In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
It cuts both ways. No matter what you do
This lonely place. In dreams of solitude
Still I can never choose between the two
As motivation slips from view
@mytwistedsoul Just wanted to say hi 
I know that you have been through some really tough things lately and it is completely fine to take your time and process it however long it may take, I just want you to know that you are not alone in this :)
*offering safe hugs* - no pressure, just in case you want one
@redmark Hey Red :) It's nice to see you. Thank you for the reminder - I forget sometimes that I'm not alone and can reach out to people here. Idk - I tend to listen to the anxiety or depression and isolate - kind of like if you can't say anything good don't say anything at all
Thank you for the hug :) I have become much better about them now
@mytwistedsoul I know that anxiety and depression can be tough. At least I have similar experiences as well when I just want to isolate myself from everyone and everything, especially when I am struggling. I mean, it definitel is just hard some days.
Just remember tho, that you are not a burden and we do love you just the way you are, even if you may not feel the best at some days. You are important and deserve to be heard and cared for, no matter what. :)
*offering safe hugs*
@redmark Thank you Red - for your kind words and gentle reminder. I'm sorry you deal with the anxiety and depression too. It is hard - when you want to reach out and everything inside is all but screaming that you shouldn't say a word. Hopefully with time all of us here on Cups get better with the anxiety and depression and feel comfortable enough to ask for help
Stay awesome Red :)
Wow - did I miss something? Some body deleted my top post on this page - disappointing
Anything else anyone should think should go? Delete the whole damn thread - IDGAF
@mytwistedsoul So let me get this straight - a post of memes gets delete for what ever reason on a personal thread but people can bash others and mock their mental illness on theirs and that's ok *smh* somethings seriously messed up with that logic
@mytwistedsoul
Who knows… maybe because it had profanity in it but in my opinion you should be able to use profanity as long as you use it responsibly, which you were, and you did put a trigger warning in the title of the thread so
Disturbed - Down with the sickness
@mytwistedsoul
love this song
Novelists FR - Head Rush
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uK73Q22Ncuw
I kind of feel like this
But after watching that and doing some of this
IDK - now it's more
IDK
do you think jelly fish are sad because there's no peanut butter jelly fish?
@mytwistedsoul
Good news! https://www.deepseanews.com/2014/01/creation-of-the-worlds-first-peanut-butter-and-jellyfish/
I'll wait
A tower that casts a shade
I'll be the blood
you be the bones
I can see through you
we are the same
It's totally strange
that you run in my veins
how can I keep you inside my lungs
if I breathe what is yours
and you breathe what is mine
I lie awake and watch it all
my lungs feel so small
I couldn't breathe if I tried
I lay my head on the floor
for the longest time I knew
there was nothing left for us to do
and in this quiet company
there is nothing staring back at me
voices disappear when you are speaking, in sombre tunes
I grew tall to fill the void
'cause you are just a piece
of what I am, not what I can be
but in this quiet company
I forget sometimes just how to breathe
@mytwistedsoul
💙
@mytwistedsoul <3
Damn - wrote something I don't remember
Ok weird thought dump - two watches and two witches - which witch watches which watch?
Twas a dark and stormy night when someone said Uncle John tell us a story! So Uncle John said - twas a dark and stormy night -
For some reason it feels as though something or someone is crawling - creeping through my brain
This is the first I've listened to music in awhile. Serious issues with noise and sound. I found this - Smith and Myer - Panic
Happy Halloween!
Have fun - stay safe
OH! 
Caught in darkness I go blind
We're closing in our emptiness
We fight to cover up scars
From the war between who we are
In the glass house of our mind
The place that we call home
You track the doubts of my soul
Secrets burn
Everything is twisted and the pieces rearrange
You know the truth, but whisper lies
Everything is gone but the pain carries on
How does it feel, as you crawl away?
The damage that you left me
You took it away
The innocence that can't be replaced
All these secrets crawl inside
Shadows growing in my mind
Ones I just can't leave behind
I'm not strong enough to pay this ransom
One more monster crawled inside
But I swear I thought I saw it die
