In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
On my mind - Anxiety and frustration. Ask questions - get accused of trying to start fights. Oh the higher ups will talk to the suck ups. They'll acknowledge them. But not the wave makers. Not that I'm really trying to make waves. I just don't understand why they want to make it seem like our opinions matter now.
Some of these people claim they are long term listeners - with the name calling and inconsideration. So much for caring about people. That's your compassion? That's your understanding? No wonder I had such a hard time finding a good listener.
@mytwistedsoul
i agree but two good listeners are Jenny and Gracey
@mytwistedsoul
i think im going to be one of those people who have a hard time making "sandwiches" Affys last comment looks like something that i would write it looks good to me and makes sense just get to the point more than the 2 sandwiches above hers https://www.7cups.com/forum/SiteUpdates_100/GlensNookCommunity_547/November2019CommunityUpdateAReturntoCommunity_212460/
but i might be able to put together something more like the first of the last 3 comments there lol
It festers like a gaping wound. The place created to be heard simply doesn't want to listen unless you agree with the establishment. You are either with or against. Oh you will be praised if you have nice things to say. You will be acknowledged and thanked. Disagree and you will be ignored. Given the silent treatment or called out by others for being too sensitive.
This re-enforces what some of us already knew. What some of us already feel. We are unworthy. We're unworthy of being heard, unworthy of compassion. Most of us are already uncertain of using our voices because we've been told to be quiet too many times. So we swallow our words until they threaten to drown us and we choke on them. No one want to hear what we have to say anyway. There is no comfort.
@NoneTheWiser @jennysunrise8
Um - pardon me - but I would actually like to take this time to point out that my comment was about well - the a$$ ki$$ers here. The people who are being bullies and making fun of the people who are complaining. The people who have called others insensitive snowflakes - the people who are having a hard time making the adjustment to change. And the fact that Glen won't even acknowledge them - us. But he will listen to the ones who give that atta boy - we love you sentiment. To me the idea of offering criticism in the form of a sandwich is bullsh*t. It's just a way to disguise the fact that it still liver. I hate liver. I can't give good - bad - good.
The point I was making - I guess - is that - everyone needs to be heard regardless - the good - the bad and the ugly. And unless we're saying something good - no one wants to hear it. That much was made clear by the like it or leave comment.
Tbh - the length of a post has alot of meaning. There's alot of thought and emotion that goes into those kinds of posts. There are alot of things that can be gleaned from it. There's alot of information to be found. Plus in reading it covers the thoughts for everything that has happened here in the past week and a half. I actually commend that person to be able to hold that train of thought as long as they did. I know I probably couldn't have - at least not today.
Now um - theres a good chance I totally missed the boat here and have absolutely no idea what I'm talking about.
The decisions, the rules, the features - can always be discussed further and changed... but communication and trust - sometimes we only get one chance at that. <------- The line here - spoke volumes
Ok I'll be under my rock now
@mytwistedsoul Actually J
There is a really good chance you don't have any idea what you're talking about and you probably should have just kept your mouth shut.
@mytwistedsoul
lol i agree π its ok to not agree with that to criticize it and not do it but i understand those who do theyre just wanting their complaints and issues they care about to be listened to so if thats what it takes ill probabally do that too especially with very influential people if i ever do ill use punctuation paragraphs and all the tips and tricks i can find including that but in my normal everyday writing and criticism of site policies i probabally wont unless i have to π¬ but anyone else who wants to do that i understand why they do it i mean its been brought up some might view that as more than a suggestion and its ok by me how anyone writes anyways people are just different
Why do revelations come out of no where? I did have someone remind me though and as much as I hate to admit it - she's right.
So I figure since I did it here - I may as well admit it here. I'm sorry -
I've become a real judgemental a**hole these past almost 2 weeks. OMG - I am not any better then the people Who hurt me with their judgement. And a part of me want to justify it by saying they started it with their name calling and bullying. But it's no excuse. How did ths happen? I have no right to judge - I'm always hoping people don't judge me. Man I am so pissed at myself. And I've been so vocal about it. D*mn - way to go J. You are awesome - keep up the good work!
Coffee's cold - means I'm missing some time.
Anxious and aggressive
Feeling sick to my stomach
My head feels like it want to explode
Need to calm this down
@mytwistedsoul
I'm also ancioud
Don't expect anyone to approve of these or even understand why I picked them. But I am wondering now how many you can pack into one post - lol
@mytwistedsoul
I love the pictures!! I am curious just how many can fit to
@aiko123 Thanks Aiko - How are you?
Lol! We'll have see one of these days! Probably end up with something saying I broke the thread!
@mytwistedsoul
I am good. How are you?
Lol. Well at least I will know what happened if I see that. ππ
@aiko123 I'm glad to hear you're doing good. I'm better then I've been - thank you for asking.
Lmao - I'm going to have to find more pictures to post tonight - see how much this thread can hold!
@mytwistedsoul
Hope that you have a better time soon!!
Lol that would be awesome! Mind if I join you on one of my threads?
@aiko123 Of course not Aiko! The more the merrier - maybe we can borrow from each other too - if we see something we like.
@mytwistedsoul I had no idea you could do more than a few.
@Dawn04 Lol - You know i'm going to have to push it - just to see how many I can get on one
@mytwistedsoul Yeah I did figure - have to admit I'm curious myself.
So hours spent looking for things to see how many I can do in one post. Keep in mind - they aren't meant to be inspiring necessarily. These are the ones that "spoke" to me last night- I stuck with the same size I used yesterday so - let's see shall we?
I think this is 50 lol - I'm making myself nervous so - we'll stop here
@mytwistedsoul I counted - lol so yep 50......shocked you could add that many.
@Dawn04 I could have added more but I was well - getting nervous about it. Worried about taxing the system or getting in to trouble
Over whelmed- not sure what I should do. Everything I feel says to just leave. You've darkened enough doors J. People getting into trouble. For stepping in - me not being clear enough. Idk - I'm sorry. This is why - There's a reason I've been isolated for so long. Given the labels I have been - called the names I have. There's a sad truth to it. I am no good.
No replies please - it's not worth it
@mytwistedsoul Well you may have to slap me for disobeying your no replies........but you are worth it and I am an adult who made a decision with reasonably sound mind. If I do get in trouble - doubtful considering all the rest I've stated in forums - then that's on me, not you.
On my mind - holes in the soul - cement makes it too heavy - hard to move
No words - isolate
Idk - leave it alone J
@mytwistedsoul
Hey
@sunshinegiraffe123 Hey Sunshine
@mytwistedsoul
yay! π
@sunshinegiraffe123 Yay? Having a good day?
@mytwistedsoul
Kinda...
Ig not really...
but whatever