Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Well where can we read your poetry

Right here I guess. :/ you wanna read it really?

Here goes

Deep blue scars run parallel to your eyesight, marking where I used to be.
Reaching through my irises and cracking my little heart with poison.
Poison that slipped from your fingers as you walked from sea to shore.
And blue skies were never more sad than when the wind whispered and the sea turned to glass.
Even all the fish in the sea froze like pop bottles in an icebox, and I, the shore, weep gritty tears as I watched the world be swept away in sharp frozen thunder.

rock bottom finds a new low everyday. I'm done with this pathetic existence yet something wont me end it

Feeling so down..wanna cry all the time ..I feel this loneliness enveloping my soul.. this constant pain of betrayal

Why do you feel betrayed

My heart has been stomped on and abused so much

I spent the day looking for something to make me feel better or to understand my chronic depression. I hate it and I hate not wanting to be awake.

Like I shouldn't be happy. I feel like I should be sad but I don't act as sad as I really feel and I have no clue what is going on.

Today I feel the lowest I have ever felt in my life. Life has lost its spark. I want to cry so bad right now but I can't. I have borderline personality disorder and I have severe abandonment issues. I have trouble figuring out if it's me or the people who ignore me for hours on end or both. I am tired but don't want to sleep because I'm trying to regulate my sleep pattern. I'm exhausted all the time and can't relax and be still. I'm lonely but look in the wrong places. I feel like I can't love again.

I'm feeling unstable. I'm fighting suicidal thoughts. I'm feeling clingy...I crave attention from my bf but I'm too afraid he will tell me no. I have these...negative thoughts all the time telling me he doesn't need me anymore...that he's getting tired of me being upset all the time. I'm stressed about going back to school and failing. I'm not working so I can finish school but I feel like a free loader on my bf but he's said more than once that he's OK with it. Ugh...I'm a jumbled mess.

I'm feeling lost, lonely. not sure what my purpose in life is right now.

I feel terrible Everyone always treats me like shit And i cant take this anymore I so frustrasted and done Please help Ive given up

I feel like a failure. A piece of shit. Worthless.

I feel loss, and guilt. And today is the anniversary Of my grandaddys death, and that was the day everything started rolling down hill. 😌

In the same vote. Im sorry for your loss, i really am. Me and you propably think they were here right now, and your not alone.

How I feel...this is usually the question I'm always asked...

I feel like I'm disappointing everyone in my life..and if my kokum (grandma) was here right now..she would be most ashamed...

I feel like i'm being used..not loved enough...feel like someone that loves me Doesn't even want me...

My anxiety always raises up to the point where i'm cornered..can't breath..Feel like dying but im not...

Thats how i feel...

I feel very hopeless. I feel like when I'm in a depressed state, I like it. I just feel isolated away from everything and everybody.

I feel incomplete. I'm a person who loves very hard. It's truly devastating when I wake up each morning with swollen eyes & mascara stains. So today, I feel emotional pain & I wish it would stop

Alone even though I'm not. Unwanted. Tired. I can't sleep despite being very tired and I feel hopeless because I've been without steady work since December of last year. I feel worthless. I fantasize about doing horrible things to myself regularly but I can never take those steps. I wish someone could fix me. I have no real support system, no money for therapy, and my doctor bills are piling up. I started out great, buying a house and a new (used) car but now the car has been nothing but problems along with the house, I can't even pay my share of the bills and I'm just so sick of it.

Today, I feel empty. I feel alone and unloved. I feel thrown aside by my family, my boyfriend's family, my friends, everyone. I feel looked over and judged. Why bother listening to someone like me? I feel like people get the wrong impression of me and don't care enough to change it. I feel useless and like a burden on the world. I feel like the world would be a better place without me being born. I feel nothing but pain in my chest

Today was a good day, but when I watch a really good movie, I start to get depressed, I watched the movie Thirteen, and that is a really good movie, so yeah. I hope I have a good day tomorrow

Tomorrow will be a wonderful day! :)

I feel depressed , not able to be happy again m I don't even noticed myself m I wished I was happy and back to normal

I am so so very depressed and I'm fighting the urge to cut :'(

@Replacingshadows

well keep fighting that urge till it falls to the ground and dies!

I'm feeling sad. I want my life to go somewhere but it feels like I can never even take the first step. Or if I do take a step it's in the wrong direction.

Today feeling better than yesterday .. but the pain is still there ..feeling hopeless just wishing this torrents of emotions just to go away .. can't think straight. . Putting on my mask so nobody knows what I'm going thru it's just tiring

I know just what u mean.

We have same feelings it's like I don't want people know what's happening to me now that I'm facing a problem because right now Im recently separated to my husband I can't believe it's happening to me

I feel awful! Bad enough real life is tearing me apart, but I had the worst dream in my life this morning. And that's got me feeling pretty bummed. Dang, I can't even have happy dreams at least now. Smh

Tired. I wish I could sleep forever and woke somewhere in dreamland.

I feel exhausted and I don't have enough energy to get out of bed nothing seems to be going right and I feel myself slipping again

Stressed and sad. I don't really mind about being stressed but it bothers me to feel sad when I have no reason to feel it.

i am very depressied and dont fil suported

I don't feel like life is worth living anymore my life is going no where's I wake up and do the same thing everyday.so boring I think aboult dieing all the time no friends no family no one that supports me I can't get on my feet im nothing.i see people all arould and how good they have it and I know that I will never have it as good as they do I feel so down trying to find someone to reach out to but I get nothing I could go as far as I could and just lay down and not one person would ever care or know I'm goin it's sad that I can say that

I feel incredibly lonely... broken to the point of pain. I want to cry but it doesn't come out. I feel so tired... physically, mentally, and emotionally.

lonely ..

The mornings and afternoons are great... But when it comes to night and the sky gets dark the feeling of loneliness just seems to fill me just like it does every other night

Crap. My binge eating starts to kick in due to my insomnia..

Today I feel horrible about myself