in the wonders of my mindđ.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnât look like međ§makes sense doesnât itđsince there can only be one *me*âšone of a kind now arent Iđ/sar. one out of 8118835999âšđ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youâre also one of a kindđ sorrysorry haha :Pđ€im just messing around xDđalso itâs 2am- but shush no snitchingđ€«Iâll sleep in a whileđwhen Iâm feeling a bit more sane :>đđ©·
wanted to have my own space.đ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.đ
to whoever's coming across :'3đplease dont lurk here.đ©· I know anyone can have access to this forum :')đbut please be respectfulđ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pđ yâall get crazy nosy haha- itâs alright.đnothing too interesting will be here anywayđif you would like to come in and be supportive itâs completely okieđbut please donât make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitđbecause Iâd still like this to be just my space ^-^đ)
can someoneÂ
@iloveyouxxÂ
*gives you a long hug if okay*
@iloveyouxx
and if you think i only said that because you said nobody was there for you, just because you pointed it out, itâs not so. let me explain myself, just in case.Â
i came here a few minutes after you had posted that. i stayed on this page until i was finally free irl to respond, so i didnât even see the next page before saying it. how did i know to do this explanation then? i went to the next page after i had posted that.Â
i know i havenât been there for you as much as i wish i could, and iâm sorry, but i know it doesnât change anything. but i do love you. and i do care. and i do think about you constantly. and i do tell life to stop hurting you so much. but it doesnât listen. and i do wish i had something to say to you. but i donât. so, all i can do right now is sit with you and give you a hug. a virtual one, but still a hug. đ©·
@justmeeva
I could think less about the reason rn hah :')đ
dw I understand and believe you ofcđ©·thankyou for the explanation thođand for being heređ©·
yu never have to apologize for not being here friend :0đnever and I wonât let youđ
I donât think anyone does :') love me/care.đ€but I still remember when people went against me in rainbow room for saying that- so I wonât say anything TvTđ€
think about me is a possibility :P idk how tho heh :Pđ€
life..canât care less about me :') and I *officially*âšgave up on one day seeing the beautyâš or good sideâšto life. :D
im pretty hard to communicate with TvTđ€ and I often leave people speechless or with nothing to say :Dâš/lh su I understandđbut also sometimes cos when you need help yourself you just canât or donât know how to help others- and thatâs completely okayđ
your virtual hug and this convo means something to međ©·it doesnât change much sure but Iâm happy it happenedđđ
@iloveyouxxÂ
guess iâm not anyone then đ€·đŒââïž. i understand the feeling tho. itâs hard to believe and trust those words, and i understand that. but i do care. i promise.Â
yeah, now more than ever i understand how finding any positivity can be such a challenge- anything good, any hope - itâs really hard. and i canât blame you. youâve been through so much, and still are. iâm still proud of you tho, i have to say that. đ©·
itâs not your fault tho nadia fren.. for me personally, i wish i could say âitâs okayâ but it clearly isnât. i wish i could say âitâs going to be okayâ but who am i to promise that? i struggle with finding the good things, any hope, too, so thatâs also out of the list. so i really donât know what to say to you, except giving you as many virtual hugs as i possibly can. đ©·
love you, a lot. really. â€ïž
