A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! 😀
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime ❤️
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
@Optimisticempath
Aww thanks for posting this 🥺🥺❤️
So relatable (':
How's you? @ArtemisStormWolf
Thoughts won't leave 😣😣😣😣
@Optimisticempath Hey :) may I sit with you? Bad thoughts?
@mytwistedsoul oki you can if it no bother 🥺
Yes bad thoughts... 😖
@Optimisticempath It's no bother at all :)
Are the thoughts about your name and pfp? I saw your comment after I posted
I don't mean to assume either if it's something else
@mytwistedsoul
Thankyou :)
Not prominently about that .... thoughts about irl stuff mainly .... but you know how brain works ☹ one bad thought leads to another and then another and then it's just a trap
everytime I look too closely at the name or pfp I remember what they said lol .... it is a unnecessary reminder for all the lack of optimism or hope or whatever in life ...
too many thoughts to even be sure what it is exactly .... I'm sorry if this sounds confusing... honestly idk either :')
@Optimisticempath Oh yeah I know to well how brain likes to set those traps and we fight so hard to get out them and it happens again 😕
Maybe we can look at it as it's not that it's a lack of optimism or hope but you're working towards optimism and hope?
Your name and pfp or well - I think of them as avatars - they're like a paradox but there's nothing wrong with that at all! They're things you picked out yourself and it doesn't have to make sense to anyone but you. Whoever pointed it out to you - it seems rude to me and not something that should be said
Too many thoughts - gosh I know all too well how that is. Sometimes it helps if I sit and write them down or try to. That way each thought gets some acknowledgement and they don't seem as consuming
@mytwistedsoul
I'm going to cry smh
my message poofed the one I typed earlier and have to retype again 😕
Anyways.....
yes it is so exhausting with the same thing again and again , traps are not nice 🙁
oh that's a good way to see these, as avatars and picking it for ourselves, so it is important that it makes sense to us 😅 thankyou for reminding this .... I'm not sure if I'm working on it tho (i don't know if i want to even....) .... yeah idk why they pointed it also out of the blue smh :')
I'm so sorry you can relate with this, it's just terrible and i wouldn't want anyone dealing but i guess life gets in the way for everyone ..... good to know it helps to sit and write and make thoughts feel acknowledged , I always find it to be quite overwhelming being alone with my thoughts... some of them are so scary to me :( but I agree letting them not consume too much space can be helpful, I shall try it again thankyouu, and thankyou for saying "or try to" it really is about trying for me, I'm never sure how it works for me , so trying is all I can do 😅
Thankyou for being so kind 🥺 *sends lots of kindness back to you*
also sorry for not asking earlier ... how are you doing?
@Optimisticempath On no! I get so frustrated when something I wrote poofs like that. It feels like I've missed or lost something on the second try
It can be really hard to not let certain thoughts consume you - especially if they're thoughts you maybe allready had lurking in your mind and I know how we can some times let other people's words cloud our own thoughts and judgements of ourselves and cause us alot of self doubt. If you feel comfortable - maybe you could share some of those scarier thoughts here - in this safe space. Then you wouldn't be alone with them - of course there's no pressure though because I know how scary it can feel to share them
Trying is all we can do. If one way doesn't work - we try another way. I see you in alot of different threads and I see how hard you try and I really admire that - you have a big beautiful heart ❤️
I'm doing the best I can right now with things going on around me and inside me - if that makes sense. Thank you for asking 🙂
@mytwistedsoul
I feel the same it doesn't feel as authentic (idk if it's the right word lol) to retype things
thankyou for being so patient and kind to me, I really appreciate your time ❤ maybe I will share in more detail here sometime ...... wording feelings and expressing myself has never come easy 🙁
Awww 🥺 thankyou so much 🥺 it really means alot to me 🥺
I see you in many places too and you are always kind to everyone 🥺 world needs more people like you who have the biggest heart ever ❤ *casts a protection spell for your heart*
Yes it makes sense that things aren't going too well inside your world and that around you but I'm glad you're doing your best, I'm sure you are!
You don't have to deal with it alone either 😊 here for you if you want to talk or share anything
@Optimisticempath Authentic is the perfect word for it!
There's no pressure. I know sometimes it can be hard to find the words to explain what we're feeling or what we're thinking - that's where memes come in - I like to use them too 😊
Thank you for the protection spell - some days it feels like my heart needs all the help it can get ❤️
*sending you good thoughts and good vibes to keep the scary thoughts away from you* ❤️ 😊
@mytwistedsoul
haha glad we got it :D
aw it does feel nice to know I'm not alone , memes are really helpful and make us laugh too which is nice 😁
thankyou for your support , your kindness came in the right time exactly when I needed it 🥺 and I cannot be more grateful to you ❤ bless your kind heart always
Awww that's so nice *feeling fuzzy hehe 😭🥰 (kindness makes me cry happy tears 🥺)
sending many good and safe vibes to you
How was your day?
@Optimisticempath You're welcome - I'm just glad I came across your thread when I did
And Thank You for the good vibes too! *hugs* Tbh - I get alittle weepy too sometimes when it comes to being on the receiving of kindness ❤️
Yesterday wasn't too terrible and a new day has begun. Thank You for asking. How are you? I hope your day is going good
Yay! I love getting good vibes! Sending some back to you too ❤️
Be gentle with yourself and your thoughts
@mytwistedsoul
good vibes are vv nice 🥺 sending more to you *hugs back*
I'm glad your day wasn't terrible and a new one began, hope the coming ones are better than those passed
"not too terrible" I get that lol somedays are like this, and I'll take them too if the other option is "terrible days" 😁
currently have lost all insight on what a "good" day really is I'm trying to just take it as day :') doesn't do much but atleast my non-existent hopes aren't being crushed either xD or um ok day? 😮
😢 mhm, trying to be gentle
thankyou again for being here ❤ your welcome anytime
you too be very kind and gentle to yourself 🤗
someone said this in a chatroom here that my pfp is opposite to the username 💀
(They said it a few months ago but silly brain still remembers Of *** course 😖)
True true true tho
Optimism? What? Who? Where? 💀 can't see any ......
idk if I should change name.....
🙁
Hi @Optimisticempath
Randomly stumbling upon this and on first glance, I found the comment to be something along the lines of “despite difficulties and tendency to be reclusive (which is only understandable), you are still able to keep going and even comprehend / understand what others are feeling” which is actually optimistic in my books. 😛 And of course, haha we remember the most silly things - which is okay I think we all do that so can understand. I don't know the context in which it was said though. totally understandable what you feel, humans be like that, nothing ‘wrong’ about it. It's okay to not being able to ‘find optimism’, the username kind of tells me you are so much more than your current state/situation. It's more of how your profile reflects so many aspects of being human to me - the sad, hopeful, etc. you are wholesome ❤️
@theriverissinging
"you are so much more than your current state/situation. It's more of how your profile reflects so many aspects of being human to me - the sad, hopeful, etc. you are wholesome ❤️" 🥺😢😭🥺
most validating and comforting thing I read (for myself lol) in a while , thankyou so much , you are always so nice to everyone 🥺 appreciate you vvv much. You wholesome also 💕
You are welcome to stumble here anytime hehe , I'm glad you did!!
Ok well something nice maybe?😃
I'm a safety patrol team member now 👮♀️
@Optimisticempath congratulations! 🛡️
Somedays are meant for you to curl up in a ball and pray someone hides the ball and forgets about it or throws it far far far far away 😐👍🏼
@Optimisticempath Hey :) Hope you don't mind - just wanted to pop in and drop off a hug ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
I like having you around ❤
thankyou for thinking of me *hugs back*
@Optimisticempath 🙂 ❤️ I like seeing you around here
Um - as a side note - if your palm isn't raw you could try some vinegar - it usually helps by pulling the heat and hurt out of it ❤️
