in the wonders of my mind💗.

I’ve had to be sum doll my whole life

*** I’m literally getting this hair treatment tmrw :')

how coincedental-

I don’t want to but I feel like I have to-

not that I’m forced I mean yes I literally am- I don’t have a say in it. but also my natural hairs- omg it’s pretty okay but idk how to take care of it :') and idk I have to be pretty..don’t I- :')

It hurts like ***-

but..after the pain it lasts 6months(the hair treatment)

then I gotta get another one- after 6months TvT

I literally went to my (older) cousins house yesterday and was their doll the whole time-

my cousins 20(literally looks 15 ;-;💕) and she had her friend over 

I don’t look good with blush lmao-

I genuinely don’t tho. my skin looks fine and it’s always been really sensitive- 

and no I’m not saying it cos ever other girl is :P I had skin problems when I was young and doctor told me I was born with really really sensitive skin- needa be really gentle with anything-

makeup hates me tho.

omg I have so many stories of trying makeup and it going a whole other level of *wrong* :')

oop *** dad came early-

~1am~ but actually gotta poof ;-; *🪄💕🐾🪄*

can’t breathe.

:>

_{idek what I’m meant to say}

last time they talked it was 12:07

2hours ago-

_{“the person who tries to keep everyone happy often ends up feeling the loneliest”}

_{I lost my voice.}

_{not in an emotional kinda social way.} 

_{screamed too hard.} 

_{nothing changed except my ability to scream for help again.}

_{nothing could matter less rn}

_{I alr went mute irl}

_{no one ever wanted to hear me talk}

_{or see me smile.} 

_{I’ve been fake smiling so much that my lower jaw hurts}

_{yk what I noticed ?}

_{ever since i could remember- every single time I fall asleep my face smiles.}

_{and yes my face- not me. I don’t smile.} 

_{and it doesn’t hurt.}

_{which is new to me}

_{Idk how my real smile would look like.}

_{but I try my best to fake smile pretty. when I fake smile I do look pretty but it hurts the back of my jaw and lower jaw.}

_{and now I’ve noticed that even with reasons to smile I still fake smile.}