"I might be Ok, but I'm not fine at all" My little blog (This will contain triggers)

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

Yeah I g so XD

@Swiftygirl13

Darn the notifications being messy :/

Aw I'm glad mum visited and it went okay for you. Bottling things inside can be so draining, would swifty like to share them with someone, or perhaps a journal (if not wanting to talk to any one about it just yet)? <3

It's okie to take it one thing at a time, we have to keep breathing through the current moment, not thinking much about the others, and before we even know it, we are already in a better, calmer, safer moment. We can do this okie? *creates a safe blankie fort for you* <3

@Swiftygirl13

*huggles* <3

Aw look at you being so strong and sharing more of it here <3 so proud of you.

Having lots of things to stress about can be quite overwhelming, I get how hard it must be to cope with everything together. :/ When we see things as whole, it is bound to feel crushingly hard to even think where to begin working through them, but again, we can always take it one at a time and do our best from there. <3 so commendable you're already able to acknowledge the most prominently stressful thing here. *gentle head pats*

Struggles with health are the worst, I get how scary it may be struggling with weight and feeling weaker physically :/ have we tried something to work on it? <3 While it isn't easy or even comfortable to start with, small steps do count, and we jusy have to try and keep trying. <3

*sitting with you inside the blankie fort* <3 let's keep breathing through this moment, mhm? It'll pass and we'll be okiee soon..You're not alone <3

@Swiftygirl13 I'll try lol, thankyouu! <3

I love Phoebe! XD do you like the show? :o

@Swiftygirl13 awww yay we cozy and comfy and super duper safe <3<3

@Enchanted2024

Warm blankie.

@Swiftygirl13

Me tooo yay *high five* friends is such a comfy watch! 🥰

And lololol this was hilarious! 🤣😂🤣

@Swiftygirl13 Aw I understand how slippery it can feel at times :( it's good we are being aware of it first. Keep holding just a bit more tighter okie? We got this. <3 Here with you. <3

@Swiftygirl13

okie wow I really am so proud of you for being able to tell if a certain voice has any backing or it's just our brain being meanie to us. The loud voice is really scary and annoying to have, mhm? It's okay to acknowledge the voice there, we don't have to believe it or agree with it any way. <3 Just that sometimes the more we suppress something, or ignore, the harder it becomes for us to deal with it.

Once we've acknowledged the voice, we can take deep breaths and repeat to ourselves, that it isn't true, "good enough" will always be relative, a banana can never be good enough for someone who only has loved mangos, can it? To each their own always. <3

Good enough is relative, with everyone's perception of "being good" different <3 since I'm here, I can speak for myself, for you, not too long ago I saw your reply to some forum thread here being supportive and appreciative of someone when you could've just moved past that post too, you chose to reply and you chose to reply in a compassionate and loving manner, that *is* good enough for me. <3

A little scrolling in this thread, and you mention feeling horrible about not being able to be there with your friend when they were struggling (which is again really valid, considering youve not been doing well either, and sometimes it is just hard to reach out to others when we're struggling ourselves, absolutely not something in your control here <3), which just shows how caring, thoughtful, concerned and empathetic person and friend you are, again, that *is* good enough for me. Now these are only instances I can recollect from less than an hour, if we go back, we'll have so much more, that will all be *good enough* for anyone at all. <3

The voice conveniently looks past all the other things, the good things, the (not so) random acts of kindness, the every day achievements (getting out of bed will always be the #1 achievement, no questions asked), the little things we do for others selflessly to make them feel like a someone (the little things aren't "little" anymore now, are they?), all the efforts we put in for ourselves and others despite all the hardships and so much more. But that's okay, we remember them, mhm? We can always try to remember them more often and speak even louder to that voice, to tell how wrong and baseless it is and how we are so much more than just "good enough". Why stop at being good enough when we can be awesome too, right hehe! <3

Swifty can be and is already super duper awesome, in the many ways she tries her absolute best to spread kindness around, to keep holding on despite the struggles, to take out time to send supportive messages to others, to keep trying and inspire others to do the same also, perhaps the bestest thing ever? To share hope and cultivate compassion, in a world that really really needs it and more. <3 (besides ofcourse Taylor's songs, the world needs more of that too always :p)

Would it help to affirm the same to yourself? With belief, our subconscious keeps storing things we tell our brain, might as well try saying something nice and kind. We deserve it. <3

Swifty deserves all the kindness, love, compassion and support she gives to others also. Let you be the driving force for it yourself. One nice thought at a time. <3 *huggles*

(This went long hehe, oops🙈)

@Swiftygirl13 essay lol 🙈

Yassss, loved itttt! <3<3 awh that's a nice quote hehe, and so true, only way up. <3

Take your time to reply. <3

@Swiftygirl13 So upsetting to see you struggling so much :(

Super proud of you for being here and trying to reach out for support though, vv strong swifty. <3

Maybe you can browse for adult-teen listeners here: BrowseListeners? I really hope you get some good support soon.

You're in my thoughts and I'm sitting with you here, okie(?) *hugs* <3

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

rooms are super quiet atm and i dint want to really share everything in there. I want to seem ok in some way at least