Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I feel confused today. Sometimes I have hope, other times I feel despair. I though bad things today, more than yesterday. But I cried less.
I feel nothingness....darkness surrounds me and I'm lost in my own body
bored. of everything.
I feel unattractive, unwanted, and like I'm bothering everyone in my life...
Well where can we read your poetry
Right here I guess. :/ you wanna read it really?
Here goes
Deep blue scars run parallel to your eyesight, marking where I used to be.
Reaching through my irises and cracking my little heart with poison.
Poison that slipped from your fingers as you walked from sea to shore.
And blue skies were never more sad than when the wind whispered and the sea turned to glass.
Even all the fish in the sea froze like pop bottles in an icebox, and I, the shore, weep gritty tears as I watched the world be swept away in sharp frozen thunder.
rock bottom finds a new low everyday. I'm done with this pathetic existence yet something wont me end it
Feeling so down..wanna cry all the time ..I feel this loneliness enveloping my soul.. this constant pain of betrayal
Why do you feel betrayed
My heart has been stomped on and abused so much
I spent the day looking for something to make me feel better or to understand my chronic depression. I hate it and I hate not wanting to be awake.
Like I shouldn't be happy. I feel like I should be sad but I don't act as sad as I really feel and I have no clue what is going on.
Today I feel the lowest I have ever felt in my life. Life has lost its spark. I want to cry so bad right now but I can't. I have borderline personality disorder and I have severe abandonment issues. I have trouble figuring out if it's me or the people who ignore me for hours on end or both. I am tired but don't want to sleep because I'm trying to regulate my sleep pattern. I'm exhausted all the time and can't relax and be still. I'm lonely but look in the wrong places. I feel like I can't love again.
I'm feeling unstable. I'm fighting suicidal thoughts. I'm feeling clingy...I crave attention from my bf but I'm too afraid he will tell me no. I have these...negative thoughts all the time telling me he doesn't need me anymore...that he's getting tired of me being upset all the time. I'm stressed about going back to school and failing. I'm not working so I can finish school but I feel like a free loader on my bf but he's said more than once that he's OK with it. Ugh...I'm a jumbled mess.