in the wonders of my mind💗.

but I’m too tired to think about school rn :')

I should-stop stalking them- shouldn’t I TvT

I stalk people when I’m mad at them..-

or hurt.

not cos I love em or any of that stuff :')

that’s just weirder tho isn’t it T^T-

idk what I’m trynna find out-

***.

what’s happening in rooms now- :')

and…that’s why they weren’t responding…

I’m gonna fight anyone that hurts my friend- but - through ✨telepathy✨:D

police cars :')

why’re they so loud T^T

It’s 11:40pm-

_{my-mouth still tastes like blood :')}

TW^

how forgetful do you gotta be TvT

_{no I’m not a vampire lmao. :P it just randomly does.}

_TW

_{Ive- vomited blood before :> cos I tried too hard to make myself vomit when I ate nothing- and messed up something in me idk. and I’ve vomited blood since then.-}

my dad went out again :> usually when I go ":>" it’s sarcastic but I’m genuinely so happy rn

okay yes I’m not exactly "happy" but again- I can breathe :D

takes sum mor✨conscious✨breaths

police are still outside- ide wanna know what’s going on TvT

I’m just gonna-

omg

how do people keep upvoting my first post ;-;

how do they even find it xD

cos Ive been getting upvotes from that all the time ever since it was posted-

_{why does literally every bad memory like visiting my mind when I come on this forum :')}

yk when I was really young I never are ate except for when my dad would leave the house-.

I remember going to my grandmas house

I forgot where she went but- she went out of the room

and I was- starving :D

no cos like what’s another word for starving ;-;

deprived of food✨malnourished✨dying of hunger✨starved✨unfed✨ravenous✨

yuh I think those are more accurate :'D

my grandma caught me tryna "steal" food. I wasn’t stealing lol :P I can’t believe in some households you can just- eat- like-it’s okay?

I looked at her like she was gonna be the last thing I see. :D but she just hugged me.

dyou know how weird that feels? not getting- fluffing :') tortured- cos you wanted to eat. I also don’t believe in some households it’s okay to- okay no but like just eating in general :') infront of people- or saying you’re hungry- or asking for food- heck some people just go right to their fridge at 2am-

my dad got a fridge lock lmao TvT dud-

the funny thing is this all sounds like something a parent would do when their kid is like overeating and outa control and all that- I’ve been underweight my whole life- I’ve rarely ever asked for food and never overate or anything much. I’m- ✨normal✨lol :P I don’t get it.-