In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
can see the space
the halls and places that broke a soul
it calls when we're numb and alone
take it slow
keeping track
mark the days
silence spaced by occasions where lips scream
it's an all or nothin' place
it settles when she says so
then I can't say no
resting now
is that what you tell yourself?
it's never enough
maybe you think too much
maybe I don't want you to know
you see
you can't see
we're fallin from the top story
think we'll bounce when we
hit the surface
🐾
got a moo 😊 🐾
her name is Deja 😊
@mytwistedsoul
awwe <3 i love that hehe
@LoveMyMoonflowers 😊 Deja Moo 😂
@mytwistedsoul
😭🤣 that’s cute and funny at the same time 🤭🤭 I love it
soulllllllll 💖 its been so long since ive reached out, and i wanted to see how moi amazing friendsie issssss 😊
Just had to make the hardest phone call. Today we say goodbye to our girl.
@mytwistedsoul
*hugs soul buddy if okay* 😞💙🫂
@LoveMyMoonflowers Thank you 😞 this is so hard
@mytwistedsoul
I know… 😞 *big squeezies* 💜
@mytwistedsoul. Sorry to hear it 💜.
@mytwistedsoul
I am so sorry to hear about your loss soul 💙 sending you and your family so much love. 💙 we are here for you. take your time. be gentle with yourself 💙
@mytwistedsoul
open the door
slow it down
this cold room
will hold you now
suddenly sent below
surrounded by shadows
it’s hard to breath when everything hurts
drowning in darkness
take a breath at the bottom
lungs are heavy and they weigh me down
blackness spreads to my eyes
it soaks in
write on walls
look around
no way to plan
how do you plan when your mind full of sounds
take all the pain
hide it inside your brain
do you feel all alone in the crowd?
are you ascared of the dark?
sorry can't leave now
don’t breath
might've seen this before
stalling
can’t quite say that it's alright now
it’s too quiet
can’t find solid ground
without warning stuck in this dimension
I don’t trust it
the senses I’m left with don't give a direction
lost in a pool filled with ink from my own hand
I open my eyes up to silence
there’s no where left for to hide
feeling alone but made it home
@LoveMyMoonflowers @adventurousBranch3786 @amiableBunny4016 @Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Wanted to thank everyone for their thoughts and kindness.
TW
Unfortunately I wish the bad news would have ended there. Currently father is on hospice and has but a few days left.
When it rains it pours.
@mytwistedsoul This is way late but I'm d***ed sorry to hear about it... Losing a parent is never easy for most of us. I wasn't close to my mother by the time she died & it was still difficult. You are in my thoughts.
@slowdecline48 Thank you so much. I'm sorry for your loss too. We had just started to reconnect before he got sick. Did it all seem so complicated to you? The grieving? I wonder at times if there's too much grief for someone I hardly knew but then I wonder if I'm not grieving enough. And I keep hearing that everyone grieves differently - so idk. None of it seems real yet. Thank you it helps that you said it difficult for alot of people. Guess I just have to figure how to work through it
*Sorry - rambling* 😅
@mytwistedsoul Yes, everyone grieves a little (or a lot) differently. No two humans are exactly alike in every last detail, including psychologically. There are basic similarities for most of us but that's as far as it goes.
@mytwistedsoul *squeezie you tightly and doesn't let go* 🥺
me wish me could stop the pouring but since it no possible 😔 me sitting with you through the rains Soul 💕
@Optimisticempath @mytwistedsoul
*sits with you and milky bear* 😞💜
My dearest Soul, I'm heartbroken to hear the news. I'm so sorry. I can't find the right words as usual, I never know what to say. Its difficult to see you like this but I know that it is much more difficult for you to go through all this. Sending you a calm white floating fluff, a caring healing hug. I don't know if it helps. Maybe, if you prefer, we can quietly hide under the invisibility cloak until the darkness passes. Please be gentle with yourself, Soul. ❤
@intelligentWheel627 You're always so sweet Rinny ❤️ I think your words were perfect. I've been holding tightly to the calm white fluff hug you sent and I send back to you a rose colored one to match your beautiful heart. Maybe we can keep that invisibility cloak handy - just in case? ❤️ Much love to you Rinny and thank you for the reminder to be gentle ❤️
@mytwistedsoul You are a beautiful person. Thank you for your kindness and for the rose hug. I keep it close to me and squeeze it ever so often. ❤ I'm sorry about your dad, Soul. I cannot imagine how difficult it must be for you. I give you a very strong, most comforting hug that lasts for as long as you need. The cape is ready too of course, should you decide to use it. Please let me know if I can help in any other way. I mean it. I haven't been much of a friend while knitting the stupid scarf in the closet and fighting my own demons but I'm here now if you let me. I want to be here for you Soul. ❤ Lots of love from me and Karu sends you his cuddles as well. ❤
@mytwistedsoul
hey soul 💙 you’ve been in my thoughts. me knows life is really tough right now... 😞 and i’m so sorry… me hopes you know we are here for you, and that we love you all and care about you all. i’m sending big warm huggles your way and lots of love 💜
how are you feeling today buddy? 🥺💕
@LoveMyMoonflowers Thank you so much Moon 💙 I think sometimes I forget that there are people who care and are here 💙
I'm tired lol. Alot of traveling between places. I was staying closer to the hospital but came home yesterday for an appointment. To top it off I've caught a cold. Probably picked it up from the hospital - go figure lol
Much love to you Moon 💙 Thank you for the hugs and the thoughts. It means a lot to me - you mean alot to me 💙
@mytwistedsoul
me understand 💙 but we’re always here to remind you (': that we do care 💜 me, bunny, opti, sun and so many other lovely hoomans 🌈 we care.
travelling can definitely make one tired (': i hear you 💙 awwe no i’m so sorry to hear you’ve got a cold now 😞 me sending healing beams and warm hugs your way if okie 🌈 colds aren’t fun at all 🤧 i’m so sorry ):
thank you so much 💜 i really do appreciate that 💕 sending much love right back atcha 🥺💕 you mean a lot to me as well - not even exaggerating (':
i’m always here if you need me okie? whether that means a listening ear or just someone to sit with you 🫂💙