In the Corner
Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
@unassumingEyes
*leaves a hug for eyes buddy to let her know i’ve been thinking of her and i miss her.*
@unassumingEyes
i was literally just thinking of you and how it felt so long, welcome back 🩷
@justmeeva @LoveMyMoonflowers @iloveyouxx
Huggs missed yall i meant to post or come on here but like
Net was
T r a s h 😞😞
Been a hectic two days but my aunt came by lots to help and clear the atmosphere
Had a fight with my sis but made (?) Up
(Its always (?) Made up with her lol neither of us apologize or talk about it-)
Update 1: i hv been a bit down in physical health
Update 2: i hv been a bit down in mental health (hah-)
But im....sort of okay
I found a few safe spaces in the house today so theres that ^_^. Need smth since i dont hv school anymore
Andd an update i think @iloveyouxx will find agreeable 🙃 im getting a break! Not a no-study-or-think-about-it break, but theres a pause in exams till after Eid
So if i work hard rn and focus on studying i can enjoy eid ^_^
@unassumingEyes
hugs💜awe it’s okie friend we happy to see you back🩷
ngl same ;-; me and my brother never apologize but then again I don’t think we’re ever like *okay* when it comes to each other either ;-;🤍
awwwe :')❤️I really hope you can start feeling better soon >:❤️
im glad you found sum safe spaces :0💕I think having a safe space/s is something a lot of peoples need :P even if they don’t know it yet but I’m glad you found a couple🩷
:0 yussssss finallyyyyy :DDD🎉🎉🎉💖💖ou wait you’re still gonna study TvT🤍? hm well it’s sumthing💜!! happy for yuuu💕can yu try to study at least a lil less and take it easy TvT since there aren’t any exams going around atm :')💙?
*cheering for yuu*💖🎉🎉📣📣👏👏💖*wOoooohhOoOo gOooo eyEsSssssss*😛🎉🎉💖
@iloveyouxx
Go nadia too 🎉🎉 life is still a challenge so ill cheer for you🎉🎉🎉
See my dads visiting on eid nd after that itll be a few months before we see him again so i want to make sure i do v.v.v.v little study on eid days so these 3days imma study v.v.v.v much so ill be free later. Stressful but itll worth it....probablyy 🙃
Uhhh i always forget everything i was gonna say half way throughh
Ummm
Missed u tons 🩷
My sis is s o complicated i d e k how i feel about her. I think its like, she tries but
Shes still my mother's daughter (do people think that of me?) And her favourite so shes "learned" (...how to be mean sometimes...)
We dont apologize. Today my sisters "apology" was advice (shes not a patient teacher, altho shes a good one, so her advice is always good nd useful). I "apologized" once by arranging her socks for her. We get by, i guess.
(Think think think what else was i going to say?)
Im sorry bout u nd ur brother. Siblings are so complicated...
(Im going to have to reread ur response to remember aaah xD. Will make another post if i missed smth, hugs if okii)
@iloveyouxx
(Ah, thats what i forgot-)
Safe spaces are vvv important i agree. And i do very much need to get away from mom and sis sometimes. Theyre so ... impatient. Mood swings so fast. So confusing. Like im always asking, what did i do wrong? But all i get is tw yelling. School was a longer get away- 6 hours away from them, 6 hours not watching my everymove to get it right. Im dumping, sorry-. Anyways. If not school, well, atleast i get this.
Till they find the safe spaces. I have another in mind though- noone is every going to the backside of our house 🤔🤔 ill check it out tomorrow 🙃
@unassumingEyes
I was gonna be like "omg your school was 6 hours away D:" but then I realize you meant school hours ;-;💜
friend you can dump all you want🩷(lol :P). really tho- it’s your space too and mainly- say whatever you need/want to <3
i hope your new safe place makes you feel *safe* :0❤️and calm if anything <3 without overthinking about your mom/sister :P❤️or having to put up with all the yelling <3 I think yu could use a space like that friend and if it makes you feel safe then I’m happy for yu❤️
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Yall must be thinking i just got back and im already an emotional mess
Well
Yes i am-
Just
My sis lured me outside at one point today to hit me. That wasnt the reason of the fight but it was the fight :/
And
I poofed for like an hour today cause my stomach hurt so bad and no one noticed :/
Told you no one checks in on me here 😞
@unassumingEyes
D: what D: are you okay now😞?
>: do you know what could’ve caused your stomach to hurt that bad >:💜I would’ve noticed :') <3
😞they really should..not exactly notice when you’re not okay but at least try.. :')🩷I’m sorry eyesbuddy- your family should’ve tried to check on you if they could >:🩷
@iloveyouxx
Indigestion :p i always get it when i leave kwt. Mom says to eat normally because its been 2months since we left kwt, but stomach still wont settle down. I managed to finish dinner today so thats smth. I think thats why my appetite was gone in between too 🤔
I just. My 16yr old cousin cld pause in her studies to peak in and see how its going. My 14yr old cousin can wave at me or ask me how much studies is left when he passes by. My uncle can pop in to ask me how im feeling when he gets back from work everyday. My 7yr old cousin brings me leaves and flowers and balloons from outside because im in the room studying so long and missing out so much
And mom and sis just...dont bother. Dont notice. I told both of them today that im going upstairs, please call me when the workers that had to come today arrive so i cn come back down. When the workers came, my sis came back and yelled at me for not telling anyone i was up. I told both of them?? And that was the fight, and why she lured me out to hit me and yeah like what :/
@unassumingEyes
I had to google that TvT🤍then I googled what it felt like- it sounds do painful omg😭why do I sumtimes feel like I literally have barely any experience with physical pain TvT I didn’t know what this indigestion thing was till now and still never gotten a headache :P also my brother keeps complaining about back/shoulder pain and I’m like😭but anyway- it reallly does sound painfulll I’m sorry D:💜2months :') maybe your grannybody is tryna hint at smth atp like :P you’re always in pain smh :')❤️🩹
😞this really is.. so sad :')💜
yu told both of them.. :P howd you not tell anyone you were up :')-? you literally.- TvT🩷I’m happy you made up🩷tho this is a pretty T^T sibling thing to do >:💜the fact she hit you too for no real reason either :')💜but issokie I guess💙life goes onnn :PP I hope you’re okie <3
@iloveyouxx
It wasnt the hitting that bother me i guess lol (sisters lol) it was luring me. She pretended it was for work. She was actually taking me smwhere mom cldnt see so she cld hit me. I really didnt like the deception.
They ignore evrything i say than when it comes to a head yell at me for not telling them things i told them. They never listen.
Im glad u dont get much physical pain
Honestly, nadia, im weak. That may sound like a small statement but its difficult for me to admit that. Im weak, ive probably become tw underweight again, and you just...wouldnt want to see my body like at all. Thin thin bones. Ive got nothing on me and im so insulted for it 24/7 i cnt even admit it to myself without tearing up. But its true, and the stress isnt helping, and im so tired all the time now, and i got up today and my vision just clouded so bad it triggered a headache and I do need a break but i cant get one yet and im dumoing again
Ughhhhhhh
Sorry-
I think two days without venting made the guilt of venting come back in full lol.
(Two ppl in my life called me wise. Really, tho? Me? Maybe a little bit more than whats average for my age but thats...the most i cn believe. Me? Wise? Idek how to mop)
@iloveyouxx i dont want to ask bcz it was today nd it feels insensitive but
Cn u tell? Who?
Sorry, im sorry
Does anyone know any forum mods?
@unassumingEyes
@ tommy is a big one 🤍 I pm them every time I have a qs about anything Forum related :P