in the wonders of my mindđ.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnât look like međ§makes sense doesnât itđsince there can only be one *me*âšone of a kind now arent Iđ/sar. one out of 8118835999âšđ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youâre also one of a kindđ sorrysorry haha :Pđ€im just messing around xDđalso itâs 2am- but shush no snitchingđ€«Iâll sleep in a whileđwhen Iâm feeling a bit more sane :>đđ©·
wanted to have my own space.đ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.đ
to whoever's coming across :'3đplease dont lurk here.đ©· I know anyone can have access to this forum :')đbut please be respectfulđ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pđ yâall get crazy nosy haha- itâs alright.đnothing too interesting will be here anywayđif you would like to come in and be supportive itâs completely okieđbut please donât make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitđbecause Iâd still like this to be just my space ^-^đ)
when someoneâs nice to me I just assume itâs cos theyâre dying soon or smth.
@iloveyouxx
Kinda alive here, friend!đ
I'll be nice to you from *beyond* as well! XDÂ
And then we'll conspire a theory that not all ghostiees are bad ghostiees, some are a lil sunny đź and that a certain Nadiabeanie deserves nicenessssss from everyone alive or ghostiee!đ
Iâm so tired.
a totally random question. would you care if I died? if I just couldnât put up with this *** up world where all we ever do is try to survive. if I just couldnât put up with school and the *** itâs done to me. if I couldnât put up with all these memories locked in my mind and all the experiences that arent gonna end. would you care? if I just. put some things together. and slowly left it all.
it was a rhetorical question.
i swear I give up.
@iloveyouxxÂ
i would. <3
@justmeeva
:') awe. <3 idk.Â
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@iloveyouxxÂ
i know you may have doubts about it or it might not be that big of a deal, and i know itâs not gonna take the pain or want for a break away, but i do mean it. i would care. i do care. đ©·
@justmeeva
nu. it would help.đand sorry but itâs not a break. I donât even feel like apologizing atp itâs more like "youâre welcome-"đI donât want to say anything that- i dunno :P itâs not like i wouldâve said anything badđ©·but Iâm not really sure I can genuinely believe it lovely :')đ©·
I mean :P I dont want to sound.- whatever I come off asđbut really what would happenconsider you as one of my closest friends. but I know that doesnât always go both ways.Â
I feel like this whole post is irritating-
im sorry.đ©·
Iâm shutting off inside atp. Itâs not like Iâm gonna talk about myself forever- just ignore this if youâd like <3
@iloveyouxxÂ
itâs your space. itâs made by you, for you to talk. and iâm always happy to listen. you, ni, eyes - the corner buddies lol, are my closest friends. notice the âyouâ in it? yeah, remember that đ©· iâm just hoping to keep you for as long as i can. because youâre awesome. even when youâre struggling. even when youâre exhausted from life. youâre still awesome. and youâre still my friend. and i still love you. always. no matter what. you can always tag me if you want to talk. or literally just sit together in silence. just.. company. i never have anything against that. you deserve to not feel alone. even if you donât feel like it. Â
and.. i feel like you need this more.
sometimes I think. why do we actually try to survive? why does it matter-?? it doesnât matter. literally nothing *** matters. telling me to not give up is exactly equivalent to telling me to be set on agonizing myself for the next 70 years.
