In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
Once again thank you mytwistedsoul for these amazing posts. I laughed and cried. Really enjoyed the one with the dog at the entrance to heaven. Then got triggered imagining my deceased herd greeting me- but that is OK. It is all part of the processing. The one about dont iron the 4 leaf clover - dont press you luck. It almost had me rolling off the loveseat.
Keep up the great images. THey are so therapeutic for many of us.
@barncat You're welcome - tbh - that one made triggered me alittle too. It's weird - I know it hasn't been all that long since losing Kodie but sometimes it feels like forever - other times it feels like it was just yesterday
They help alittle with the anxiety and if it gets a laugh - I'm all for it. They say laughter is the best medicine
@intelligentWheel627
You've been popping into my thoughts for the past week and I wonder how you're doing
Just wanted you to know you've been in my thoughts
Be gentle with yourself and your thoughts Rinny :)
@mytwistedsoul You have been in my thoughts too but the invisibility cloak just didn't want to come off. I'm not sure how I'm doing. Sometimes slightly better and sometimes not.
I read through your diary the other day. There's a lot I missed while on a break. It made me cry. I've never even told you how sorry I am about Kodie. I wasn't here and I feel like a crappy friend. I'm sorry. *offers you a hug*
I don't know what more to say. It feels strange ranting in someone else's diary. It feels strange writing in general, it's been a while. Please take a good care of yourself, Soul. Enjoy the beautiful spring for the both of us. Here in the desert we have none. Post and panick, lol. 🙈
@intelligentWheel627 *hugs you back* it's ok - I've been sort of staying under my own invisibility cloak too. It's ok to not know how you are - alot of times I'm not sure either. Sometimes it feels like I'm ok but I think I fool myself into thinking that
It's ok to take a break - sometimes we just need to take a step back. It doesn't make us crappy friends. We just sometimes need to take care of ourselves first
You're allways welcome here - to rant or rave. Or to sit quietly under your cloak knitting a scarf :)
Nah - try not to have too much post and panic - I'm really glad to hear from you
We got some new things we're planting - new lilies - when they bloom I'll post pictures and share the spring with you :)
@mytwistedsoul I love lilies! What a beautiful idea, I'm looking forward to see them! :)
BUT 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jhat-xUQ6dw
Queensryche - Silent Lucidity
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jMCyafoj5gY
Daughtry - Bring Me to Life
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2O8iEkh5vw
Dave Fenley - Grandpa * this one's kind of special*
we drink from the well of lies
poison ourselves from within
drop by drop
swallow it slow
don't even notice it at first
but it quenches our thirst
and we beg for more
gasping on the floor
tell us all our sins
write them out
in crimson notes
so there is no doubt
all good is null and void
it never did exist
just an illusion
a grand delusion
but it is still missed
🐾
