Loneliness on 7Cups

Do people mean it when they tell you that

these few days i'm feeling depressed , overwhelmed & anxiety made me like riding an rollercoaster . i think of him too much , know i shouldn't be behaving this way for me i just can't help myself .

i just don't want to lose him as a friend , i don't know what i'm going to do without him even if he don't feel the same way for me he holds a special place in my ❤ everything i do , i do it for him .

ps : he's a married man , if you don't like what i write DON'T bother to reply or read it .

@MeMyselfAndHer

You wrote this a while ago...I hope you have found more support since then. But thank you for writing this, and for leaving it here to remind me that I am not alone in my experience.

I know Im in pain but no one seems to care and they ignore me when I talk so I generally feel all alone

I have a buch of family issues and my theripist says i have major depression

harshly i have few friends and none of them understand my pain

i could use someone who understands

#suiside dosen't help

It's been months since I last connected with a decent listener: a compassionate ear for when I'm venting and/or someone who doesn't just give generic advice like "be positive!" or "go out more!" or "just go for it!". I understand this peer-to-peer support and they don't mean to cause any harm but man do I miss the kinds of listeners I used to stumble upon in 2016/2017. They were genuinely interested in knowing the problem and why you're feeling whatever way you're feeling and just talking to a listener used to be a big relief to me. I wish I could meet more of those people now.

I'm struggling with depression, social anxiety, decision-making, dealing with toxic people, anger management, chronic fatigue and chronic pain. I don't know who I am and even the things I know I want to go after are overshadowed by big amounts of insecurity and fear. I could use someone who has experience with some of those things, even just to tell me it does eventually get better. Hearing that it can get better from another person gives me the hope and motivation to push myself further and challenge my current situation.

this is going to be long to write but I feel like i have to express it here and get it out of my chest, since I don't have anyone to share time with, to laugh, to go out, to unburden, to be confident with.

I don't go to a psychologist but I just think that I have agoraphobia... and ive been having this since I finished highschool, even back then i wasnt someone who went out that much. I have big troubles to go out. I'm very selfconscious and my mood is so unstable.

I have rosacea and my skin being so imperfect... I lived by the language of hating myself, criticize myself, putting myself a pressure its not there, and this mostly has to do when doing social things when I have to go out i have anxiety my heart beats so loud, and i have headaches, I'm agitated, I overthink so much.. i want to really keep myself busy like studying a course, and buying things i like by myself, but im not that person now i dont have the confidence to do those things, even to take a public transport im like so overwhelmed of doing new things, or prejudice from others. About two months ago I was so tired of the hate and anguish i had that Its like I made click. I dont know, I just knew I didnt want that anymore. I didnt want to speak to myself with hate, I didn't want the criticize, pressure, I didn't want to value myself only when men says I'm "pretty" or a "princess" or this or that even when it was someone I didn't know(this is a thing I still deal with) Its not like im conscious in the moment I dont know its hard to explain, it's as if I don't realize that my value as a human being is what I am from the inside not how others see me, or a skin condition, or only with make up, or looking like a doll, or this or that. that i fix it with how i like to see me is not how i look most of the time at my house, I'm so blind and distorted with my own values as a human being. And I'm having struggles to explain all I want to let out of my chest because ensligh is not my first language.

Coming back, I was saying that I'm kind of other person now, a way better version of myself of where i was before from now, and i like that. im still not the person I want to be, fully. but I'm not who i used to be. Today I can look myself in the mirror and speak to myself positivily, ensure myself, encourage me before going out. Say even i love you wich I never ever could imagine before say this to me or even look at my eyes in the mirror because I was always criticizing myself for every imperfectio on my skinface even when I did my make up. I did more little steps with other aspects of life. But lately, these days its been hard for me to be connected in that way... with myself and to apprecite the little things I do being at home that I enjoy doing. I don't live by myself. Someone is unhealthy for me in the family, wich is my old man. I wont say much because I find hard to explain this and its something that can affect my mood and my anger issues. But yes.. its been hard these days because my energy wasnt the same, I still maintain my space clean and do healthy habits and selfcare but i wasnt that much connected with this things like I took them for granted, lately. These days I wasn't going out that much like I was doing when I felt like I needed, to walk my dogs or buy things, tbh I today only.

Its spring and ive been feeling ashamed of my body and my skin in general since im pale like a paper and my thiness and my alergy reaction because ive been forcing my body before going outside, because I want to use this or that and put this on my skin or do this to my skin(wich makes me more anxious to go out), or so and sometimes it happens to me that it irritates my skin because is very sensitive prone to react like this, i force it i can have high levels of allergy it depends on my emotions as well and this made me feel without energy, with low self-esteem about me, and shameful and hurt hopeless and that all it happend to me, just the mere neglected of the little things ive been doing that made me feel good, when I started to be more gentle with myself and how ive being seen and valueing myself searching for acceptance on my looks in other people it makes me feel worse. I feel silly writing this but I have no one to be confident with, its been such a long time since i dont feel truly confident with someone that it has worsened Its like a I'm a first-timer with anyone, who looks insecure and self consciuos, and is so painfuly shy and cant be herself because of some irrational fear. I only having myself and sometimes a paper to write.

It's starting to feel like this site is actively trying to keep us lonely. No private messages, no feed now, no way to privately talk to members or actually befriend people. This is an incredibly isolating place for what's supposedly a mental health site.

Being lonely is a very normal and sad thing to feel, speaking up and talking about your emotions is a strong and healthy way to deal with this feeling, if anyone feels lonely, i offer a helping hand, bring a friend and sometime to rant to.

Without my friend I have no reason to keep fighting. I'm just alone now; I have nobody.