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unassumingEyes January 18th

Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3

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unassumingEyes OP June 27th

Somewhere in the school that i no longer go to, on a desk thats no longer mine, i have written the words

"I cant."

More than once.

Id never written on desks before to be honest

I wrote "i cant" as i talked to frnds. 'I cant" as the teachers asked me questions. If my desk was moved id go and claim that one desk having "i cant" lightly scribbled in several places

Noone ever saw

unassumingEyes OP June 28th

*screams* she keeps *** threatening me about my result like there isnt even anything i can *** do about it now so  


unassumingEyes OP June 28th

Sis named the black cat in the building Truffles (we're arguing if its a he or she xD i say Mr. Truffles)

White cat with brown ears and tail is just Mr.Cat 

unassumingEyes OP June 29th

Dead. Deadeaddead.

Do you know what i feel when people die? No? Neither do i.

I float

Floatfloatfloat

And the feelings are sososo far away

After my p.grandfather died i thought floating meant i didnt love him

Now turtle is dead. Master Oogway is dead.

And i know i loved her. Love her. So thats not what it means.

It just means im a *** weirdo. 

Deadeadead

I keep worrying about her kids

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@unassumingEyes

*sits with you* 💜 your not weird… it’s okay. i know what you mean by this feeling :') when i found out i just went numb. i’m still numb. idk what to feel and still cant believe it fully 

*hugs eyes if okay* here with you eyes, we all here with you, the ones who love turtle and knew her. sitting with you and grieving with you 💜 

and yeah im worried about her little ones too 😔 i can’t imagine how it must be for them right now, how they must be feeling. they’re  so small too 

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unassumingEyes OP June 29th

@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs* thank you flowers 🩷

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@unassumingEyes

*big hugs* <3 love you eyes 

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unassumingEyes OP June 29th

@LoveMyMoonflowers love you too 🩷

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unassumingEyes OP June 29th

*exists* 

unassumingEyes OP June 30th

6 chemistry chapters, 4 physics chapter and 5 maths chapters.

By next saturday.

And im really, really stuck on this damn math chapter

unassumingEyes OP July 2nd

One word to describe myself: 

Coward.

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@unassumingEyes

:') what makes you feel this way eyes bean? :( I don’t want to sound invalidating 😞 but i have to disagree :') 💜

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unassumingEyes OP July 2nd

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

If i wasnt a coward id study. If i wasnt a coward id know how to deal with mom. If i wasnt a coward, maybe i wld even leave home and do something useful for once.

None of that makes sense but its whatever.

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@unassumingEyes

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(I'm sorry I’m not in the best headspace to reply properly but I will when I can… Love you Eyes)

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unassumingEyes OP July 2nd

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

No apologies needed ❤️ Love you too ❤️

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@unassumingEyes

💜💜💜

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unassumingEyes OP July 2nd

It took me 12 years to learn how to nit yell back when yelled at

It took me 5 years to start understanding sis again

It took 1 year to get hope,

And 1 more to lose it

And now optimism feels like nothing but a necessary lie, 

And I am a born liar

unassumingEyes OP July 2nd

With my newer cups frnds, i slip into role easily. Im fine! Lets cause chaos! Someone the other day said teen chaos room and i thought of flowers the rest of the time on cups. Anyways, its like before but not. Like everything in the rooms changed- but me. Almost like when the conflicts started, everyone started falling out of the rooms, and i was the one who managed to stay. Only, it doesnt feel like a good thing, anyways. Not bad, not good.  

The new ones feel almost like kids

(We all are)

Still hoping. Still laughing. Still having fun. Oh theyre all hurting, yes, thats why we're all here, arent we? But the difference is clear

And- none of you are replacable- but there are parallels. Similarities. Almost...scary similarities. In their thought patterns, i mean. Thats what eva would hv said, before. Thats what flowers wld hv said, before (teen chaos room-) thats how nadia wld hv reacted, before (before what? Just before?)

(Dont feel bad about "changing" youre all still lovely) 

Point is, sometimes i wonder if im just going through everything again, just witu different people. Im not, not exactly anyways because i dont open up like i did with eva and i dont laugh like i did with nadia and i dont feel safe like i did with flowers, 

But theres a similarity.

And its kind of weird to witness.


unassumingEyes OP July 2nd

The fanfics arent working.

This happens every now and then. Interest lessens. Attention lessens. Fanfics are no longer working distractions. It happens, every now and then. After a week or so ill find smth that will work, that will keep the thoughts away when i read it and itll be back to normal. Until then im in the waiting period, where im tired and theres too many thoughts and the fanfics dont keep they away.

I dont like the waiting period.