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weirdman
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PathStep 286 Compassion hearts1,794 Forum posts140 Forum upvotes135 Current upvotes135 Age GroupAdult Last activeDecember, 2022 Member sinceJanuary 26, 2018
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My story I guess
Depression Support / by weirdman
Last post
 April 7th, 2020
...See more When I was in high school, I used to like girls and had friends. I would have trouble talking to them but they were always polite in that they didn't tell me to bugger off. I was always afraid that they secretly wanted to. I would be resentful of the fact that I wasn't popular at the high school, but I would get over it by sophmore year. By then I just became depressed about how I am probably a loser. I would fantasize about being an artist so I joined a Drama club, but this seemed worsen my depression I guess because by the second year I hit my head against the wall infront of this one girl's boyfriend. I would be afraid of girls my entire life. I became resentful of my mom for always being stressed and sometimes yelling but upon reflection it was probably because I was wanting attention, for someone to let me know that I was special, a sense of stability. My family was always financially troubled since the divorce when I was young, and my mom always had to work and barely got sleep. All this was mitigated a bit by my twin brother, who showed me nothing but love, compassion, and fun. By high school we drifted apart because of school and my depression. I went to the mental hospital three times I think. I always felt unlovable and useless. That I am defective and stupid. I want to tell my story just so that I could feel better about it all, so that I can find some meaning in it, instead of just empty suffering. Thank you to whoever reads this. Sorry for me being an idiot
I want to find love and I feel sad that I may never find it
Relationship Stress / by weirdman
Last post
 August 3rd, 2019
...See more I have so much going for me but I feel empty right now. Trying online dating but it's bring up anxieties. Thanks for reading guys.
I want to blow my brains out.
Depression Support / by weirdman
Last post
 May 20th, 2019
...See more I try my best and my life feels so empty.
Thank you guys for this subcommunity!
Relationship Stress / by weirdman
Last post
 April 14th, 2019
...See more Being single, I've always felt alone in my struggles but now I feel normal :) I feel like now I can people to lean on when I'm sad about being single. Thank you all!
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