A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! 😀
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime ❤️
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
Palm hurts 😣
Touched a hot vessel unintentionally 🥺
probably was overwhelmed, angry, distracted, anxious or best??? All of the above smh 💀
someone asked about happy time, best moments blah blah........ this was tougher than a trigonometry question smh .... am I supposed to know what makes me happy??? And and when was I actually happy last time??? My best moments ??? This brain doesn't remember any of it 💀
weird telling someone that I don't know but I honestly don't know lmao 😖 or just dont remember..... tis so sad urgh
maybe one day I will know 🥺 far away one day but whatever ~_~
*rant ends*
Could be triggering or uncomfortable, don't read please 😊 just needed a space for the hmmmmm 'unsaid' xD
Idk the thoughts are back I say back like they ever left lol it's funny how I am losing control over my own damn mind smh I can't keep up it's so hard looking at every sharp thing is hard it makes me feel weird I cant focus too much on stairs or I start picturing myself having a fall I constantly need to keep myself distracted while in passenger seat of car or I keep feeling like I should open the door and slide out while it's moving I find it hard to cross roads because sometimes I feel paralyzed midway like tf and it scares me it scares me so much to have these thoughts 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 these are passing thoughts they come and go but it sucks I don't want them but idk what to do... these are bad thoughts?? Are these as scary as it feels to me?? Am I thinking too much??? Idk .... how bad does it actually get before I can accept it is bad....and this stuff ain't good .... ain't uh that strange word lmao "normal" .... guess I'll just go hide :') ..... if you read this, I'm sorry :( *here a hug for you if you want <3 dw I'm currently safe... whatever that means but yeah .... not giving into these thoughts or any other :') ... *hides* sorry sorry :'(
Lowkey cringing on how often I have to use this space these days but idk what else to do I feel so low I am hating everything around me .... :'( dont know how long to hold onto and hold onto what.... sigh sigh ..... need to just get invisible for a month or seven ... maybe that'll help lmao :/
@Optimisticempath *offers a hug - a hand and a helmet for the little bear* ❤️
I never know if I should reply to people tbh - so there's no pressure to reply back. Just a gentle reminder that this is your space to use for whatever - however much you need it
Be gentle with yourself and your thoughts ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Aw thankyou you so kind and sweet 🥺🥺🥺 I like your replies and you around so you never have to hesitate in dropping here anytime (and I feel you always have good comfy words for everyone so they prolly don't mind either)
*wears helmet 🥺
*huggles*
Thankyou for the reminder me needed it 😞❤
How are you today?
@Optimisticempath *hugs* ❤️ You're welcome. Sometimes I forget too and its ok to forget. That's where friends give gentle reminders. Sometimes we get so much going on in our heads or we listen to the bad things and forget the good things we do
I see you leaving comfy words and encouragement for people too. It's really nice to see you around in the forums
Thank you for being you ❤️
*puts a Fragile! Handle with Care sticker on OptiBear's helmet* we gotta be careful with these things 🙂
@mytwistedsoul
OptiBear 🥺 me likey 🥺
thankyou for being so empathetic always I really appreciate your kindness and these thoughtful reminders , we certainly do need them sometimes 🥺
and I have no words for that ... thankyou for noticing , sometimes I say things I'd like to hear too so it helps in a way to help someone else through it, atleast one of us got to hear it lmao... thank you for being you , *stronger protection spell for your kind heart*
*more hugs*
I hope you're being gentle with yourself too ❤
@Optimisticempath Maybe a few of us can help you to hear some of those things. You deserve kindness and compassion and so many other wonderful things ❤️
You're a good person - with a good heart. I know its hard to believe those things when people say them. That's a major struggle here too. It takes time to replace the bad things we hear externally and/or internally. I read once that for every bad thing we hear - we need to hear something good five times. I think that's estimated myself tbh. Maybe we can all work with each other on that 🙂
Thank you for the protection spell - my heart thanks you too ❤️
*big hugs* I am trying to be as gentle with myself as I can Tbh - sometimes I think I should walk around in a suit of armor 🙂
*sending good peaceful vibes and good thoughts to you ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
So nice, gentle, kind, supportive you are 🥺 thankyou so very much ❤ we should definitely be there for one another, it really feels good being less alone I cannot thank you enough for all the warmth you spread around so generously , you vv special hooman *big hugs back*
Aw a suit in armour sounds good hehe protection needed
yes keep trying to be as gentle as possible 🥺 you deserve all the kindness and good thoughts too *sends some good thoughts back* ❤
@Optimisticempath Someone did tell me - you ❤️ *Big hug* Thank you! Being less alone does feel good - I definitely agree with that
Thank you too for all the kindness you show too - not just to me but to everyone you talk to - it's just so awesome to see
How are you today?
Look what I found 😊 
It sort of a helmet 🙂
@mytwistedsoul
Aw every time I read something from you I feel so nice 🥺 and it is so sweet I want to cry happy happy 🥺
*huggles*
You very very awesome ❤
Thankyou for being so kind to me and everyone also
lmao that's so cute 🥰 love the helmet and the one wearing hehe 😃 thankyou for sharing it.
I heard your shout out in that forum it is so sweet I don't know what to say 🥺 thankyou for being you, you are very special and if in anyway I help you see yourself in a good light it means everything to me , because you deserve to be under the good light always, since you are so bright and amazing yourself ❤ you've been a beacon of hope to me and everyone here always and I don't think there's enough words to thank you for that 🥺
me sending love 🥺 to keep you vv warm
@Optimisticempath Hey :) You don't need to say anything at all ok? I hope I didn't put you on the spot or anything but there's never any pressure to reply to anything *hugs* and no thank you's are necessary - I just wanted to show I appreciate you ❤️
Stay awesome OptiBear!
*big hugs and much love to you* ❤️ ❤️
Ugh - just realized we've lost the reply buttons 😋
@mytwistedsoul
OptiBear 🥺 is my new favorite nickname 🥰
Awwww thankyou, your appreciation means a lot to me and hehe it's oki I saw the thread before and wanted to reply but was too touched to form any words and then I just lost it but wanted to let you know that I read it and it does mean so much to me ❤ thankyou again, for being so so kind always
*hugs back*
Yep yep haha we lost reply buttons D: they need to make this atleast to 10 replies lol idk