Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
@mytwistedsoul 💜
my grandma is good 💜 she’s okie. and nah i think it’s fine because my brother and me don’t really take what my grandpa says - the advice and all that - too seriously. he does repeat the same things over and over so after a while it seems to get to your head :') idk lol.
awwe that’s okay soul 💜 were you an only child? :o and yea lol i’m gonna rickroll him so much when he’s off to college 😈 i rickrolled him several times today. 😈 Evil Moon Pie lol
Mhm… thank you Soul. being silent hurts, doesn’t it. i think. but at the same time, it’s comfortable. it’s familiar. Idk.
I feel really bad for talking this much Soul 😶 I know you have a lot going on in your world too. 😞 :')
Soul… I’d love to see a brain blow a raspberry 😭😂 or… I’m not sure if - what would it look like? 😭 :') 💜 I hope we can all try to see it too 💜 might take a lot of time though……. :')
Yeah, kinda. I’m not sure, these few days feel like they’ve passed by quickly. Time is so strange :')
*Hugs* Lots of love right back, Soul friend 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers It's good you both don't take him too seriously. I'm sure he means well but things are different than they used to be when he was younger I bet
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah, true. He’s had a lot of his dreams crushed. Most of them actually. My mom couldn’t fulfil one of his dreams, one thing he wanted her to do. Maybe he feels the need to sort of live through his kids and grandkids. Idk. living his dream…
I think that would be a good thing too. :’) 💜
Yeah… it’s hard because I guess since we’re young we are forced into a position, into situations, where we can’t afford to be vulnerable. We have to fight and be strong, when we are only so young and new to this world. and we learn quickly. the ways of this big, scary world… :') so it’s hard to be vulnerable with people. it’s hard to trust. trust is such a broken, complicated thing…
I talk about it in rooms sometimes. with a few people. when it feels safe in SR.
Teenie land seems to have gotten a bit better but there’s still always some kind of drama going on. :')
Awwe thank you Soul 💜 I like talking with you too. You always make people feel so safe and understood 💜
Lmao thats what I figured you wouldn’t find anything like that online 🤣 Hmm I’m curious now i might check too. 😭😅
Idk a lot of things are like that, i think… it is what it is. 😞 :') mmmm. 💜
I’m sorry friend 💜 i think i get what you mean though tbh. *smh at Life* 💜 life… throwing things at us all the dang time… passing by. :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers Oh that sucks. I hope he's not bitter about it at least
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah, it does suck… ): and nope… :') he seems pretty bitter about it I think. 😞 But idk.
Yeah… people around always want a clear answer for everything. when we are doing *** we can’t tell them anything, we have to be silent about it, we have to be quiet… especially as children, I think. according to everyone else, we’re supposed to be okay all the time… :’) I guess after getting invalidated over and over and over again 💜 it’s sort of a normal thing at home. So we end up saying the same things to ourselves 💜 we learn to invalidate ourselves… 😞
I think it just feels safe when certain people are around. 💜 friends like Bunny (: 💜 always making sure we are being kind to each other, that the room feels safe. 💜
I hope it gets better too. 💜 :’) Are the rooms nice/okay on the adult side? :o most of the time? 😅 for some reason i always feel so excited to age up lol. can’t wait to move out of teenie land :') I’ve heard that they have more rooms on that side too :o 💜
Yep… :/ i think sometimes when things are okay for while we might feel suspicious, it gets a little too comfy, it feels strange because in the past, things feel okay for a little while and then…. mmmm. 😞 Idk… thats how it is for me anyways lol. i always feel suspicious whenever things feel okay for a while or whenever (i think) i’m doing okay.
how are you today Soul? :o 💜 (no pressure friend 💜)
@LoveMyMoonflowers I guess maybe that's what happens to regrets? I guess maybe as we get older and that hindsight kicks in maybe our regrets make us bitter because we see what might have been if we had made different choices
tw/sh
3 days clean and idek how i feel
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*sends you optional hugs* 🩷
@justmeeva
*hugs tight* 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
me proud of you, Nii!🌙🥧 ^_^
@VictoriaLove7
thank you friend
dude this hurts sm
@LoveMyMoonflowers
What is it, Nii? 🌙🥧😟
@VictoriaLove7
mmmm. im okay ish now physically…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
me hopes Nii 🌙🥧 is now getting better in all aspects ^_^
@VictoriaLove7
💜💜💜
last night was ***.
tw/sh
i relapsed… it would have been 5 days clean today but nope… i guess it wasn’t that bad though. idk. i gave in to the urges but after a while i stopped and wrote a while. it wasn’t too bad.
but it was a relapse.
:/
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs for frnd if oki*
@unassumingEyes
*huggly wuggly huggle wuggles* <3
mmmm…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
definitely didn’t spend like 20 minutes trying to find a gif that feels right but still didn’t find ‘the one’ so that’ll have to do :’)
@justmeeva
awwe me thinks it’s cutu though <3 the kitty one is one of my faves. <3 *sends hugs back* <3
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah, true. :') that’s definitely true, Soul. but tbh i’m not completely sure how one would go about… idk avoiding getting bitter. when they have regrets, when they know they could have done something different.
yep… and that makes them good parents, they say… feeding you, giving you clothes to wear, making sure you have someplace to stay… becomes a chore. and yeah i think you’re right too… 💜
i feel like some people have kids without thinking much about it first. they don’t realise what they have 💜 they have human beings, whole universes. 💜 :')
bunny is the best 💜 the very best. she makes teenie land better and brighter and safer and kinder. 💜
i’m glad they seem nice 💜 and that there isn’t as much drama. on teenie side it feels like a lot of people can start arguing and keep an argument going, about anything. :/ the drama in rooms has been extending to PMs and all kinds of stuff must be happening there. 😞
8 rooms? 12 rooms? :o that’s cool soul, on teenie side we just have 3 rooms open 24/7. lol. they seem pretty quiet right now. we have hope’s office open on mondays and fridays, for the mindful monday and fantastic friday sessions. i think those sessions are just for teenie side though :o the anxiety room and the depression room rarely open here, i think.
lol 😅 maybe that happens because we are so used to it all? it’s like… we are used to being anxious, or not okay :') or idk… but then we are okay for a while and it’s like bruh what?? this is not the usual so 🤔 let’s trigger it again 😎 idk 😭 #MoonsBrainCannotBrain ✨
i’m glad you felt okay ish then friend 💜 but that was then :') and here i am… replying, like 1 day later. :') *smh at myself* 🤦🏻♀️ did your day go okay? :') i hope that headache didn’t take over… 😞
i’m okay right now. 💜 i’ve been travelling around a lot… today i accompanied my brother and my grandma to hospital. they had some things to get done there. my grandma’s having an eye surgery soon so she’s preparing for that. 💜 my brother’s just getting various immunisation records/vaccinations/tests done for when he goes to college, in america. idk how everything works lol.
a novella :o soul 😎 we have graduated from the essay to the novella ✨ yay! 😂
@LoveMyMoonflowers Tbh I'm not sure how to avoid bitterness either. Sometimes I worry that I'm becoming that way myself and I didn't want to do that
t r y i n g
t o
c o m p r e h e n d
s o m e t h i n g
it’s not working ✨
oof.
idek how i feel about coming on 7cups anymore.