in the wonders of my mind💗.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didn’t look like me🧐makes sense doesn’t it😛since there can only be one *me*✨one of a kind now arent I😁/sar. one out of 8118835999✨🌷can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss you’re also one of a kind💖 sorrysorry haha :P🤍im just messing around xD💞also it’s 2am- but shush no snitching🤫I’ll sleep in a while😁when I’m feeling a bit more sane :>😛🩷
wanted to have my own space.💜 for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.💙
to whoever's coming across :'3💜please dont lurk here.🩷 I know anyone can have access to this forum :')💙but please be respectful🩷.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :P💛 y’all get crazy nosy haha- it’s alright.💛nothing too interesting will be here anyway💛if you would like to come in and be supportive it’s completely okie💛but please don’t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limit💛because I’d still like this to be just my space ^-^💛)
when someone’s nice to me I just assume it’s cos they’re dying soon or smth.
@iloveyouxx
Kinda alive here, friend!😛
I'll be nice to you from *beyond* as well! XD
And then we'll conspire a theory that not all ghostiees are bad ghostiees, some are a lil sunny 😮 and that a certain Nadiabeanie deserves nicenessssss from everyone alive or ghostiee!💗
I’m so tired.
a totally random question. would you care if I died? if I just couldn’t put up with this *** up world where all we ever do is try to survive. if I just couldn’t put up with school and the *** it’s done to me. if I couldn’t put up with all these memories locked in my mind and all the experiences that arent gonna end. would you care? if I just. put some things together. and slowly left it all.
it was a rhetorical question.
i swear I give up.
@iloveyouxx
i would. <3
@justmeeva
:') awe. <3 idk.
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@iloveyouxx
i know you may have doubts about it or it might not be that big of a deal, and i know it’s not gonna take the pain or want for a break away, but i do mean it. i would care. i do care. 🩷
@justmeeva
nu. it would help.💜and sorry but it’s not a break. I don’t even feel like apologizing atp it’s more like "you’re welcome-"💙I don’t want to say anything that- i dunno :P it’s not like i would’ve said anything bad🩷but I’m not really sure I can genuinely believe it lovely :')🩷
I mean :P I dont want to sound.- whatever I come off as💜but really what would happenconsider you as one of my closest friends. but I know that doesn’t always go both ways.
I feel like this whole post is irritating-
im sorry.🩷
I’m shutting off inside atp. It’s not like I’m gonna talk about myself forever- just ignore this if you’d like <3
@iloveyouxx
it’s your space. it’s made by you, for you to talk. and i’m always happy to listen. you, ni, eyes - the corner buddies lol, are my closest friends. notice the “you” in it? yeah, remember that 🩷 i’m just hoping to keep you for as long as i can. because you’re awesome. even when you’re struggling. even when you’re exhausted from life. you’re still awesome. and you’re still my friend. and i still love you. always. no matter what. you can always tag me if you want to talk. or literally just sit together in silence. just.. company. i never have anything against that. you deserve to not feel alone. even if you don’t feel like it.
and.. i feel like you need this more.
sometimes I think. why do we actually try to survive? why does it matter-?? it doesn’t matter. literally nothing *** matters. telling me to not give up is exactly equivalent to telling me to be set on agonizing myself for the next 70 years.