understanding💜 I love yu friend <3./p

>:💙that sounds really sad >:😞💙anxiety and depression are honestly so just the worst.💜it’s okay if socializing feels daunting right now. or like a whole task.💜I’m not gonna tell you to try and take small steps or any of that :')🩷because I know it’s not that simple.💙I know it can feel isolating💜ngl sum people aren’t really worth the energy huh xD🩷no socializing=no hurt is probably a bad mindset I need to get out of xD💜your effort is commendable even if it doesn’t feel that way🩷I relate to the anxiety thing way too much :')🤍way too much T^T🤍I think I just broke my calculator-

omigod I relate too much😭how’re yu so relatable- that’s literally me😭I also relate to forgetting the good things and always remembering the bad things >:💜it can really mess up yur mind I’m so sorry💙

I think my dad heard the calculator smashing to the floor-

yeah😭I have to remember really really well- I think I can tell yu what I have on sumdays without looking :0🩷I cant even look my schedule isn’t here-🩷mm okie Monday I have english, arabic, science, dance,….uhhh wait-……o yeah! history, math,(it was monday not thursday omg-) tuesday I have arabic, islamic, moral ed, science, art, pe- pretty simple so far- wednesday I have…..um wait-….wednesday…shsjhiuwh……o yeah :0🤍wednesday I have english, music, math, pe, French, arabic. thrusday I have :P💜history, IT, english, science, math French, and fridays a half day so I just have english, math, pe, science :P🤍I just mix them up sumtimes and ofc I know them all on a saturday like what☠️

english math moral ed arabic islamic french are on second floor history IT geography pe are on first floor drama music dance are on third floor science is on ground floor- what-

what really :0 su many cups hoomans have asked what my pronouns were :0💜oo :0💜honestly.-🤍i just went on chatgpt and asked what that meant- I never want to ask the persun becos idk it feels disrespectful or rude becos i barely know anything about genders T^T💙I just know..she/her he/him TvT🩷and like…yeah no nvm TvT💜can I ask what that means I’m sorry😭🩷chatgpt isn’t helping much-💜

Omgosh they're so cute! That first one just wants to be held 😊

Ikrr🥺🥺💖theyre so precious💖💖💎🐾💕stupidly cutu tiny lil fur ball babies🥺💖💕💖💗💎🐾💓

@iloveyouxx Lol nope I haven't heard the back story of it. I'm one of the clueless 😅 Tbh it does look alittle creepy now that you mention it 😬

@mytwistedsoul

okie so :0 my dad left the house and I don’t really wanna spend too much time on replies🩷but obv yur so worth literally all the time in the whole universe🙄✨su imma just..try and speed it up🩷

@iloveyouxx Oh 😯 lol! Ok yeah it does give those vibes 😅 The creepy clown in the tunnel giving free hugs vibes. I'll never use a regular smiley face again 😂 

@iloveyouxx

that's so cute 💙 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

sum random screenshots from it too😭😛🩷I literally stood there for so long reading a ton of things like this TvT💜 :'P😭💓

@iloveyouxx

i can’t upvote because i’ve run out of hearts (fr this time :/) but i think those are pretty lovely 💜 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

me too >:🩷thankyu💜<3 I was a teeeniie tiny weenie lil bit too confident ;-;🤍but I guess it did go well lol😭💜and I was the teachers favorite so✨💕/lh

@iloveyouxx

awww 💜 were they a nice teacher? 💜 (those are… um… rare 🙄 lol) 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

lmao fr ***^T🙄i just assume they’re so cruel becos they never even wanted to be a teacher or changed their mind in the process or sumthing becos why would yu even become a teacher in the first place..TvT💜

they were nice tho🩷idk how. they had meanie moments but..okie honestly. my class just stole the life from this teacher…T^T💜she was and is so nice but my class was so brutal and evil and wbaughi😭💜poor teacher….i guess it makes sense that I was the favorite :P✨✨💕/j/j/j/j

ugh ew that again😭

I wrote 

"tho T^T"* but with no space- I made the same mistake before and it censored and I didn’t know what it meant su I let my curiosity win and searched it up TvT🤍…

@iloveyouxx

i just did the same thing 💀 i didn’t know what it meant 😭 but now 😭 my curiosity 😭 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

☠️💀☠️-
I😭😭😭bad curiosity😭😭chatgpt and google crumbled my innocence TvT😭eurgh smh why’d yu have to be like mee TvT😭😭💜

@iloveyouxx

yeah :/ idk why people who don’t love teaching/don’t love kids become teachers because that’s what they’re going to be doing for years and years, and they’re more likely to do well in something they love doing/something they’re passionate about. but n o p e ✨ good teachers are rare :( also i realised nothing i said made sense :) 😭 

awww. 💜 the students sound meanie mcbeanie too tbh :( teachers can bully students but i guess it can be the other way around too 😔 i can see why this nice teacher had you as her favourite 💜 /gen 

*sends lots of love your way* 💜 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

what nuu that made so much sense :0💗especially becos like all yu have to do to become a teacher :')💜it’s so much but they still choose it😭🩷good teachers being 1/200 :PP🩷

✨*~scrolling back up and placing a tw here~*✨

:0 meanie mcbeanie✨🥺💓 true😞💜do yu ever wanna…*deletes bullies*-TvT🩷okieokie nu but the ones I know and not specifically to me are so heartless and just pure evil :') idk how they do it. I know I just cant tho.🖤sumone told their story about how they used to bully this kid in school and it turned into a ton of videos. they basically had a tough homelife and all that- sad. valid- but driving an autistic kind undeserving sweet innocent kid to suicide :') watching their smile fade away every single day. realizing they’re broken and finding joy in that. literally their words :') the smile fading away the broken thing the severe pain they put them through- they humiliated embarrassed harassed threatened them and just hurt them the way they thought would..hurt them the most. they sent them like messages being all like if you tell anyone what I’m doing I’ll (off) your family and just a ton of other threats. they just watched them become a soulless body because of them. and even in the beginning of the story they said the reason they chose them as a victim was because they were always really kind and sweet and a genuinely good person, and that’s what made them an easy target :') idk. I’m sorry I got carried away. I feel bad about the homelife or whatever but the whole story just really hurt my heart. I don’t get people like these. I really don’t get them.🩷

lol fun fact about the teacher friend yu know her birthday is on leap year :0🩷her existence so special and rare hehe💖💖💎and yus idk I suck at every subject and she knew that as my lead teacher :P💕but god she kept picking me in like every celebration assembly for the lead class award😭😭and that’s nice but😭you had to walk like a red carpet and take a picture with the head of year infront of like 600+ people- ;-;- so I always asked them to remove my slide from the board and I’d just take the certificate anyway😭she still smiles at me sumtimes and I see her teeniekids sumtimes and theyre so sweet like her💕

I love you.🩷sending it back :P🩷sent loaf just goes right through me- save sum loaf for yurself🥺💓💗

@iloveyouxx

✨ ni is late, two days late, my new middle name is… super duper uber duber late ✨ (gosh that was so weird and didn’t make sense 😭) 

better late than never :') i am finally here. 💜 

exactly :( there’s a lot of training and stuff but now i’m wondering if those bad teachers actually paid attention during the training lmao? or idk… maybe they chose to be a teacher and halfway through studying to become one they thought they don’t wanna do it anymore by then… too late… so… or maybe that’s how it is with some people and it’s different with others. idk. everyone's situation/story would be unique i suppose 💜 i just wish teachers cared and realised that their roles in kids' lives are more important than they think they are. 

nadia reading that was just… idk what to say, im so sorry. you don’t understand them because you have a heart, you don’t understand why they would be so sadistic and enjoy the suffering of another - because your the exact opposite of those bullies. 💜 i’m v sorry you go to a school where these kinds of people/bullies are in abundance :/ it really sucks. it just hurts. tw/mention of death - reading about how that kid got bullied… literally to the point of death… :') they must have felt so alone and hurt. bullying is not okay and… even though, ik it hurts in that school and people aren’t nice to you at all and that’s an understatement… :/ i’m glad, that at least there’s you - who has a heart and sees the beauty in people and sees that bullying is wrong and horrible and just downright disgusting. the fact that those bullies took delight in hurting that kid is so… disgusting. tw/mention of murder - that’s pretty much murder which makes those bullies… mmmm. :') :') i’m so sorry *big hugs* ik on top of everything you must be going through, it hurts your heart to see other people around you getting hurt too. 😔

awww! 💜 that’s actually so cool. 💜 your description of her makes me like her too now 🥺 *sends lots of love to her and the little teeniekids* 💜

awww :( *sending some more love your way* i’ll try to save some for myself, it’s hard though. please try to save some for yourself to nadia bean 💜 love you lovely hooman 💜

_{I should probably start giving more code names-}

_{the girl I’m friendsish with and that got death threatened and has a ton of rumors about her (>:) I’m gonna call her S}

_{therere like 7 girls in this group now so bare with me.}

1 L*

2 L

3 J

4 Y

5 J*

6 a*

7 f

8 o

9 A

10 b

there were more that I’ll remember in a second- o and yeah it’s more than 7-

and yeah- I just wrote out their names and kept the first letter-

_{I’m not creative :’)-}

@iloveyouxx

what makes you say that…? 💜 (no pressure) 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

_{hehe nu it’s just that I couldn’t come up with any better codenames than the first letter of sumones name :’P🧠🫠💜and idk. I always struggle with things like writing my own story or basically thinking of anything just from.. me. :P💙my brainies not as big as yurs smh-}

@iloveyouxx

i think the first letter of someone's name works 💜 if you mixed it up a little that might make it a little more confusing or something (?) - idk lol. <3 but awww i think you do have creativity in you nadia friend 💜 i’ve read some of your poems you posted on here 💜 *Hugs if okay* 💜 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

awe💜I guess that’s one thing :P💜hugs are completely okay💜

@iloveyouxx

*massive hugs* wuv you 💙

@LoveMyMoonflowers

@iloveyouxx

_{I fell asleep-}

_{I’ll reply to everyone in a minute💗}

_{I’m so tired.}

_18.06.2018