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In The Gloaming TW *just in case*

mytwistedsoul November 7th, 2019

With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.

A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.

While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.

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mytwistedsoul OP August 19th, 2021











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barncat September 10th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul- the box with "bad memories- do not open" caught my eye this morning. How true.

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mytwistedsoul OP August 19th, 2021

the pain remains
reconstruct this brain
only ourselves to blame
hours days weeks months
we pay the price
these scars won't fade
nothing left to say
the blood won't coagulate
darkness rising
deeper then before
it swallowed us whole
there's no control
it pokes through the skin
spits out bone
the Wolf is hiding within
we are not alone
be still
one more break
beneath the skin
will finally make you whole

😬 nervous 🐾


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ThePizza August 20th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Hey Ari πŸ’™

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mytwistedsoul OP August 20th, 2021

@ThePizza πŸ’œ 😢

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 20th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
hey..

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mytwistedsoul OP August 20th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 😢

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 20th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
😭

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mytwistedsoul OP August 20th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 😲 🚫 😭

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 20th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
πŸ‘€πŸ—£πŸ™„ = πŸ‘€πŸ˜­

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mytwistedsoul OP August 20th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123


πŸ‘Œ πŸ‘

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 20th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
πŸ‘

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 21st, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
hey you good morning

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mytwistedsoul OP August 21st, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Hey :) good morning to you too

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 21st, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
hugs . I'm posting my poems again.

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mytwistedsoul OP August 22nd, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Hey that's great! :)

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
are you up

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mytwistedsoul OP August 23rd, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Sorry about that I tried to reply earlier but I had no button to add a post *smh*

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Smh, I couldn't sleep.. and I don't think I'm sleeping tonight either

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mytwistedsoul OP August 23rd, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Oh :( That sucks. Do you have things to do when you have nights like that?

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
No.. I I it doesn't normally occur

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mytwistedsoul OP August 23rd, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Did something have you upset? Or maybe something was on your mind?

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Something had/has me upset yeah

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mytwistedsoul OP August 23rd, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Would you like to talk about it? No pressure of course

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
I wish I was on the oldies side, as scared as I am. The new commods don't understand me

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mytwistedsoul OP August 23rd, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 There's been alot of changes with the people who mod and do things around here. It's got to be frustrating for you because you were having trouble with them before and you tried to explain but still had problems with the mods :( I'm sorry to hear its happening again

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
I don't mind the mods.. but there's some issues going on. And I always seem to be the one. Happens to on the teen side.

I should be the test subject for all mods and commods

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mytwistedsoul OP August 23rd, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Sometimes I feel that way too - that it's allways me - which sucks. Have you tried explaining to them nvm - I bet you did. People need to have more opened minds and not be so set on making sure everyone fits into the box they have

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

people said it's not because of me or being on the spectrum but rather it's the neurodiverse people here who can't understand the neurodiverse people and those who can't accept that others are different.

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mytwistedsoul OP August 23rd, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Wow that would be frustrating. So what do you do? I mean - what can be done so that people understand that everyone is different?

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Host a session which I'm doing later this week and refer to my guide.

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mytwistedsoul OP August 23rd, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 WOW! You're gonna host a chat? Allie thats so awesome! I hope it helps you and anyone else who needs to be better understood

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Yeah I am gonna co-host

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mytwistedsoul OP August 24th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 That's great! I bet you do good too!

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Hate to ask but are you here?

sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

Hey

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mytwistedsoul OP August 24th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 what's up?

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

I couldn't sleep

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mytwistedsoul OP August 24th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Were you able to get any? Maybe later you can just lay down for alittle and rest? Even if you don't sleep you're still taking some time to rest :)

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Yeah from 1-7:30 still tired ...

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mytwistedsoul OP August 24th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Maybe try to lay back down for alittle bit and doze? Are you nervous about co-hosting?

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

No I'm just scared..

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mytwistedsoul OP August 24th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Its ok to be scared :) I think you'll do great though. You know some of the people who will join in and its for something good that will help people understand better

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

Also scared in general

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mytwistedsoul OP August 24th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Ah - ok. Do you know what has you feeling that way? Its ok if you don't - I feel that way alot of times too and sometimes I have no idea why. Does it help you to say outloud that you're safe? Lack of sleep can add to it too

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

I kinda do.. and yeah that helps but I'm stuck in my room today

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mytwistedsoul OP August 24th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Stuck inside your room? That doesn't sound good to be stuck inside :(

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

Well i try and leave and then I get anxious

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mytwistedsoul OP August 24th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Maybe holding something that comforts you would help? Do you have a favorite stuffed animal? Or if one of your parents is there - maybe they could walk with you and sit with you for alittle?

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

Its just hard

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mytwistedsoul OP August 24th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 It is :( may I ask what has you afraid to leave your room? Its ok if you'd rather not share. Is it just too much today?

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

Just too much, and i get anxious whenever I try to.

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mytwistedsoul OP August 24th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 on days like that I wear a hoodie and sun glasses. Sounds weird I guess but the sun glasses help with if its too bright and the hoodie helps hide some of what's around and helps to kind of hide. But that's just what works here

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
it's been a rough day

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mytwistedsoul OP August 25th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 I'm sorry its been a rough day. Hopefully today will be a better day

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 25th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Hopefully. Two higher admins messaged me and I gave them more detail on the one issue that's been going on but I still feel lost.

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mytwistedsoul OP August 25th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 Maybe now with more details they can get things sorted out and things will get better. It's not much but I feel lost alot of times too

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 25th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
I hope things get better

sunshinegiraffe123 August 26th, 2021
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ThePizza August 26th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123

thats awesome! :')

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 26th, 2021

@ThePizza
Thank you so much. Looking forward to meeting you in June on the oldie side :)

mytwistedsoul OP August 26th, 2021

@ThePizza Hey you :) love the new pic!

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mytwistedsoul OP August 26th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 You did awesome Allie! I'm so proud of you!

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 26th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Im so glad I did it. It was time to.

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mytwistedsoul OP August 26th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 You did great! So brave!

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 26th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
πŸ˜€πŸ˜€Thabk you.

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mytwistedsoul OP August 23rd, 2021

Whats with the - your post was saved - thank you for contributing to the community box thing?

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Not sure I'm also getting it . Maybe a glitch

sunshinegiraffe123 August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
im also getting it

mytwistedsoul OP August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul Censors maybe? To make sure we're being good little boys and girls?

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mytwistedsoul OP August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul LOL! It tagged me for my own post

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 23rd, 2021

@mytwistedsoul Lol it did

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barncat August 25th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul- what fun is it if we are good little boys and girls?

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mytwistedsoul OP August 26th, 2021

@barncat good point! *evil laugh* 😈

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barncat August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul- wonder if it is a new thing- feels redundant.

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mytwistedsoul OP August 24th, 2021

@barncat I think it is a new thing. I couldn't post anything for awhile this morning. So I'm thinking that's when they put it in effect. Um - there's alot of redundant things around here 😁

sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@barncat
Nice to see you around

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lazyKatz August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
I'm getting the same box thing , have to click it before it posts messages. Also I can't vote up messages now.

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mytwistedsoul OP August 24th, 2021

@lazyKatz I thought maybe I was imagining the upvotes disappearing! If you reply to a thread that you haven't been to before it doesn't automatically subscribe you to it either. But I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing lol

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lazyKatz August 24th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
I'm not sure of anything that's happening on here at the moment, some warning beforehand would be useful. I don't know about you but I don't cope well with change however immaterial it might appear to the powers that be!

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 24th, 2021

@lazyKatz
Nice to see you around, and I don't cope well with change either. However, if this is the only thing admin does, then I guess I'll accept it. Still need to talk to admin about other things on the teen side sadly

barncat August 25th, 2021

@lazyKatz- I understand how you feel about adapting to change. Reading and commenting on the forums here is one of the soothing parts in my life.

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lazyKatz August 25th, 2021

@barncat
This site offers so much and the mere thought of it disappearing is hard to handle. Maybe I worry too much but it hard to change who we are.

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 25th, 2021

@lazyKatz
Its okay. This will become normal soon.

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lazyKatz August 25th, 2021

@barncat
β€‹β€‹β€‹β€‹β€‹πŸ‘

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Smantz August 24th, 2021

Hi.


I’m not sure if I’m doing this correctly, I haven’t really ever used this app much. Last night my boyfriend of 5 years broke up with me and it makes zero sense to me. I’m sure a lot of people say this but he genuinely is a great person. Like nothing went wrong but he’s just feeling unhappy. It’s almost harder that I can’t be angry with him. He’s been so supportive and even talked to me for hours in the middle of the night last night and helped me through panic this morning. I don’t want to rely on him too much and I don’t want to make him feel even more guilty because I know he’s hurting too. I just don’t know what to do or how to handle any of this. I’m almost 27 and up until yesterday I truly thought we were going to get married. I’ve had shitty relationships and this was just not one of them. I keep thinking that maybe he’ll miss me and once he figures things out we’ll work it out, but I don’t want to get my hopes up. I just need help coping. I feel like my world is crashing down on me.



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mytwistedsoul OP August 25th, 2021

@Smantz Hey :) Sounds like you're in a really tough spot right now. I wish I had some words of wisdom or something to offer you. Tbh - I'm not too good with relationships. Hell I can't even keep friends
Maybe you both just need time - marriage is a pretty big step to take and may be he just needs some time to make sure he's ready for that step ? I wish you both the best of luck and hope that things work out for both of you

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 25th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
You can keep friends

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mytwistedsoul OP August 25th, 2021

Gary Numan - My Name Is Ruin
https://youtu.be/lHomCiPFknY

mytwistedsoul OP August 26th, 2021











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lazyKatz August 26th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Thanks for the laugh they're so funny

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mytwistedsoul OP August 26th, 2021

@lazyKatz :) Glad you got a laugh!

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ScoreKing August 30th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul- hard to decide which one I love/hate the most of these. They are all worth a barrel of laughs. Thanks for my Monday giggles.

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mytwistedsoul OP August 27th, 2021

This was at the store awhile ago lol - I had forgot all about it



Only around here lol

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lazyKatz August 27th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
πŸ‘

ThePizza August 28th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Chicken Lickin'!!! πŸ˜‚

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mytwistedsoul OP August 28th, 2021

@ThePizza Nothing like a nice normal name LOL!

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ThePizza August 28th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
I also like the name Kylo Hen :)

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mytwistedsoul OP August 29th, 2021

@ThePizza I need to get chickens. So many names lol!
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sunshinegiraffe123 August 29th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Bawk bawk

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mytwistedsoul OP August 30th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 πŸ” πŸ“

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 30th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
hug?

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mytwistedsoul OP August 30th, 2021

@sunshinegiraffe123 *hug* you doing ok?

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 30th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul

Kinda

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mytwistedsoul OP August 30th, 2021
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August 30th, 2021

That really brightened my day! Thank you for that! 🀩

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mytwistedsoul OP August 30th, 2021

@Nerdtastic 😁 kinda makes me want a velosorapter lol

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sunshinegiraffe123 August 30th, 2021

@mytwistedsoul
Dinosaurs πŸ¦•?!?

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August 30th, 2021

You got that right! They make the cutest clicking sound, and reminds me of the horses in several of those TickTocks! πŸ˜‚

mytwistedsoul OP September 1st, 2021

The Strumbrellas - Spirits
https://youtu.be/F9kXstb9FF4