Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
@mytwistedsoul š
my grandma is good š sheās okie. and nah i think itās fine because my brother and me donāt really take what my grandpa says - the advice and all that - too seriously. he does repeat the same things over and over so after a while it seems to get to your head :') idk lol.Ā
awwe thatās okay soul š were you an only child? :o and yea lol iām gonna rickroll him so much when heās off to college š i rickrolled him several times today. š Evil Moon Pie lolĀ
Mhmā¦ thank you Soul. being silent hurts, doesnāt it. i think. but at the same time, itās comfortable. itās familiar. Idk.Ā
I feel really bad for talking this much Soul š¶ I know you have a lot going on in your world too. š :')Ā
Soulā¦ Iād love to see a brain blow a raspberry šš orā¦ Iām not sure if - what would it look like? š :') š I hope we can all try to see it too š might take a lot of time thoughā¦ā¦. :')Ā
Yeah, kinda. Iām not sure, these few days feel like theyāve passed by quickly. Time is so strange :')Ā
*Hugs* Lots of love right back, Soul friend šĀ
@LoveMyMoonflowers It's good you both don't take him too seriously. I'm sure he means well but things are different than they used to be when he was younger I bet
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah, true. Heās had a lot of his dreams crushed. Most of them actually. My mom couldnāt fulfil one of his dreams, one thing he wanted her to do. Maybe he feels the need to sort of live through his kids and grandkids. Idk. living his dreamā¦Ā
I think that would be a good thing too. :ā)Ā šĀ
Yeahā¦ itās hard because I guess since weāre young we are forced into a position, into situations, where we canāt afford to be vulnerable. We have to fight and be strong, when we are only so young and new to this world. and we learn quickly. the ways of this big, scary worldā¦ :') so itās hard to be vulnerable with people. itās hard to trust. trust is such a broken, complicated thingā¦Ā
I talk about it in rooms sometimes. with a few people. when it feels safe in SR.Ā
Teenie land seems to have gotten a bit better but thereās still always some kind of drama going on. :')Ā
Awwe thank you SoulĀ šĀ I like talking with you too. You always make people feel so safe and understoodĀ šĀ
Lmao thats what I figured you wouldnāt find anything like that onlineĀ š¤£Ā Hmm Iām curious now i might check too.Ā šš Ā
Idk a lot of things are like that, i thinkā¦ it is what it is.Ā šĀ :') mmmm.Ā šĀ
Iām sorry friendĀ šĀ i think i get what you mean though tbh. *smh at Life*Ā šĀ lifeā¦ throwing things at us all the dang timeā¦ passing by. :')Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers Oh that sucks. I hope he's not bitter about it at least
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah, it does suckā¦ ): and nopeā¦ :') he seems pretty bitter about it I think.Ā šĀ But idk.Ā
Yeahā¦ people around always want a clear answer for everything. when we are doing *** we canāt tell them anything, we have to be silent about it, we have to be quietā¦ especially as children, I think. according to everyone else, weāre supposed to be okay all the timeā¦ :ā) I guess after getting invalidated over and over and over againĀ šĀ itās sort of a normal thing at home. So we end up saying the same things to ourselvesĀ šĀ we learn to invalidate ourselvesā¦Ā š
I think it just feels safe when certain people are around.Ā šĀ friends like Bunny (:Ā šĀ always making sure we are being kind to each other, that the room feels safe.Ā šĀ
I hope it gets better too.Ā šĀ :ā) Are the rooms nice/okay on the adult side? :o most of the time? š for some reason i always feel so excited to age up lol. canāt wait to move out of teenie land :') Iāve heard that they have more rooms on that side too :oĀ š
Yepā¦ :/ i think sometimes when things are okay for while we might feel suspicious, it gets a little too comfy, it feels strange because in the past, things feel okay for a little while and thenā¦. mmmm.Ā šĀ Idkā¦ thats how it is for me anyways lol. i always feel suspicious whenever things feel okay for a while or whenever (i think) iām doing okay.Ā
how are you today Soul? :oĀ šĀ (no pressure friendĀ š)
tw/shĀ
3 days clean and idek how i feelĀ
@LoveMyMoonflowersĀ
*sends you optional hugs* š©·
@justmeeva
*hugs tight* š„ŗ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
me proud of you, Nii!šš„§ ^_^
@VictoriaLove7
thank you friendĀ
dude this hurts smĀ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
What is it, Nii? šš„§š
@VictoriaLove7
mmmm. im okay ish now physicallyā¦Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
me hopes Nii šš„§ is now getting better in all aspects ^_^
@VictoriaLove7
ššš
last night was ***.
tw/shĀ
i relapsedā¦ it would have been 5 days clean today but nopeā¦ i guess it wasnāt that bad though. idk. i gave in to the urges but after a while i stopped and wrote a while. it wasnāt too bad.Ā
but it was a relapse.Ā
:/Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs for frnd if oki*Ā
@unassumingEyes
*huggly wuggly huggle wuggles* <3Ā
mmmmā¦
@LoveMyMoonflowersĀ
definitely didnāt spend like 20 minutes trying to find a gif that feels right but still didnāt find āthe oneā so thatāll have to do :ā)
@justmeeva
awwe me thinks itās cutu though <3 the kitty one is one of my faves. <3 *sends hugs back* <3Ā
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah, true. :') thatās definitely true, Soul. but tbh iām not completely sure how one would go aboutā¦ idk avoiding getting bitter. when they have regrets, when they know they could have done something different.Ā
yepā¦ and that makes them good parents, they sayā¦ feeding you, giving you clothes to wear, making sure you have someplace to stayā¦ becomes a chore. and yeah i think youāre right tooā¦ š
i feel like some people have kids without thinking much about it first. they donāt realise what they have š they have human beings, whole universes. š :')Ā
bunny is the best š the very best. she makes teenie land better and brighter and safer and kinder. š
iām glad they seem nice š and that there isnāt as much drama. on teenie side it feels like a lot of people can start arguing and keep an argument going, about anything. :/ the drama in rooms has been extending to PMs and all kinds of stuff must be happening there. š
8 rooms? 12 rooms? :o thatās cool soul, on teenie side we just have 3 rooms open 24/7. lol. they seem pretty quiet right now. we have hopeās office open on mondays and fridays, for the mindful monday and fantastic friday sessions. i think those sessions are just for teenie side though :o the anxiety room and the depression room rarely open here, i think.Ā
lol š maybe that happens because we are so used to it all? itās likeā¦ we are used to being anxious, or not okay :') or idkā¦ but then we are okay for a while and itās like bruh what?? this is not the usual so š¤ letās trigger it again š idk š #MoonsBrainCannotBrain āØ
iām glad you felt okay ish then friend š but that was then :') and here i amā¦ replying, like 1 day later. :') *smh at myself* š¤¦š»āāļø did your day go okay? :') i hope that headache didnāt take overā¦ šĀ
iām okay right now. š iāve been travelling around a lotā¦ today i accompanied my brother and my grandma to hospital. they had some things to get done there. my grandmaās having an eye surgery soon so sheās preparing for that. š my brotherās just getting various immunisation records/vaccinations/tests done for when he goes to college, in america. idk how everything works lol.Ā
a novella :o soul š we have graduated from the essay to the novella āØ yay! š
@LoveMyMoonflowers Tbh I'm not sure how to avoid bitterness either. Sometimes I worry that I'm becoming that way myself and I didn't want to do that
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c o m p r e h e n dĀ
s o m e t h i n gĀ
itās not working āØ
oof.
idek how i feel about coming on 7cups anymore.Ā