In The Gloaming TW *just in case*

Mass of Man - Bad Thoughts *tw*
https://youtu.be/kU--bUdzX-E

Badflower - F**k The World *tw*
https://youtu.be/RdIEGdcL83Q

Had a discussion awhile ago about this diary forum - said it didn't seem right to be told what you can and cannot post. They agreed and took it to whoever. Now - maybe this changed but I stand by what I said to them. It isn't right. In my world it's simple - if you dont like what I have to say don't read it. Scratch this thread off your list of subscribed threads. The memes posted here - the songs - the poems are a form of expression. Times when words fail but there are other ways of expressing feelings. The people who come here know what I'm about when it comes to posting things. At least give me the decency of letting me know
When things get deleted and go missing it messes with my head - I don't think that's asking too much

@mytwistedsoul
i agree.

@sunshinegiraffe123 I don't think it should be this way. I know they were just memes but they were picked and posted for a reason. Its frustrating

@mytwistedsoul
i get it.

@mytwistedsoul- oh my- I LOVE your thread and posts. Often they hit the nail on the head how I feel- so I dont have to scream. End up laughing instead. THe amount of care and energy that goes into your thread must be significant. Sending you hugs and kisses from Gus, Duke, Flash, Diego- the dog and Thomas the cat.

@barncat Thank you ! It means alot to hear that. Maybe we could start a petition to not delete my memes? I know they have cuss words but it fits the flavor of the mood and I usually end up saying what other people won't - at least not here lol! You should see the ones I don't post 😋
I love your dogs name! And the cat Thomas is a good strong name for a cat 🙂 and the horses - they're so cool! Carrots biscuits and nip for all who want it

should I feel lost in confusion
we're built from flawed designs
so impure we never felt the fault
she found a place to grow inside
she tells lies
says we're the ones to blame
we try so hard to escape the pain
a catalyst and counterpart
a piece of broken soul
so confusing a delusion
tries to bleed me dry
I feel undone
I'm nothing in her eyes
she's the spider
we're the flies
her web holds the suffering inside.
🐾

@mytwistedsoul
💙💙

@ThePizza ty 🐾

https://youtu.be/UIEMEx5GPOY

😁🐾

@mytwistedsoul
this is hilarious A 😆

@ThePizza 😊😁😂

@mytwistedsoul 🤣

* note to self* YOU SUCK!
don't need you crawling around in my head today

Breathing Theory - Empire
https://youtu.be/GobcEMN6uhg

@mytwistedsoul
hey you don't suck. Your amazing .

Tbh - I had more but the more I looked through them - I realized - it's pointless if I can't post what I want on my own thread. I could post cheesy let's feel good about the day and yay me but ya know what - I don't feel that way and to do other wise would be forced positivity and I'd just be lying to myself - So I will do what I've been taught and keep my mouth shut lol

@mytwistedsoul
Monday 😭

@sunshinegiraffe123 you don't like mondays?

@mytwistedsoul
lol its the start of a very long week

@sunshinegiraffe123 good point! But tomorrow is wednesday we're half way there now!

@mytwistedsoul
finally

@intelligentWheel627 you've been in my thoughts
I came prepared

@mytwistedsoul lol, these are irresistible! You certainly know how to summon me. :D
You have been in my thoughts too. Sometimes I read your posts and I make up speeches in my head of all the things I want to tell you but nothing ever reaches here. Agh, maybe it's better like this, it probably wouldn't help you anyway.
I love your flowers. I'm so grateful that you went through the trouble of photographing and sharing them. One more beautiful than the next. It was like a balm for my soul. And the deer are cute, too!
What else ... well ... the scarf I was knitting got finally ready but I'll still keep sitting here with you if you don't mind. Actually I'm not coming online very often these days but I'm definitely still around. I'm here. Post and panic.

@intelligentWheel627 You're welcome to sit with me anytime :)
I do that alot too - have things I'd like to say but don't - I'm grateful for the times you do say something - like today. To know that I'm in someone's thoughts sometimes - that is a balm for my soul ❤ Thank you

@mytwistedsoul
Poptart?!?

@sunshinegiraffe123 You like pop tarts?

@mytwistedsoul
Yeah, sometimes.

Flavor of the day
Crown the Empire - What I am
https://youtu.be/XhQOUuq2V3I

Flavor for today
Bad Omens - Limits
https://youtu.be/HSpaZjR_ULE

Downplay - The One Who Laughs Last
https://youtu.be/tChbvW-l5Ao

Fivefold - Broken
https://youtu.be/3RDPlmoB_OQ

@mytwistedsoul- the box with "bad memories- do not open" caught my eye this morning. How true.

the pain remains
reconstruct this brain
only ourselves to blame
hours days weeks months
we pay the price
these scars won't fade
nothing left to say
the blood won't coagulate
darkness rising
deeper then before
it swallowed us whole
there's no control
it pokes through the skin
spits out bone
the Wolf is hiding within
we are not alone
be still
one more break
beneath the skin
will finally make you whole

😬 nervous 🐾

@mytwistedsoul
Hey Ari 💙

@ThePizza 💜 😶

@mytwistedsoul
hey..

@sunshinegiraffe123 😶

@mytwistedsoul
😭