because i'm back at home, expect my activity on 7cups to change and how active I am will change to how it was earlier. so if i reply late please bare with me.

@amiableBunny4016

@selflessSpruce1515

spruceeee! missed you friend 💜

i feel like... breaking an arm or something to go back to that place... at least it was safe.

i'm just sitting here sobbing... and crying. yet it feels... so useless.

@amiableBunny4016 bunny..? bunny what's going on lovely 🥺 

*sends strength and love to you* ❤️ 

@amiableBunny4016 Bunny? What's wrong? No pressure of course but you know you can talk with Moon and I 💙

@mytwistedsoul 💜

@LoveMyMoonflowers *offers big hugs* 

@mytwistedsoul huuggggsss. 💜

@LoveMyMoonflowers We'll send her some big strong vibes ok?  💙 it's the best we can do unfortunately 

@amiableBunny4016 sending you some of the biggest strongest vibes we got Bunny 💙

@mytwistedsoul mhm 💜

@amiableBunny4016 sending the biggest strongest vibes towards you bunny bestie 💜 and to lil bunny bro. 

@LoveMyMoonflowers @amiableBunny4016

Yep yep can't forget the little guy! 💙 Lots of love to you all. May our good vibes find their way to you across the universe. May they find you safe and surround you with light and love 💙

Sending vibes and love to you too Moon 💙 you are such an amazing and caring friend 💙

@mytwistedsoul @amiableBunny4016 yes 💜 what soul said 😅 because he always knows how to word things very well hehe. 

💜 your an amazing and caring friend too soul. thank you for being you 💜 and for caring bout me and bun. love you friend. 

@LoveMyMoonflowers  It just popped into my head lol 😅 

@mytwistedsoul 💜 

moon pie and little bunny care about you too, friend.

💜

@LoveMyMoonflowers Thank you 💙 it means a lot 💙

@mytwistedsoul 💜

sometimes its like everything people have said to me or convinced me of was  all just a lie.

@amiableBunny4016 What do you mean? No pressure to answer of course

@mytwistedsoul

everything i've been told from "its going to get better one day" to "i wont do it again im sorry" and "i love you" and ***.....nearly everything most people said to me seems to just be this dellusion i live by.  sometimes i feel like people just put a fake mask on and pretend but dont even believe what they are  saying.

@amiableBunny4016 Oh. Yeah unfortunately most people who say it will get better have never lived in a situation like this. It's only better when you no longer live in that situation and even then there's alot of hard work to deal with the aftermath. And abusers often say they're sorry and that they won't do it again. It lulls you into a false sense of safety and security. Those words aren't to be believed

@mytwistedsoul

Its like for a few seconds you feel hopeful, and then it all somehow drifts away. And your gone again, just falling but never landing anywhere. All is lost once you learn to trust, sometimes i wish i could unlearn how to trust people. The only thing that gives me peace.. is nothing. There is nothing worse than childhood. Nothing. 

@amiableBunny4016 I know. It used to be that way here too. She would make all these wonderful promises and it would last a few hours or maybe a day or two. Then it would fall apart . Idk about it drifting away it was always more like it was ripped away but that was my experience. Tbh I don't think I've ever fully learned how to trust anyone. Well no - I did trust someone once. That was a mistake that won't be made again. It's what makes it so hard to seek and ask for help. You learn the only person you can really count on is yourself which is hard in it's own way

@amiableBunny4016 Hoping you're ok 💙

@amiableBunny4016

hey bun 💜 Just wanted to say i hope the exams go well today. You’ve got this! *Sends luck beams* 

love you. <3

- Ni 

hmm....48/70 is not a good score :( for chemistry.

apperantly i got the highest in my class but 48/70 is still bad :(

i'm scared to tell my mom what i have done and to tell her to call for help...

@amiableBunny4016 Bunny? What happened?

@mytwistedsoul

hi.

@amiableBunny4016 Hey 💙 Are you ok?

@mytwistedsoul

yep. i'm totally fine. definently didnt do something stupid 

@amiableBunny4016 Hmm idk. I hope that's true

@amiableBunny4016 

i hope that's true too. but not really sure friend. 

:( 

💜 

@amiableBunny4016

<3 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

okay. thanks....

@amiableBunny4016 you okay? :( 

no pressure…