One thing I am feeling sad about today is....
Knowing I will be alone for the rest of my life whether I like it or not.
Everyone my heart wanted is gone and I refuse to settle, waste anyones time, put anyone else through the same pain I went through, or force myself into a relationship that is super unfair to both parties. Theres enough heartache in the world, dont want to add to the number. Better to just flat out give up and shield my heart and more importantly everyone elses.
Trying to work hard to be supportive on here, in my own way how I can, and not being appreciated. I want to promote good will between listeners and members and have posted a thread on the Appreciation board with that goal in mind ... but its not going well thus far. No ones posting on it. 🥺
I feel like Im pushing a damn boulder up a mountain and I dont have the strength to keep doing that ...
I appreciate you Abby... I do not know much about the appreciation page but I listen to you here in the depression zone.👍💪🏾🙏Thanks.@AbbyHarris1976
@sociableTiger1633
Thank you so much, Jim. 
I think a lot of times, especially when I also struggle with social anxiety and loneliness, work stress tends to build up and then I'm too tired afterwards to release much of the stress because I don't have much time before having to get to bed in order to get up for the next workday. I think if the work pace slowed down, it would also be better because the morale is taking a nose dive.
Sometimes, I also think that on here, my attempts to bring members and listeners together in good will and greater fellowship is not working so well right now. I even feel paranoid about being ignored on threads where I'm posting about this or even perhaps blocked?? 
I had made a great listener connection almost a year ago and the listener was great support and now I really needed that connection and the listener has deleted their account....poof gone without a word? I just don
Now I understand it was 7 cups fault this website does some crazy stuff like not showing any of the one on one chat or even the listeners name. I over reacted due to my highly emotional state at the moment due to my father just dying. I need to take some deep breaths next time. 7 cups doesnt make or break my world.
The comments that people make.. they say they aren't judging you but then they make these comments that are aimed towards you. You could try to explain your side but if they all ready judged you it seems pointless. Takes me alittle while to figure things out some of the things said, but I get there eventually. Then it hurts and pisses me off and I end up taking things out on myself. I hate myself enough all ready.. I don't need others to add to it.
37 years ago I accidentally shot my cousin in the head.
@UnholyTrombone
I hope you are doing okay. We are here for you.
I know I have made many mistakes in my life, especially ones that have hurt others. I instantly feel like crap when it happens, apologize right and left and vow to make amends.
Gets hard though to apologize and make amends when you honestly have no idea what exactly it was you did and/or said specifically that was beyond unforgivable and the last straw. Pretty much expected to be a mind reader and take a wild guess as to what all that was I did that were transgressions and has been this way for 2.5 years now :(
Given that I'm being shunned, not like I can ask what it was I did in order to make amends. My punishment pretty much :(
That I can
One thing I'm feeling shy about today is that I saw my crush and I can't say hello. I try to talk to him but my arms get all wonky and my heart wants to beat out of my chest. My palms get sweaty and I get weak in the knees. I think he probably feels that I don't like him or I'm being standoffish but I would love more than anything is to just simply ask how his day is. But I'm gonna be optimistic! Hopefully 
@Shyness98 Aww, that's beautiful! Good luck with your crush!
@BurntSquare
Thank you!
I'm sad about losing my plan in life. Every time I'm about to make a move, the door slams shut in my face. Im getting no help or guidance from anyone; I have no friends or wise older adults outside my family, who is trapped in the same bubble of negativity that I am. My dad is do hands off and doesn't care enough; my mom tries to comfort, but I think she's giving up. With the way I grew up, I would make a terrible messed up wife and mother who's issues would affect her relationships; I can't find a job, or figure out how to handle college; I couldn't make a career, and time is running out for me. I can't even see a therapist, since I have no car. I think any chance for a future is out the window, and because we moved to a city and state with no opportunities, leaving me alone and stunted in maturity, with no knowledge of how to live, I'm just meant to waste away where I sit.
@HydrangeaField
Hi,
I am sorry you are feeling this way. So many events and new changes, like moving to a new city can be tough. Hope you get back on track or a plan with new surroundings.
I understand. Remember, we are always there for you
@HydrangeaField I feel the same I felt way for a long to Im lost Im overwhelmed Im angry Im emotional Im just a mess I get picked on all I want to do it cry in cut in I just dont know what to do anymore 😪 its so hard I feel like I cant do anything right its hard
@HydrangeaField I can relate a bit to your situation. I have passed that point of my life and find myself feeling the same as I did those years back. Being back on medication and making meaningful relationships on here has helped. I still hold out hope that things will turn around I hope you do too
@CompassionateYoshi88 I'm glad that you're starting on the path to improving your life, and that you've formed good relationships. I appreciate your kind words and thoughts.
Feeling sad because I have so much I need to do I am overwhelmed. Not able to figure out a way to break it down and get things done a piece at a time. I also feel agitated when something does not resolve quickly. Just no energy to do much. Didnt go to work today. So add the guilt for that. Trying to remember this will pass but hard to imagine at the moment.
