Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
Awful... just awful. I felt really good after running and then I jumped straight to developing my Android app, after which I did some studying of Unity engine and a bit of refresher of Linear Algerba...
But as soon as I stopped, took a breather from all of it and tried to interact and talk with friends and family, I began to feel really low and irritated.
Because my mind immediately began to lush towards her (very dear friend, who has hurt badly few days ago) and everything else just became nuisance at that moment. Now after a bit ot workout I feel better and I will try to go to a cinema and see how that goes for me but it's really hard, when all you could think is about us and things, stuff about we talked, did.... which we may never do, unless she makes up her mind and comes all out front.
That and I feel bit of anxiety about decision to change the Uni, because I wanted to finish master program on another, which I like more and it has more to offer. At least that all seemed like good idea at the time... Now it's to late to revert anything and I'm not so sure anymore.
I am a tad depressed, a girl I like and hold very dear can't make up her mind what she wants, even though we both know how we feel about each other and made few important promises, which obviously to her don't mean much as to me, or am I just too self-centered and hypocrite? - Nah, that's rhetorical question, other people have told me opposite...Man, do I wish it that was the case.
Then there is this University switching I decided, so I could finish master's course (post-graduate), in the University with more benefits, better reputation and opportunities... Seemed like good idea at the time, I still think it is but I have doubts, unreasonable doubts.
And then there is family issues which last for well over a year now and there so no sight of end to them, they just put additional strain to mine already overly stressed state..
@Steefy
Hi, do you think maybe she's afraid to say what she feels to you because maybe she REALLY doesn't know how you actually feel about her. And the promises, perhaps she's afraid you won't follow through. Just looking at it from another side. I really don't know your relationship. Maybe just sit and talk seriously with her. Good luck, I hope it works out
Every time I think about my financial situation I want to die.
That's how I feel right now.
I just had to make yet another student loan payment. I wanted to use the last of my money for another psychiatrist appointment but I guess that's not happening. 2bad4me
@LaaLa I am sorry to hear you are having financial issues. Sometimes there are ways to default on your loans
@Jamie0906 I think you mean deferment. Defaulting on a loan means you need to pay the full sum immediately - it's the last thing I want to do. I already got a 6 month deferment for three of my loans, but the fourth one got rejected for deferment. But yes, it sucks
I felt okay today. Until a little bit ago. Then I felt like I was unimportant. I know she loves me, but it doesn't feel that way right now.
@TheInfiniteSea - I'm really sorry to hear that - I know it may be hard for you right now as it sounds like you're having to go through a lot.. please know that we're all here to support you, so please feel free to connect to us at anytime, and we'll happily listen
I hope things start to get better soon, and thankyou for sharing this with us all, hang in there<3
I feel scared because for the past few month I have felt sad tired and alone. I'm really scared that this means depression. I've been having really dark thoughts too and I feel so stupid for thinking them.
@HavaLynn - I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling so scared - it sounds like things feel quite unclear and uncertain lately
Please don't feel stupid for thinking and feeling this way, because it's definitely far from stupid! Thankyou so much for posting this - please feel free to connect to any of the amazing listeners here, or join group chats, look at self help chats.. just anything that may be helpful, I really hope things start to get better for you soon - please know that I believe in you!
@Nicola2468 thank you
Just numb as usual
@plummaple9898 - I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling numb.. but I really do appreicate you posting this and for staying here Please feel free to use 7cups as much as possible to maybe help.. perhaps by talking about how you feel with someone, or reading up information about your situation, or merely just seeking a friend for support.. just please know we're all here for you if you ever need us, I wish you all the best
Today, I feel...stressed, frustrated and just like I want to cry and scream at the same time. I didn't want to do anything today but I ended up going out with my sisters and my mum to get coffee. I love coffee and it usually improves my mood. But not today.
I snapped at my brother. I shouted at him, actually shouted. I said sorry, but he said that if I was sorry I wouldn't have shouted at him. But he just doesn't understand that everything and anything can make me snap. I am sorry, I hate myself for yelling at him.
I want to write something. But I know that anything I write will be extremely depressing. I have thoughts to write, I have ideas, but...I know it'll turn out just...depressing. I have the motivation, but it's not going to last long.
I just want to scream!
I'm emotionally exhausted by the last 24 hours. I've beaten myself up over & over about a mistake. A full blown panic attack & a day of ruminating about why I am not worthy of love. Followed by episodes of crying and feeling isolation is the key and my demise.
@gregariousTangerine6100
hi...I also always beat myself about the things I've done wrong. Here's one small thing you've done right - connect with others who can understand a little of what ur going thru...
I honestly don't feel very good. During the end of the year and over the summer, I thought my depression had gone. But with the first week of school, along with major social and generalized anxiety, I feel sad. I feel like every move I make is filled with doubt and sadness. I don't know what to do. All I want to do is stay home and sleep. I also haven't been eating, my stomach has felt so nervous.
@GollomGirl145
It's normal when life makes major steps for you to want to pull back. For me with depression and anxiety, I find two things work well. I give myself micro jobs like put my feet in my slippers and ridiculous as it may sound I heavily congratulate myself for that...before one knows it one has done 20 microthings for the day. Also tell someone you trust you're not eating so well...maybe they cut up some fruit and leave it by your bed?
@GollomGirl145
i understand girl, but hey don't forget this is just temporary a bright new days are about to find you,
PM me if you feel like takking to someone, you got me! :)
I'm still getting worse despite my efforts.
@ThomasHs
STAY STRONG :)
@enchantingvision94 I'm running out of things to try.
@ThomasHs
I understand at times things are difficult, but hey comeon! we are all here for you, you got me.
you can talk to me anytime you want to. PM me we sure will figure a best way to bring happiness to your life :)
@ThomasHs
I know depression is a weight on your shoulders and is such a difficult thing to overcome, but every effort you make is a step in the right direction. I am so proud of you for fighting back, even though it seems like things are getting worse. It's ok if you have to take a step back before moving forward again. We are all here cheering you on and will always support you no matter what.