A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! ๐
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime โค๏ธ
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
i feel like crying ... a lot... you know one of those times you just know you've got so much in your heart.... it's heavy ...gets heavier and there seems no escape or relief .... idk tho i don't really have a very recent or current valid reason to cry... but it's just so heavy inside....
i feel like a horrible person ๐ either im not saying, doing anything... being life less and with 0 expression on face... or im snappy and irritated at literally everything and everyone .... specially when someone tries talking to me or asking me something .... there's a ton of loneliness im stuck in but at the same time .... i really am fine till anyone's around or tries talking .... just wanna be left alone to keep my silence... at least on the outside..... inner world is pure chaos...nd i dont even know what to think of it..... and then it hurts so much ... later...snapping at someone...being so moody and rude for no good reason or good reason known to them ... should just hide๐
@Optimisticempath
Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ฅบ๐ it is alright to cry, it might help to release our stress or any feelings that have overwhelmed us ๐ฅบ๐
chu is not a horrible person, because me sure there are circumstances or situations that make chu feel stressful & feel irritated at everything or everyone. Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ has been doing the best you could, everyday, even if chu might feel it is not enough ๐ฅบ๐
Know that me is vvvv glad that chu exist, Milky๐ฅ๐งธ๐๐๐งธ๐ฅบ
Rainbow bear ๐ ๐งธ hopes that Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ try to be patient with chuself, just the way chu is being gentle to rainbow bear ๐๐งธ๐ฅบ๐
*Huggsss Milky ๐ฅ๐๐งธ๐ฅบ tightttt*
@Optimisticempath Hey you โค๏ธ Just wanted to say you've been in my thoughts *sending you bunches of hugs and lots of love* โค๏ธโค๏ธ
@Optimisticempath
rainbow bear ๐๐งธ also loves Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ *huggss tightttt*๐ฅ๐งธ๐ค๐๐๐งธ
hi..๐ im uh alive.... still existing! just updating....
@Optimisticempath
rainbow bear ๐ ๐งธ is vvv glad that Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ exist ๐ค๐๐ฅโส>แดฅ<ย สโ
https://www.7cups.com/forum/generalsupport/General_2440/THREAD_329881/
im going to lose someone because i cant communicateย and go away to be alone when overwhelmed .... and they think i dont care and have no human feelings or consideration for other people's emotions... if only they'd know ...๐ ... the awful sad part is that my disorganized avoidant attachment saw it coming already and is relieved...no... not relieved...its just...idk the word...its ok with the person leaving finally because of course they don't wanna put up with me...why would anyone ever .. ๐๐ฅฐ yay..ย
@Optimisticempath Would it help to write them? Maybe to send a text or an email? Or even a hand written letter? To tell them your feelings and maybe explain why it's so hard for you? If they care about you I would hope they'd understand or at least be open minded enough to try and understandย
@mytwistedsoulย
we text usually but even on text it's so difficult....i feel like I either have nothing to say like words don't come up at all or ill write paragraphs trying to over explain and all and then theu still don't get me...or like don't even try to understand ....ive been feeling so invalidated and misunderstood but idk what to do to change that Soul ๐ย
the more i try to do better ... be more expressive and vulnerable...the more im misunderstood and idk it just makes me go right back into my shell but then they feel i don't care or im being non chalant...idk how to really help this situation...v stuck ๐
it's hard to function because my avoidant really keeps yay-ing at me for pushing them away but then part of me that's more sort of aware?? feels like i should try harder ...and again the same story... it's like nothing changes despite the efforts ...๐ฅบ
sorry if this is all too much or too confusing...im really confused and stuck too so idk what im thinking ๐ just wanna go underground or something ... it won't help xD but we can try a failed attempt in escaping a difficult adult world situation we weren't prepared for ever... right?...๐ญ
thankiees for the v thoughtful reply Soul โคโค *huggs you
@Optimisticempath Sometimes it's not just the one person's - issue? idk that might be the wrong word. You've been doing what you can to be vulnerable and explaining things the best you can. But the one who's receiving it has to be willing to look at things from your POV. It can be hard for someone to fully understand and grasp something if they've never been in the other person's position. Idk what this other person's history or is past is like but maybe there's something there that's adding to the difficulties? I'm sorry you've been feeling invalidated and misunderstood despite all you've been trying to do to make things better ๐
๐ idk how to deal with all this emptinessย
@Optimisticempath
*sits with you if okie* โค๏ธ
@Optimisticempath
huggss Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐๐ฅบ vvv tightttt, & hopes me fill the emptiness*
@Optimisticempath Been thinking of you โค๏ธ sending hugs and lots of love โค๏ธโค๏ธ
@mytwistedsoul thank you Soul friend ๐ฅบ huggles and luv back to you ๐๐ me missie you too ๐ how's you?
@Optimisticempath Thank you OptiBear โค๏ธ I needed hugs today โค๏ธ
@mytwistedsoul aw more huggieeess for you friend ๐ฅบ soul doesn't sound v ok ๐ it's ok to not be ok but but can me do something to help ... even teeny bit?๐ฅบ me here wichu and huggie tight โคโคโค
@Optimisticempath Thank you โค๏ธ I appreciate you asking and sending more hugs. It's just a rough time right now - you sending hugs and being your wonderful thoughtful and amazing self is help โค๏ธ I'm so grateful for you OptiBear ๐ฅนโค๏ธ
@mytwistedsoul
rough times ๐ me understands โค we can try the basics? nom nom whatever we can โค drink water โค try closing eyes and lay down because what's sleep during such times?๐ so any amount of rest is ok โค and the usual ... we try to breathe and repeat โค it's so tuff and too much to ask of but we will try, ok Soul?๐ฅบย
im actually pretty sure you're already trying to do way more than this...and me is so so proud of you โคโค
*keeps hugging* ๐ค๐ค
@Optimisticempath
Rainbow bear ๐๐งธ also thinking of Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐โสโขแดฅโข`สโ๐ค๐
@VictoriaLove7 thank you rainbow bear ๐๐งธ๐ค๐
@Optimisticempath
*huggsss milky tightttt ๐ฅ๐งธ๐๐ค๐๐งธ* How's you, Milky? ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ฅบ๐
@Optimisticempath
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@LoveMyMoonflowers
Thank you flower buddy ๐ how's you?
@Optimisticempath
i'm okie opti ๐ how are you? ๐ย
thank you for the love and hugs ๐
@LoveMyMoonflowers
me glad you okie ๐
me ... not so okie ๐ but its fine ๐ค
@Optimisticempath
*hugs if okie?* i'm so sorry for the late reply optie ๐ butโฆ if your not doing so okie then you donโt have to say itโs fine ๐ฅบ๐ is there anything i can do to help? :(ย
