What is the thing that depression effects the most in your life?
Hi everyone.
Thanks for sharing. I had a really bad afternoon. One of the things depression has effected was my relationship. My ex now hates me and send me hateful texts. I have to put up with this for the rest of my life because we have a daughter.
It makes it so hard to try and get better because when i get a text it makes me want to kill myself. I was at work when I got it and had to walk out of a meeting.
I hate my life.
@JK17 It sounds like your ex has some issues to deal with. Sending hateful texts is definitely not a healthy and mature way to handle communication. And not just once or twice...that might be "having a bad day".
I'm sorry that those texts make it difficult for you to get better. I know I'd have trouble, too. May today be free of hateful texts.
I tend to overthink everything, so when my boyfriend says things in a joking way I take it to heart and overthink and freak out. I cry a lot too
@Keirra I completly understand. Sometimes I have a really hard time personalizing things people say or do when they're really not personal at all. But some days, I just can't seem to help it. I'm sorry you are going through that. It's no fun at all.
@JK17
It's taken away my life- I can't get romantic relationships, work, live an independent life, be creative. I merely exist.
It's taken away the things that made me, 'me'. I don't think I'd be anything if the depression was taken away.
@DepressiveVeggie (((Veggie))), I'm so sorry that depression has robbed you of so much. I truly hope that you'll be able to find "you" in there somewhere.
@BridgetAileen
Thanks, that's sweet of you
@DepressiveVeggie - Hey things cant make you 'you'. No matter what you do or who you do it with its still you and people know that. Fight back and do the things you enjoy.its worth it.
@JK17
I lost my 'fight' a long time ago. 'Me' is my mental illness. There's nothing else any more- aside fron despair and hopelessness.
@DepressiveVeggie sorry to hear that. If you like reading try 'Only forward; Michael Marshall Smith. Its a fun little escape
@JK17
What's it like? I don't really read self help stuff- it's often very accusatory.
I go through periods when I can't even read- one of the few things I can still do. But the last time I went through a spell like that, the Harry Potter books helped. I'm a huge fan, so there's no pressure to take everything in, but there's also so many lovely bits that aren't covered in the films. It's spooky how much the dementors resonated after becoming long term mentally ill.
Its taken away from me my sense of self. I dont know what actions and thoughts are due to the depression and whats originally me or if theres a difference at all.
@inthemaking Yeah, it can be really confusing at times. And then sometimes I wonder if I even need to know which is which. But I still keep questioning.
It takes away my writing and my friends. I isolate myself from everything that makes me happy
@Bookwormellir - Time alone can be ok and writing is a good outlet. Just when its balanced with the social stuff. Even small doses like just chatting to one friend.
@JK17 that's the thing. I can't even write. I just lay there doing nothing. I feel like I'm stripped of everything. I do understand what you mean about being social though. I try to let myself give into it for about 5 minutes and just lay there and adter that I force myself up and out in small increments. Sometimes it takes 30 minutes to get out of bed and another 30 or so to text/call/meet up with friends but I do eventually do it. Its gotten easier with this app and supportive friends :)
@Bookwormellir I understand. It's so difficult. When I stop to think about why I do that, I wonder why I don't do what I enjoy. But I still struggle. I hope you find some support here that will help you with that.
My interest in anything, or rather the lack of it. My ability to enjoy life, I'm sad even when something good happens. It affects my relationships because in the past I've often settled into abusive relationships due to low self esteem, probably stemming from depression. My ability to care is low. I don't care about my family, for instance if my mom died I would be more worried about the repercussions rather than the death. I constantly feel guilty about everything. I self harm and do other impulsive things like go to school drunk to get rid of all the negative feelings and thoughts. It affects my productivity, but I don't really care about that so I wouldn't consider that a negative thing. There's not anything it affects the most, it literally affects every aspect of my life to a great degree.
@tranquilVision80 I hear what you're saying. It can hurt so much to feel that we do what we can to avoid that pain. But even then there's still pain. So very difficult.
My future.For me,depression is like being trapped in a maze.I lost so much time already,and I'm still not out.And outside the maze,life goes on without you.How do you explain the missing 7 years in your resume ? 'I was too busy trying to survive in my own head'?
@helpfulCat5200 - Hey thinking of you and anyone else suffering. The people who don;t understand never will. You need to do what is best for you and dont let anyone judge you :)
@JK17
Thank you
Haha what I need is to spend some time on some beach somewhere with ten cats,swim,eat,draw,and sleep without care.Real Life and job hunting only fatten my depression.
It's really nice of you to encourage others.When I was at my most depressed,I wasn't able to reach out to people.
But,after I escaped it for a while,I thought,there are many things depression has taken from me,but if there's one think it's given me,it's a bit of empathy.I think without it I wouldn't understand art,or films,or sad music,or understand how people suffer.
Also,I have some family and friends with depression,and they are the kindest people I know.
I don't get enjoyment out of anything anymore. I don't read or listen to music anymore, which used to be my two favorite things :( I feel like everything in my life has lost its meaning :(
@kappa170 I totally understand that. I have to work on that a lot myself. I just watched a video this week about why that happens. I really should have written down whether I saw it on TED or YouTube and what the name of it was. It took a deep look about what is physically happening in the brain to make us feel and think the way we do. It was fascinating.
@BridgetAileen Thank you for your kind words
Depression effects me being able to do the things i use to enjoy and showering i suck it up and shower lol @kappa170
