@amiableBunny4016 space
Hi everyone,
Im gonna be posting here every week. So.. you may or may not have seen my poems across 7cups or my writing. Anyways, if you have not then thats okay.
Let me introduce myself. You can call me Bunny/Violet/Bun Bun. I am from the UK and I am 13 years old. So I came here to inspire, to love, to show kindness and to be respected. The biggest power on this planet is love and kindness. Humanity is in a state of disaster. Panic. Hatred. But hate never beats love. Because love has more power than hate.
I was bullied for over 6 years. I learnt alot across the years. I learnt to overcome. Learnt to love. Learnt to forgive. I am human. I am not a robot. I am not a stranger anymore. I am me. And if people wanna judge me for who I am then I say.... I forgive them. And I know that they can change.
Like Martin Luther King once said, “Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.”
Humanity is changing. The world is awakening. And more and more people are realising the reality. The reality of social media. The reality of trauma. The reality of life. This is who we are. And together we form as 1.
We live in a big world. Scary. Isn't it? But its to beautiful. Its so beautiful how the sun rises. How then stars glimmer every night. How the wind howls. Isn't it? and we dont realise how beautiful it really is until..... we think about it. Think deeply about it and you will find how beautiful it is.
If your feeling alone right now. just know that.....
Your strong. Even if you dont believe it.
Your worthy. Even if you dont believe it.
You can get through this.
I am here for you.
We are here for you.
Thanks for reading, This is me, Bunny and this is my world.
Take care,
Bunny
some days i wondered.... what my life was for... for suffering? for screaming? for crying? for living in this ***? and even to breathe, was to suffocate. to live, was to die. and every day washed into another, the months bleed like a wound that refused to heal and years passed by like ships in the river. Everyday felt like just another disaster, another traumatic day, another traumatic moment, another day that i realised what i mistake i was or to ponder on the past. and perhaps, keep my gaurd up and fend for myself was all i could do, because who knew what part of me someone could rip apart today? what part of my personality might offend someone today? i put every ounce of my energy into loving people who could never love me back. Put every inch of perfectionism inside of me, yelled every curse word there was to say , let people strangle and gaurd my heart until it it bled so thoroughly. I squeezed every bit of me there was to exist, just to impress the least and the most. dad beat mom when i was a baby. she hit me when i made mistakes. he used to throw things across a room and yell. my life yet another story half written. just another human, who was never treated like one. a punching bag. a monster. a slave. i never learnt to keep my head held high. i never learnt how to love myself, i only learnt how to stop loving myself. in a world turned upside down, how could i survive? i regret some things i did, but for the most.... i dont. I was a child clueless of what the world could throw at me, and whatever it throwed at me, i endured. I survived. I wasn't perfect....I barely ever found the right people, I had scars and bruises, and times of pain. it was never meant to be a perfect life....i guess..... it was just meant to be that way. and it hurts, i know that. it was a rocky and *** life...... but at least i made it.
its been a traumatic few months..... :')
"I'm the unluckiest mother in the world" - my mom
Your actually lucky mom. Your lucky I kept silent. Your lucky I didn't say anything. Your lucky I was on your side.
I was the unlucky daughter.
the amount of abuse i get on my L account is so tiring to deal with....
@amiableBunny4016 That's some of the reason I don't have that account anymore 😕 I'm sorry you're dealing with this too 💙
@mytwistedsoul
and every time i tell myself "its okay" , "this happens to everyone, its not only you" or "that member was just having a bad day".......but then it happens again and again and again.... and its tiring.
@amiableBunny4016 It is and you end up feeling worse than when you started
@mytwistedsoul
:/ yeah. idk. i just end up feeling like *** and crying for no reason.
@amiableBunny4016 Oh 😞 Maybe stop for awhile? You don't need that kind of hurt on top of everything else. It's great you're trying to help people but don't jeopardize your mental health
@mytwistedsoul
i dont know. i'll think about it i guess... hopefully it will get better a bit..... oof.
@amiableBunny4016 Yeah you can find good people to listen to. And even get return people. Those are nice to have because even if they're having a bad day they're not trying to destroy anyone with it
@mytwistedsoul
yeah no.... i spoke to people who had gone through abuse similar to mine... there are nice people out there. :')
*** wrong account....*** ***....
@amiableBunny4016 you can flag them and get them deleted that way no one can put the two together
I used to do that too 😝
getting called useless and disrespectful by a stranger who barely knows me and barely spoke to me says alot....
been listening to this song non stop.... idek why...
some days its hard to breathe. or wake up. or be alive. because you realise, everything you loved has been taken away from you.
no more family. no more happiness. no more nothing.
those painkillers dont work....
