Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

@Angelofdepression, I'm sorry that you feel that way. Was something particular happened that made you feel so terrible?

Sending you many hugs, lovely!

@Celaeno I just...I'm always the second choice. The only time I get spoken to is if they need to use me.

@Angelofdepression, I see, lovely. It must be quite hard for you when you get ignore in social interactions. Would you like to tell a bit more who are you treating so inattentively?

@Celaeno I mean I guess it doesn't really matter. Nothing about this pathetic life I live is important.

@Angelofdepression, I don't know about that, because I'm not you, lovely, and don't know anything about your life. But let me say, that depression is a tricky and malicious disorder and it uses our brain against us. Your feelings are important, but they don't define you. You are much more than the dread you see in your life. You matter, because you are not giving in. You matter, because everyone does. You matter, just because.

You are enough, lovely. And you deserve better than this misery. It's something worth fighting for.

@Celaeno thank you so much. I wish I could have spoken with more people like you. That would have saved me. I'm sorry. I wish you the best in life. I hope you do well.

@Angelofdepression, I'm here for you now, lovely. Whenever you want to talk.

*hugs*

I also have depression and I know how painful it is. However, we don't have to struggle alone. All my love ❤️

@Celaeno thank you and I'm glad that you're here. The same is extended to you as well.

I feel alone!!! I can't eat or sleep...only cry

@tranquility89, I'm so sorry that you feel such a despair. It must be really difficult for you, lovely. I'm proud of you that you've reached out to us, though. Have you tried reaching out to a listener to talk in 1-on-1 chat? I believe doing that can really help you with loneliness.

*hugs*

I feel like I'm uninteresting to others

@Julymae711, depression can often makes us doubt our own social skills. But our emotions are not the facts, lovely. I personally believe people are interesting from default. Still, there is something which we can do to help you feel better. Do you have some idea how to stop feeling uninteresting?

I feel lethargic but I also feel okay.

@QuietPastelRain, having low energy levels is completely ok. This disorder is really exhausting. I'm happy to hear that you feel ok. Wish you a kind day, lovely!

I feel suicidal but not bad enough to actually do something. I don't really know what to do anymore because I seem to be getting so much worse, but it's okay.

@tealLime2602, it must be really difficult for you to insisting to keep going, like it seems it's pointless to even try. I know you are in so much pain that you just want all of your sufferings to disappear.

You are so brave and strong, darling, even if you don't believe it.

Please, click ✯ here ✯

I know how hard it is to reach out in times of despair - I was myself here in this darkness. But you have already done it. It is hard, but you still managed to do it and it was courageous. I'm so proud of you! You can overcome anything, trust me. Or trust yourself, trust your voices and your pasts. You are fighting for so long, you are stronger than you believe.

Your pain seems unbearable, and you just don't have a strength to carry one. You just want to find a solution, to break out from this prison in your minds. Still, you're thoughts are the important indicators for something else. When you want to end it all, or even if you don't want to follow on this thoughts, even if you were just contemplating the death, even if you feel stronger now and think you will never go through with your just-for-fun-created plans, it's a big red flag that something is really wrong. These thoughts are signalizing that you are looking for a way to outlet your pain. No living creature wants to die, we instinctively do everything to help us cope with a given situation. But depression is sneaky and mostly uses our own brain against us.

So please, I encourage you to click the above link and visit the website, and then to simply chat with someone. There are a lot of people who can help you, you don't have to struggle alone.

You are strong, and even if you feel terrified, you are still reaching out, still fighting, still trying. I'm so proud of you, wonderful. You are doing a great job. You don't have to show inhuman persistence anymore. You can ask for help, you can receive it, and you can recover. You really don't have to suffer in silence, lovely. And you can survive it.

Sending you all of my strength ❤️

Less stress after doing, facing, taming my fears

@pinkTea, glad to hear that. How are you dong today, lovely?

@Celaeno unfortunately i had bad mood today, it happens up and down always within weeks, days, my mood so uncontrollable.

@pinkTea, when you have mood swings it feels like you have no control over yourself and it is causing you pain. In the same way, it also gives you a somewhat hope, because whenever the hard time knock you over, you can be sure that the better one is ahead.

Have you been monitoring your moods to see if there is a pattern to it? This can enormously help you to notice and counter the triggering moments.

It really sucks when you do nothing wrong but people say you do and leave you for it :/

@michaelross12, I agree. Forcing you to take a blame for something you can't hold any responsibility for is completely unfair. And such a treatment hurts. A lot.

I'm glad that you've reached out to tell us about it.

Like I lost a friend.

*hugs tightly*

I'm so sorry, @lavenderCamp4469...

@Celaeno thanks

@lavenderCamp4469 owh big hug you wonna chat.

I feel like I don't know myself, I feel like I'm just acting all the time, I can't talk to anyone because I just don't feel safe but the is so much I want to say . I just need someone to hug and tell me everything is going to be okay

@peachSailboat2974, you can talk to us, lovely. We won't judge you and will listen to everything you want to say. You're safe here.

*hugs tightly and sends you a basket of cookies*

I feel like I'm not really living my life. I'm just going through the motions. It's the same thing every day and all I ever feel is pain (physical and mental). And my anxiety has gotten out of control. I recently just moved to another state and I worry about everything. I skip my first class in the morning, everyday, just crying in the bathroom because of everything. How can I manage my anxiety?

I'm horrible. I really want to die but I can't. Not a "I can't there's so much to live for" but I know I can't. That's one of my things. I can't do it. I really, really wish I could. But I can't.

@ScreamingForSanity

I feel the same thing everyday. I always think aboit slitting my wrists in the bath tun but I never have the guts or the will

@stitchesgirl not especially like that. I just can't. Like, I would have no problem making myself, but I can't. I don't know. I'm a head case.

I feel numb. Like I don't belong anywhere. I feel like a complete waste of space. I think I'm just gonna end it. There's no point in living anyways.

I feel like I care too much and not enough at the same time. The person that mattered most to me...I ended up caring more about them than they ever did to me, and the worst part is that I agreed to kust be friends

@stitchesgirl trust me I know that feeling but it's torcherd haveing them as just a friend but it's worse when you losse them compleatly hang in there you'll get threw this

@samuelmspellane

Yeah but the guy I'm talking about...he literally just called me his world and beautiful and that he likes me just yesterday

I feel like I'm done trying.

i feel like my dad has completely forgotten I exist so I feel terrible about myself as usual.

i feel like crying all the time but it's fine.

I've had better days but I've also had way worse. I'm feeling like I'm surviving but not actually living.