A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)

Palm hurts 😣

Touched a hot vessel unintentionally 🥺

probably was overwhelmed, angry, distracted, anxious or best??? All of the above smh 💀

someone asked about happy time, best moments blah blah........ this was tougher than a trigonometry question smh .... am I supposed to know what makes me happy??? And and when was I actually happy last time??? My best moments ??? This brain doesn't remember any of it 💀

weird telling someone that I don't know but I honestly don't know lmao 😖 or just dont remember..... tis so sad urgh

maybe one day I will know 🥺 far away one day but whatever ~_~

*rant ends*

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No sleep edition 👍🏼

Fits 👍🏼💀🧚🏻‍♀️

Brightening other's lives or atleast trying to is actually a feel-good experience , does feel nice being kind to others 🌹😊❤

If you see this: 🥰

Could be triggering or uncomfortable, don't read please 😊 just needed a space for the hmmmmm 'unsaid' xD

Idk the thoughts are back I say back like they ever left lol it's funny how I am losing control over my own damn mind smh I can't keep up it's so hard looking at every sharp thing is hard it makes me feel weird I cant focus too much on stairs or I start picturing myself having a fall I constantly need to keep myself distracted while in passenger seat of car or I keep feeling like I should open the door and slide out while it's moving I find it hard to cross roads because sometimes I feel paralyzed midway like tf and it scares me it scares me so much to have these thoughts 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 these are passing thoughts they come and go but it sucks I don't want them but idk what to do... these are bad thoughts?? Are these as scary as it feels to me?? Am I thinking too much??? Idk .... how bad does it actually get before I can accept it is bad....and this stuff ain't good .... ain't uh that strange word lmao "normal" .... guess I'll just go hide :') ..... if you read this, I'm sorry :( *here a hug for you if you want <3 dw I'm currently safe... whatever that means but yeah .... not giving into these thoughts or any other :') ... *hides* sorry sorry :'(

Lowkey cringing on how often I have to use this space these days but idk what else to do I feel so low I am hating everything around me .... :'( dont know how long to hold onto and hold onto what.... sigh sigh ..... need to just get invisible for a month or seven ... maybe that'll help lmao :/

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@Optimisticempath *offers a hug - a hand and a helmet for the little bear* ❤️

I never know if I should reply to people tbh - so there's no pressure to reply back. Just a gentle reminder that this is your space to use for whatever - however much you need it

Be gentle with yourself and your thoughts ❤️