In the Corner
Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
The universe has a funny way of saying “I think you’re strong’
It makes you prove, that it isn’t wrong.
I might have to take smth for the headache
@unassumingEyes
sending healing beams 💕 if okay 💕
@LoveMyMoonflowers ofcourse. Thank you love <3
@unassumingEyes
mhm 💕 your welcome 💙
Sorry Im a bit low these days
@unassumingEyes
it’s okie to have our low days. 💜 life is hard :') and things can get messy. 💙 we’re here with you 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers I know 🥹 Thank you <3
I think i may hv tw OCD. Or just some symptoms? Idk. How do ppl know this stuff? How do u even get diagnosed? "Hey mom, i want to get tested for OCD"
...Who even makes the diagnosis-?
Tw for...ignorance-
Besides, if OCD = neat then nvm-
@unassumingEyes all online tests say i do, but i know those arent diagnosis so thats not a confirmation lol just food for thought
@unassumingEyes
it depends on where the online test is from 💜 but there are some good sites out there who give… idk what they’re called - screenings (?) so you can check how likely you are to have X or Y. 💙 it helps people know whether they should see a professional or not 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers Yeah they’re screenings. Idk. I know I cant possibly get a diagnosis for it unless my parents suspect and decide to themselves— there’s no convincing them, I mean. They’ll think I’m copying others, or smth. So I’ll just, you know, keep researching and stuffs, and if I still hv these symptoms when Im an adult, I might get it checked.
i don’t know if there are, uh, therapists? Psychologists? In the country Im moving too. I mean, there must be, but expensive.
@unassumingEyes
awwe :') i understand that. would your parents allow you to speak to a doctor - at least? 💙
@unassumingEyes
i think getting a diagnosis might begin with speaking to a doctor about it? :o and they can refer you to the right people. 💙 i’m not sure though 😅
it’s okay to suspect some things 💜 and to look over symptoms and be like ‘hey i relate with this a bit’ 💙 that’s okay. your not alone.
it’s okay to take things slowly - one day at a time 💕
Watch my poetry get worse the more upset i get
"You're worried about what the future holds,
I'm a paper trying to endure more than 7 folds"
Im running on autopilot, where i basically tell myself to be upset after hard thing X is over, and when its over everyones so happy i feel like its a bad time to get upset, and dont lol
During packing
Mom : stay outta the way
Also Mom : glares at me for not helping
??????
Im just gonna cups and study at this point
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@unassumingEyes
*cupses with you* 🩷
@unassumingEyes
*but more in a few hours bc school :/*
@justmeeva oof school :0
@unassumingEyes they asked me to help and apparently I was holding the cling wrap "wrong" :0
Then i pretended to fix it and they were satisfied
I literally changed nothing :0
@unassumingEyes
whattt
@justmeeva *tada* lol
Issok theyre just stressed about packing...probably-
Today has no right feeling like a normal Friday.
im ruining everything
@unassumingEyes
no no don’t think that >: what’s wrong ? >: *🪑*
@iloveyouxx my frnds are hving a hard time and im gonna make it worse by leaving them bcz im moving :0
Also are u oki love?
@unassumingEyes
aw I feel bad for them >: but that's not in your control :'3🤍 I know you'd prefer staying and being there for them :'3🤍 it's not your fault you can't >:🩷
and no tbh but it's oki :'3 thanks for asking and sorry for being depressing :'3
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