A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! 😀
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime ❤️
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
Hiya opti! How you've been? 🥺
Haven't seen you around in long time, and thank you for always being there for me 💜 *leaves biscuits and hugs*
@Optimisticempath
Awww, *sits with Opti*. I hear you Opti. Some thoughts can be really overwhelming and difficult to cope with. Your feelings are valid and I am really proud of you for coming this far❤️ The fact that you are here shows alot of courage and strength Opti.
We are right here with you. Its okay to let out your emotions. Its okay to cry, to scream, to feel the way you feel. I hear you. Drink some water Opti. You deserve to be here and your so so awesome. Deep breaths.
Its really difficult in stages like this, but please take your time and try to look after yourself ❤️ you are loved. you are. beautiful. you are Opti and I am so so proud of you.
*passes water*
Bunny
@amiableBunny4016 bunwee is the bestest bestiee ever 🥺 thank you vv much for all the assuring reminders, understanding and compassion Bunny 💕 I feel better today .. somewhat ;')
gotta get used to these panicky states smh ... but I'll be ok (I hope??) .. I usually feel most anxious and crumbling at night... so sometimes I'm here ... and hope to pass out and sleep when possible. 😅
Your kindness makes a difference you know? 💕 you are such a special bunwee 💕 lots of love 💗💗 please take care and be good to yourself also 🥺
how are you?? I saw you're on break from PAT stuff and it's ok ... everyone can use breaks, you do so much for everyone and you deserve lots of time for yourself too 🤗 me just worried about you and want to remind you that me here for you too anytime ok? 💗 how's everything going for you?
@Optimisticempath
Your words mean the world to me. I hear you on the bit about anxiety ❤️ we can come through this and I'm so freaking proud of you. It's okay not to be okay. Sometimes the ground can be pulled from beneath us, other times the world turns its back on us. We find courage. We find people by our side when we feel alone 🥺❤️❤️ I can't tell you how much courage and beauty you have shown Opti ❤️❤️❤️❤️ please always be yourself. Keep going.. I know it's hard but we are right behind you *hugs if ok* ❤️❤️❤️😭🥺❤️❤️❤️
@amiableBunny4016
hugs are needed too 🥺 *hugs back 🤗🤗❤
@Optimisticempath
You did not just add me to your bio 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
@amiableBunny4016 I did many weeks ago ☺ bestie bunweee deserves special bio mention 🤗
@Optimisticempath
*brings comfy blankies*
It will pass 🥺💖 and you'll be alright, always 💖🥺.
Silent panic attacks are a thing too, ☹️ sorry you're struggling, wanting to run away, and yet you cant, i get its feeling traped. But steady, slow breaths, deep ones, breath in, hold and let go 💖
It's gonna be alrighty, 🥺 *gets water for opti*
@ArtemisStormWolf aw thanks for water , comfy blankiees and kind words and for being here Artee 🥺 it means a lot to me 💕 I passed out kinda? later so don't remember much about it .. whatever that was did pass i guess 😅 thanks for being so understanding and kind always 🤧
how is you? how was your day?
@mytwistedsoul thinking of bestest soul ❤
how's Soul doing? ❤
*tight hugs*🤗
@Optimisticempath *sits with Opti* OptiBear 🥺 this is so sweet of you to check in ❤️ soul is - I don't even know
How is OptiBear? ❤️
*Sending hugs - super awesome vibes and much love* ❤️ be gentle with yourself and your thoughts
it is hitting again .. the anxiety....the panic... it feels difficult to breathe again ....whyy ... I don't like this feeling of being so trapped and stuck ... *sigh*
sorry xD towards the deeper end of the hole today 💀
vv lovely fr🙂
@Optimisticempath
Hate to be weird and really strange ❤️❤️ just wanted to say .. thank you Opti for being there with me through so much! And obviously I know your struggling alot but I want you to know your feelings are valid . ❤️❤️❤️❤️And you are really strong and brave to open up about anxiety and scary feelings. I know it's really tough and scary, unexpected times🥀 I hear you Opti and you are an inspiration to me 🥺 *hugs you if it's ok*. It's ok to express feelings . *Gets tissues*
Love,
Bunny
@Optimisticempath
I love this idea and I love it. It's a thoughtful way to share the things you come across on here knowing that someone might see it and walk away feel better or impacted. I know that since I recently discovered this post I find it useful and helpful :)
@Ivy229
im astonished at some people's remarkable ability to turn everything into something positive and nice 😮 how do you guys do it? What's your secret??😍 you are so sweet!
I really appreciate your kind words and so so glad that something here (most of what I honestly feel is just trash talking my mind out 😅) was nice and helpful for you <3 I'm vv grateful if anything here can be helpful to anyone in anyway 😄
So annoyed with how frequently I'm talking crap here lately 😖 but idk what else to do or where to go smh ... have you ever been made to feel so unwelcomed...so much of a bother ... so much unacknowledged... so much stranger like ... so much "whether you're here or not it doesn't even matter... we didnt notice your absence or presence" ...so much like a nobody?? ... when no one seems to care of your presence or absence ... have you???? why does my concept of self is so flawed... how is it possible that I know some of these AREN'T my thoughts ... they aren't my words ..they aren't me... yet I allow all of this to question my existence 😔 it is exhausting always being a nobody... somedays I prefer that tbh... like yeah fr...leave me tf alone but then some people are so weird..they don't give me clarity... keep pushing and pulling... make me feel needed sometimes and then most times... don't even bother...🤡 lots of stuff getting triggered because of "small" things ... I wanna cocoon and hide away from everyone forever 💀
@mytwistedsoul
big squeezieee🥰🥰
*big squeezy for Soul* 🤗
Soul it's june D: we in june already D: so many months over D:
how's you keeping? how was past week for you?💕 me thinking of chu ❤
@Optimisticempath *big squeezie for OptiBear❤️* I love this gif 😊 it's so cute with the not yet - not quite there!
You have a flutterby on your nose 😊
You've been in my thoughts dear friend. I hope you're doing ok. Sending you light and much love ❤️❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Big squeezieee😁 makes me smiley😄
*big squeeziee back Soul ❤ you're the bestest ever 🥺
a flutterby on me nose😮 hehe v cute 🥰 me likes butterflies, they pretty
thankchu for love, light and being you Soul ❤
how is june beingfor you till now? how's your father doing if ok to ask? :( *hugs tight🥺
@Optimisticempath It makes me smile too 😊 you make me smile ❤️ I appreciate you and your friendship so much Opti. Thank you for being you - for bringing light into my perpetual darkness
@mytwistedsoul
aww you melt my heart with how pure hearted you are Soul 💕 everything you say I know you mean from heart 💕 there arent many people like you and I'm so glad I have you in my life 🥰 I consider myself very blessed for being your friend 🤗 *bigggg squeeezieeee*
ofcourse I care Soul.. sometimes I hesitate to ask because I know it's a difficult topic and idk I don't want to make you think or feel more worried or anything 😕 but you can always share anything you want ... I can be your safe sharing place ❤
im vv sorry june's not going nice and there's stress trouble with your father's health :( it sounds so scary ... like everything feels scary to imagine ... i live in constant fear of losing people ... and I know even the slightest of these situations wrecks up our minds .... you're living so close to the fear and having to face it every day ... soul I'm vv proud of you...ik it's an awful sucky situation and I so wish it wasn't but I'm sending you so much love and strength and I'm sitting with you.. hugging you tight 🥺 i wish I could do more but please know I'm here for you and keeping you in my thoughts ❤ me luvsss you and me cares for chu 🤗
for me .. idk Soul 😅 every day feels the same .. some days are more terrible than others but I'm mostly just numb to things now so idk ... I'm only existing and life is happening or doing it's thing lmao! D:
hows sleep for you? are you getting enough rest? 💕
@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ *big squeezie* It starts to feel like you're not even an active participant in your life doesn't it? Just a long for the ride. That's me too. I'd like to hit a pause button and stop things so I can catch up or catch my breath. You can always ask questions Opti. Everything is on my mind almost all the time. He's worse. I didn't think it would all happen so fast. I always think there's time and I move forward so slow 😞
*pokes Opti gently* you doing ok buddy? ❤️ *Sends hugs and love if ok* . We here if you wanna talk about anything❤️🤗
@amiableBunny4016 bestie bunwee I got your poke ☺ your too cool 💕 *pokes back*
Ily 🥺 thanks for checking on me it means vv much to me 💕
I'm lately trying to not be bothered about anything ... most things I should be bothered about lol idk if it's a good thing or bad but sometimes I wanna remove my mind and throw it the f away to catch a break ... I feel rather dissociated with my thoughts at the time... so maybe the mind's not functioning much which is fine .. it never did right anyway ... 😅 mostly numb and used to with stuff ... it's just those random panicky reminders of life being life every now and then that are v horrible but it's been some days free of that so it's fine D:
wow I blabber a lot ... D: I'm ok currently ❤ don't worry
how is you? how's everything at home? :( me here for you too 💕
@Optimisticempath
I love you lots too Opti ❤️💕💕 you mean alot to me! *Sends hugs and love if okie* 🥺aww I hear you, sounds like alot of overwhelming and confusing feelings. 💕 I hear you 💕 *hugs tightly if okay* your feelings are valid and I'm so so proud of you! 💜 Try to be kind to your beautiful self and I hope things get better ❤️🥺 disassociating is so difficult sometimes but we here for you and things will get better 💕💕. Sowwy me not very great at supporting but I'm always here for u and sitting with chu!
My life is okie. I'm getting through things. But I want you to focus on yourself please 🙏 💕🥺 and you don't blabber at all. ❤️ You opening up and I'm proud of you very much! 🥺🥺 *Sends hugs and love*
