One thing I am feeling sad about today is....
That I am essentially being punished for the mistakes I have made, all of them, especially social mistakes for the rest of my life :(
No matter what, I always end up enjoying the things I love alone, no matter when, where or what and no matter if I invite friends in advance or not. Even something as simple as going to the arcade or having pizza is done alone as I am apparently that unbearable and unacceptable to be around and is part of the punishment :(
That I have done nothing productuve all day and instead thought about how much I hate myself.
@Sudoku0
Please dont hate yourself bud, (i know its not a switch you can just flick but please try) for me when i disappointed myself or even hate myself sometimes i just get up and do one tiny thing that will benefit you in the near future, this evening i got my gym bag ready for tomorrow, small but yet i feel a little better and tomorrow my bag is ready, feel free to talk to me anytime, we don't have to talk about thus we can just have a laugh!
How average I am. I think it
I want to commit suicide so I may be punish for my existence. My name is Gavin Scott Toohey, I have a fart fetish, I'm a pervert, a sick sick pervert. I want to strung out naked, be stoned be laughed at by millions, be tortured, have everyone celebrate my death and piss on my grave. I want to be forgotten because I've had sick fantasies about fucking a girl, sick sick fantasies. I want to go to he'll were I belong. I hate myself and my sick sick sick mind. God, please kill me. Someone please kill me
@weirdman Oh I'm sorry to hear you feel this way about yourself, but there's nothing to be ashamed of as far as your thoughts go. I have a werid fetish too where you feed the other person until they get really fat. At least your fetish is a natural human function, mine could ruin a person's life. There's no need to be ashamed about being attracted by a bodily function. Anyways, just remember that no matter how sick you may feel about yourself and your feelings, that's just you, we all have unique tastes, some overlap. Everybody probably has there own little disgusting thoughts that they keep. For some, they are more powerful thoughts, and if so, that's completely fine. If you feel like it's taking up too much of your life, you can do something about it, if you feel that's the right way to go.
Don't worry, someone might not care for you now, but if you can hold on, you will find someone or someone will find you who will care for you, and when it happens you will be very pleased you never died.
My parents use me to give out about eachother but when I need to talk to them they don't listen. Same shit happened today.
My hard working husband is tired and helps around the house and with the kids but when I feel I need him the most, he's either tired and gone to bed or in a bad mood coz he's tied. I sometimes resent him for being able to work and get away from the stresses that comes with 2 special needs kids.
I feel sad for my parents, I feel sad that I get angry at my husband and I feel sad that i shout so much at my kids. I feel sad I can't handle everything and I feel sad because I feel sad. Never ending vicious circle 🙄
That good people are taken advantage of for evil lustful pleasure and looked at as an object and not as a person. 😢
My heart goes out to those used and abused like that. It makes me both sad and angry that this is commonplace in today
Everything just seems to go wrong this week. I can't even play ganes with my friends because there it also seems to go wrong and I get very angry because it is defeat apon defeat every single day. At work, at hobbies at everything.
It always feels like I am so damn unlucky.
What is wrong with me?😓
Hard to believe that my father is gone. The emotions are overwhelming.
